Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush...which makes me sad. And this story is based loosely on Taylor Swift's "You're Not Sorry" which I don't own either!
Everyone loved Kendall Knight. It was almost impossible not to. He was tall and muscular with a gorgeous smile and sandy blonde hair that always fell into his amazing green eyes. He was outgoing, charismatic; funny…he had such a strong presence that it drew people to him. No one knew this better than Noelle Lane. She had loved Kendall for so long so when he finally asked her to go steady she had been beyond happy. But it hadn't taken her long to realize the price she would have to pay.
*Flashback*
Noelle sat curled up in a chair in the corner of her room. Her tearstained face gazed out the window and she glanced down at her phone as it buzzed for the eighth time that night. "Kendall" it flashed and for a brief moment she considered not bothering to answer like she had that past seven times. If she didn't pick it up then she wouldn't have to deal with the situation and she wouldn't have yet another reason she should break up with him. But this time something made her pick up.
"Hey Kendall! What's up?" she said quietly, trying to act like nothing was wrong. She knew it wasn't any use. Kendall had looked up from making out with that girl (whose name she really know) and had seen her standing there. The worst part? This wasn't the first time this had happened…not by a long shot.
"Noelle, don't do that…don't act like you don't know what this is about." he said pleadingly. She sighed and hung her head, running her fingers through her choppy short brunette hair. She could feel the tears welling up in her blue eyes once more as defeat set in. He knew…she couldn't avoid it anymore.
"What do you want me to do?" she asked dejectedly. "You promised this wouldn't happen again. You lied, Kendall!" She was astonished by the anger in her voice. She had never spoken to him like that before.
He must have been thinking the same thing because there was a long pause on his end of the phone. "I know, and I'm so sorry Noelle! I don't know what came over me. I wasn't myself, but I promise that this is the last time." She could hear the desperation in his voice… "You're the one I love…only you. Please, can you forgive me?"
It was always the same conversation. Noelle would get hurt and cry. Kendall would call her or talk to her and apologize profusely, promising never to do it again. And she, looking for any excuse to stay with him, would always forgive him. She wanted so badly to have the strength to tell him no…not this time around. She wanted to be strong enough to tell him they were over and not to call her or speak to her ever again! …but she couldn't.
"I forgive you…I love you," she whispered.
*End Flashback*
When Kendall and the guys left for LA, Noelle had known that there was no way in hell Kendall was going keep his promise. He may have loved her…just not enough. And yet she couldn't bring herself to leave him, no matter what he did. She would always be there, waiting for him to come back to her. Because everyone loved Kendall Knight…and no one knew that better than Noelle Lane.