Pain is a funny thing...
People say it makes you stronger,
but when you experience pain, all you
feel is weakness and self pity...
and all you can say is...
why?
I look around to see that I an in a room
full of people. But, alice and I are still alone. I
Seem to know that there are a thousand eyes watching me but I only feel two.
Alices...
I want to reach out and touch her...
to tell her Im sorry...
To tell her I missed her,
that I love her like a sister...
But I seemed to be paralyzed by her icy gaze...
She was as a statue carved out of stone...
Finally I managed to move my numb arm
out ot touchher face,
but in a flash she's gone.
Yes, I am still in a room full of people...
But I am all alone...
I had awoken from that dream with a jolt. I
was absolutley covered in swear,
but I did not care.
one thing conqeuredall other
thoughts.
The icy look on alices face.
It was the same look she had given me before
she left...before I had made her leave.
It gave me goose bumbs then...
It gave me goose bumbs now...
There had been something in
the dream that I had almost
forgotten.
When alice left,
jasper took her place,
I was crying.
he...was smiling.
"good morning sleepy head," Said a
smiling jubelant rosalie.
She was just as beautiful as any
supermodel times one-thousand.
I was so proud to have her as a mother
that I actually got teary...
Bella apeared with unchallenged grace
to embrace me...
"how's my favorite little sister." She
said in a perfect singing voice.
Soon they were all soruonding me.
Petting me, embracing me the way they always did.
Renessme was there to kiss my forehead gently.

She was every girls dream of what a big sister should be.

She understood what it felt like to be caught between the lines

of humanity and vampiressness.

I was the most human of all,

But the third of my blood was purely vampire,

and it craved for blood.

Blood which I refused to accept.

Finally, my favorite members of the family...

Jasper and emmett.
"Hey there small stuff" Said emmett
in his usual playful voice.
He was gentle and protective,
my perfect adoptive father.
"How did you sleep my gorgous little plum"
said jasper, the best big brother ever to exist.
Little plum, he always called me that,
and I always loved it.
But, now it was preceded by a question
I wish I didnt have to answer.
"I. uh, had a bad dream." I spoke
timidly. "Oh, what was it about love."
spoke uncle edward suddenly.
He was so unhumanly caring.
"um, alice...a"
the room grew silent, everyone was fozen in place
like statues. Only me and renessme even dared to take
a breath.
Alice had left so long ago...
But the pain of her absence was still fresh...