Hey guys this is my first wrestling story...and its about, as you may have guessed Matt and Lita.
Im not sure how anyone is going to like it...so please review telling me what you think, before I write anymore. If I get some reviews them Ill do a new chapter! Thanks and enjoy!!
Matt Hardy sat in his comfortable spot to which he did his best relaxing. He was back in his home in Cameron North Carolina. He has the next day and a half off and he wanted to make the best of it. What better way than to hang on in his hot topic on a crisp winter night.
For some reason though, Matt couldn't rest. His mind, and his heart, for that matter would just not let up.
"Two years Matt" He said out loud to himself while rubbing his temples. "It been too years" This time he said it more slowly and quietly, with less aggression.
The words were sinking it. That's the thing about this whole mess, for a while he was mad, and then hurt, depressed, and angry yet again. It was a vicious cycle. He thought it was all over however, but for some reason it was coming back again.
It was a little over two years since he had broken up with Lita, or Amy, better known to him. Its not that he wanted to however, he just couldn't get over her cheating on him with one of his best friends.
'I wanted marry you' Matt thought to himself.
His head hung low, it was going to be one of those nights, where he couldn't get her off of his mind.
Everything was going fine, for years and years they dated. She changed him, for the better, like no other person could. She gave him love, another passion besides wrestling. It was a relationship on a slow build, but they were crazy about one another. For the past year of their relationship they had been living together, in Matt's dream house…the house he believed some day they would be a family. He grew with her. Because of her he became a more sensitive and caring man.
"I was really growing to like him…and then you ruined everything" Matt stated to himself again. It was true, he really was liking the person he was becoming, Amy opened up a new side to him…a softer side and he wouldn't have changed it for anything.
Matt sighed and shook his head. A week before he found out about everything…the lies…the affair…they had talked about getting married. They had finally decided it was time to begin to think about something like that. Amy wanted a small wedding, beautiful, in the spring with all of her friends and family. Matt just wanted to be with her.
That all changed however when he found out she was sleeping with one of his good friends.
Matt then thought back to the day he confronted her about it.
flashback
Matt walked into Amy's hotel room and waited for her to return from her match. He was headed to the arena when he received the call from Adams, or Edge's wife. The call that would change his life. He decided the best thing to do was to wait for her at the hotel.
He loved her, but he couldn't be with her any more.
Amy arrived home later than he thought she would. She walked over and smiled a Matt, and then bent down to the bed where he was sitting, to give him a sweet kiss.
Matt he knew should have pulled away, that it was the right thing to do, but for some reason his couldn't do it. He had to taste her one last time.
She sat next to him on the bed "Hey, I thought you were coming to the arena?"
Matt turned to face her. His expression blank. She couldn't read it. Puzzled and unsuspecting she asked "Something wrong?…is it Jeff?"
"Where you with him?" Matt said his voice cold.
Amy looked at him in a puzzled manner "Jeff?" She questioned
Matt stood up, he couldn't take it anymore "Adam, god damnit." He said raising his voice.
Fear flashed over Amy's face, she still tried to deny it "Matt…what are you talking about?"
Matt pulled at his hair aggravated "Amy, you know what Im talking about."
The redhead shook her head.
Matt knelt down at her side "Are you fucking Adam?" he said blatantly, his words harsh, the truth cutting her like a knife.
"N-No Matt!" Amy exclaimed, in an over convincing manner. Maybe she was even trying to convince herself.
Matt god up and paced "Amy, don't lie to me." He paused "I know what's going on, his wife called me today, and when I got here, there was a message waiting for you from him"
Amy looked down at the ground, her mouth dry. She had been found out. She walked over to him, and went to place her hand on his arm, but he jerked away. "Matt…I am so sorry."
"No" Matt said shaking his head. "No. This cant be happening." He paused "Not to me…not us."
"Im sor-" Amy begin
"Just shut up" Matt said on the verge of tears, trying to hide how upset he was. "Why…When? Why?" So many questions were running to his head all at once.
"I don't know why" Amy yelled, now beginning to cry. " I was lonely, we started traveling together, he started hitting on me, and for a long time I just ignored it" Amy looked down "…Then one night….you remember, you had a set back on your recovery…and I was upset…so I went out with everyone and started drinking…to ease my mind…." She began to trail off.
"…So its been going on for two months?" Matt asked…still shocked at the truth.
Amy couldn't even nod, her head just hung low "…I got really …really drunk, and Adam took advantage of the situation. …and then after that it just didn't stop."
Matt looked at the ground, and then out of no where punched the wall next to him…Amy took a step back. "Why didn't it stop!" He demanded to know.
"I wanted it to…I just…I cant stop thinking about him." Amy paused reaching for his hand "I Love you…but I just couldn't stop"
Matt looked her in the eyes quickly before pulling away. "God Amy, I cant even look at you." He shook his head. " I love you."
"Matt I love--"
Matt cut her off " I just cant….I cant be with you…not like this….Amy…I thought we were going to get married…I thought you loved me" He siad emphasizing the word 'thought'.
"Matt" Amy cried " I do. I want to be with you."
Matt shook his head "No. No. You decided two months ago that it was over. I have to go…"
At this point Amy was bawling. She threw her arms around him in an attempt to make him stay. "Matt…don't go…we could work it out." He just shook his head. "Please…"She cried "Im so sorry….Baby I love you" She kissed him on the cheek.
Matt almost gave in but then pulled away from her. "I cant" a single tear ran down his cheek. "Not now…not anymore. " Matt grabbed his bag on the floor as he got ready to leave. He just kept repeating the words "I cant" over and over until he reached the door and slammed his head into it. " He turned to look at her once before he left, her back was against a wall her face soaked from the tears. He shook his head. "Fucking whore. I loved you…."
End flash back
Matt dunked his head under the warm water and then rose up again, shaking his head, trying to clear his thoughts. He couldn't shake the image of her on the floor crying as he shut the door.
This was such a messed up situation. It was only on nights like this that he admitted that he still thought about her. Most of the time he wouldn't allow himself to, convincing himself…and others, that she was not worth his time.
As he reentered his house, he saw signs of her everywhere. He could even smell her, but she was no where to be found.
He went straight up to bed. Shaken by his evenings thoughts..
Still he couldn't help but wonder if she did the same. Thought about him, and what they use to be. What they could have been.