Janto songfic (Fix You by Coldplay) disclaimer: I don't own. Set between season 2 and CoE
When you try your best, but you don't succeed.
You can't save everyone – you know that. So why do you let it hit you so hard every time?
When you get what you want, but not what you need.
You've got me- of course you've got me – but I'm not what you need, really, am I? what you really need is a Doctor.
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep.
Every time you close your eyes, the faces of the dead stare back. But there's no rest for the wicked.
Stuck in reverse.
And you can't even die. What kind of life can you lead when there's no end to it?
When the tears come streaming down your face.
It breaks my heart every time you cry – you know that, don't you?
When you lose something you can't replace.
You tell yourself that you can't replace them, but the worst part is you can. And you hate to think of them as expendable.
When you love someone, but it goes to waste.
The only person you love is pretty much the only person who sees right through you.
Could it be worse?
And yet, somehow, every time you tell yourself it couldn't get any worse, it does.
Lights will guide you home,
Your mother always told you 'don't follow the lights', but you've given up caring.
And ignite your bones,
And if it kills you, I mean really kills you, you'll be glad. At least you won't have to live any more.
And I will try to fix you.
But I'll always be here, picking up the pieces each time you fall. That's what I'm here for.
High up above or down below.
Wherever you go it's always the same. On every planet, on every star – there's no escape.
When you're too in love to let it go.
You love him so much. And it kills me that I can't make you forget. It kills me that I can't be him.
But if you never try, you'll never know
But you're scared. Too scared to act on the only love you've ever believed in.
Just what you're worth.
And you tell me you're not worth it. But you're wrong. Because you're everything to me.
Lights will guide you home,
Your mother always told you 'don't follow the lights', but you've given up caring.
And ignite your bones,
And if it kills you, I mean really kills you, you'll be glad. At least you won't have to live any more.
And I will try to fix you.
But I'll always be here, picking up the pieces each time you fall. That's what I'm here for.
Tears stream down your face,
And you're crying. Oh, baby, please don't cry! You're breaking my heart.
When you lose something you cannot replace.
It wasn't your fault – there was nothing you could've done. Anyway, they're happy now.
Tears stream down your face,
All I can do is hold you while your tears soak my shirt.
And I …
… love you.
Tears stream down your face,
And you're crying. Oh, baby, please don't cry! You're breaking my heart.
I promise you I will learn from your mistakes.
I know. I promise. But would it be better to die young or to have you watch me grow old?
Tears stream down your face,
All I can do is hold you while your tears soak my shirt.
And I …
… love you.
Lights will guide you home,
Your mother always told you 'don't follow the lights', but you've given up caring.
And ignite your bones,
And if it kills you, I mean really kills you, you'll be glad. At least you won't have to live any more.
And I will try to fix you.
But I'll always be here, picking up the pieces each time you fall. That's what I'm here for.
Thoughts?
xx