Love Is Painful

AN: Hey everyone first of all, thank you all very much for clicking on my story. Also, I would like to thank everyone who read and reviewed my Sonny With A Chance stories I really do appreciate it. This is in fact the first fanfic i've written for Vampire Diaries so I apologize if Damon is a little OOC. Or if I overuse the word Despite LOL other than that enjoy! Don't forget to review!

Damon's POV

Damon Salvatore. The one everyone thought couldn't feel pain or emotions because he had no heart. The truth is he did have a heart. Until the only girl he loved broke that heart and the girl he finds himself slowly fall in love with (more and more each day) broke what was left of his already broken heart. Katherine. The girl he fell in love with 145 years ago. He thought they would be together for all of eternity. Damon was wrong. Very wrong. He still believes that she loves him and He's damn sure he still loves her. If she loves you Damon why the hell did she leave you? He tried to find her. He looked in the tomb and she wasn't there. Damon knew what this meant. She was alive. She was out there somewhere and didn't bother looking for him. At that very moment his heart shattered into a million pieces. His heart had been broken too many times. He just couldn't pick up the pieces of his broken heart again. He'd thought Katherine was his soul mate, his eternal love but he guesses she just thought of him as her toy. Just one to play with until you're fed up and bored with it so you just let it fall to the floor as you watch it shatter into tiny pieces. Even after deserting him and making it known that she doesn't care Damon still can't help but wonder. Is she okay? If so, where is she? He tried time and time again to get over her. Despite his hardest efforts the memory of Katherine Pierce still haunts him. Every second of everyday. Now knowing that she doesn't give a damn about him he's beginning to forget the one he loved. It takes a few months, but her memory does not haunt him as much as it used to. Damon is still unstable when it comes to Katherine because deep down inside of him he knows that despite the sorrow and misery it caused him, he still loves Katherine just not as much as he used to. One day a strange feeling comes over him. One he hasn't felt in over 145 years. He knows what it feels to love again. This time it's with someone different. Despite that Damon knows that Elena could never love him back because she loves Stefan. He loses all hope. Due to this he knows that he has to get her to hate him. He thinks maybe it'll shut out all the pain. For awhile it works, she hates him, he's content with that. Then soon she wants to try and be friends. What's one more painful stab to his undead heart going to do? They become friends. Very good friends actually. Then one day Elena's birth mother Isobel comes to town in search of the Jonathan Gilbert device. Damon trusts Elena enough to give her the devise that could potentially kill him and his brother. Its founder's day and everything goes downhill from there. John injects him with vervain and carries him and puts him with the rest. This was it Damon thought. It's all over now. While watching the others he finds the only good side to all of this once he was dead maybe then the stinging pain of rejection would go away. All his pain would soon vanquish. Suddenly a figure comes down the steps its Stefan coming to save him. The two get out safely. Just when he thought that the pain was going to go away the pain he was trying to forget came back. Katherine. He tries to look like he's over her but she sees through the façade. Katherine and Elena were the only two people that were able to break down the wall and see the true Damon. He's come to a decision. He needs to know." I just need the truth just once" he pleads
" the truth is... I've never loved you. It was always Stefan."

Hearing her words make his heart break into tiny pieces. His icy blue eyes fill up with hot tears threatening to overflow and slide down his face. Despite how much he wants to stake Katherine right now for leading him on he grabs a quick drink and proceeds to Elena's house he has to talk to her. As he arrives and perches upon the edge of her bed she walks into the room. He needs to know how she feels and he needs to know now because he knows she's feeling something. She's just denying it.
"You're the liar Elena. There is something going on between us and you know it. You're lying to me and you're lying to Stefan but most of all you're lying to yourself." for the second time tonight he pleads.
"Look at me I care about you I do... But I love Stefan. It's always going to be Stefan."

As she says this, for the second time tonight his heart breaks. Why? He thought. Why is it always Stefan? Is there something wrong with me? Or am I just not good enough? I am tired of dealing with all the pain. It was just too much for me to live with. At that very moment Jeremy walks in. I know he wants to be a vampire. I need to flip the switch. I don't want to feel anymore. So he walks up to Jeremy and snaps his neck.

Nobody POV

He had just flipped the switch but why does he still feel pain? Is it because it does not have the power to take away the pain of a broken heart? Maybe. They say you can't break what has already been broken. Well tonight Elena had broken something that had been broken too many times in the past. All Damon knows is that tonight his heart was bleeding. It had been shredded into a million pieces. Even though both Elena and Katherine broke his heart tonight he knows he still loves both of them with all the little pieces.

It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces

~ Unknown

AN: How was that? I hope it was good! As you can maybe tell I'm not too confident. So I hope if you're still reading this A.N that you liked my story. Also, if you liked this one I also wrote a story on Katherine the other day. So maybe you'd like that one too. (That is if you liked this one). If you read this far… Virtual cookies for you! Please review.