Hello! I'm new into Gravitation, so please bear with me.

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Gravitation, if I did there would be way more kissing scenes between Yuki and Shuichi. :D

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Chapter 1 – Little Thoughts, Little Doubts

"Yuuukiii, I'm home!" Shuichi yelled as he entered their shared apartment. The rock star found it a necessity to always notice his lover of his presence. He heard a crack and Shuichi knew that Eiri would show himself any minute to welcome him home with a murmured 'okaeri'. As the blonde showed himself in the door, Shuichi didn't hesitate a second and strangled him to the ground with a big and tight hug.

"Get off, brat. How many time do I have to tell you to cut out this nonsense," Eiri growled, annoyed and pleased at the same time. Sure, the writer hasn't entirely got used to the small ball of energy in his life yet, but recently he found the tiresome antics of his lover quite amusing and perhaps he even enjoyed them to an extent.

"But... but... I missed you so much today! You know, our new album will soon come out, so we have to promote, promote and promote! Man, and the release isn't due to next week, so by then I will be only a dump of misery!"

"And you're saying that you aren't one now?" Eiri retorted back a devilish smirk appearing his lips.

"Yuki! Stop being mean to me!" Shuichi whined, looking at the novelist with his amethyst orbs with a pout on his face. The two lovers were actually having fun, teasing each other like this. At the beginning of their relationship, Eiri's snappy comments were actually meant to hurt the younger boy, but even after their relationship got a little more serious, Eiri didn't stop saying harsh and mean things to Shuichi. Luckily, the pink head knew that Eiri didn't mean any of it, so this funny game of insulting and whining was born.

"Now, would you like to go out for dinner, tonight? I'm done with my work for today," Eiri suggested, standing up and literally throwing the singer off of his body. Shuichi, like always, just bounced from the floor like a ball and in seconds stood straight with sparkles surrounding his aura as he heard the word 'dinner' leave Eiri's mouth.

The two soon left and seated themselves in Eiri's black Mercedes, while deciding where to go for dinner. While Eiri focused on driving, Shuichi's sight shifted from the window to the writer. He couldn't help, but smile widely as he actually realized that they were heading out for dinner, like a real couple. It has been six months, since Eiri returned from New York and Shuichi found it still unreal that his lover was actually here and he promised to stay.

Shuichi pretended to be always fresh and happy, but as of late he had heavy problems with sleeping and not only because of that activity. His mind was almost unbearably plagued by one person and that person was Kitazawa Yuki. Eiri refused to talk with Shuichi about it and the singer knew better than to keep bother him about it. Still he couldn't really find closure with this issue if the blonde didn't talk with him about it. In the six months, Shuichi had really a lot of thinking done. He realized a lot of things involving Eiri and his former teacher. For instance that he probably never really let go of Yuki. His heart still belonged, even if partly, to that cruel man and even though he betrayed Eiri in the worst possible way, he knew that Eiri could never hate him.

Was there really place for two in a heart as fragile as Eiri's?

Shuichi thought about this question for the past month and he still wasn't able to find an answer. Or perhaps, it wasn't the problem that he didn't find an answer more like he didn't want an answer to a question this painful, since he knew if the answer would 'no', it would shatter him into pieces. Shuichi really was naïve and even childish, but he had a so called 'serious' side too. Despite Eiri, especially Seguchi, thinking of him as careless, he was probably the most observant of all of them. He noticed things, other people wouldn't see at first sight. Sounds ridiculous for a person like Shuichi, but he rather kept this side of him to himself, since, frankly, he didn't really like this particular part of him.

"Brat, stop daydreaming and get off the car," Eiri said, snapping Shuichi out of his thinking. The singer shook his head and grinned at the writer almost too aggressively jumping out of the car. Eiri sighed but smiled nonetheless at his little lover. Seeing Shuichi's smile made the novelist actually quite happy, though he would never admit such thing to pink head. It actually always brightened his day, when he caught Shuichi before he left for work and 'squeezed' out a small grin or laugh from him.

Still...

Was it love he felt for the singer? He asked himself this question more than tons of times already, but never found the answer. Eiri honestly wanted to love that little idiot of his, he wanted to be happy with someone who gave him so much love and satisfied himself with getting only half of the same in return. He whined about it a lot, but always graced Eiri with smiles and all things a normal human being could ask for.

It has been way too many years, but his former tutor still dominated his mind, of course when he wasn't currently on medication. The funny part was that he had really no problem with admitting to himself that he still loved Yuki, perhaps even more than anyone else. Yuki did all these horrible things to him and he still couldn't help but almost desperately loving him. Was he really so masochistic that he craved for the pain from the lingering anguish in his heart?

"Yuki? What do you want to order? I can't decide between number 16 and 24," Shuichi said thoughtfully, looking into the menu with his 'thinking' face. Yuki just ignored his question and pulled a cigarette from his packet in his pocket and lit the nicotine stick and inhaled deeply to ease his mind from all these annoying thoughts.

Maybe a nice night with a beer and Shuichi could take his mind off of things for awhile.

REVIEW

A/N I hope I didn't make the characters OOC. I'll probably switch to POVs in the next chapter, since I'm not really used to write in third person as it is harder to express all the feelings the characters have. If you find anything wrong, please point it out to me. Tell me your thoughts and see ya next time!