I'm not sure if i'm keeping the current name, suggestions?
I guess you could say this is my first JacobxBellaxEdward conflict story and i'm pretty excited.
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I couldn't keep doing this to myself, to them. They didn't deserve it, neither one of them did in the least bit but me being my selfish self, had put the two boys who had done nothing but care for me, in a ridiculous amount of pain. Maybe their lives would have turned out better if I would have just stayed in Phoenix. I would know of no Edward Cullen and he would not know of me. The only thing Jacob and I would know of each other would be the childhood memories of me playing with his sister. That's it, I decided. I can't keep them hanging on like this. I have to choose and I need to choose one forever. God knew how I was always second guessing myself, how I could never make up my mind but I told myself over and over that I could definitely give up one of them and save them both even more heartache. But what was I supposed to do? Both were a huge part of my life and I wasn't sure how to even start to analyze everything. Edward was, Edward. There was no word to truly describe him. He was like a glorious God whom I did nothing to deserve. He was everything I could have ever hoped for yet he was nothing of the sort. He was perfect in every way possible but it sometimes seemed as he was more of an authority figure then a boyfriend. And then there was Jacob, my personal sun. The boy who have saved me from insanity just a few months back. Jacob was just as much gorgeous as Edward was but in so many different ways. The way his brown round shaped eyes would reflect the sunlight when we would stand on the beach on rare sunny days, or the way his shaggy brown hair would fall in his face on a windy afternoon. The way he smiled at the very sound of my voice. But yet his immaturity made me wonder just what the right choice in this situation was. Edward and Jacob both brought out a different side of me, 2 sides of me that I wanted to hold on to forever. But the time had come. It was time for me to make my decision....
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