This isn't one of my normal shandy stories, This one is very personal to me and I felt like I need to write what I'm feeling, I know some of you won't like it because of the type of story it is and it involves the death of a main character but, This story is taking from my own experience with a person that I loved with everything I had, I want to say a HUGE thank you to CapricaM1983 for encouraging me to post this story, I do hope that all of you like it, and if you don't I understand completely, "Ya'll have been warned, All the mistakes are my own…..
When she walked back into her condo it was eerily quiet, it had been a few days since she had been there and it didn't feel like home to her anymore, she made her way down the hall to her bedroom and walked inside it wasn't the same without him being there, she made her way through her nightly routine after she had settled in bed she looked over at her phone knowing it wouldn't ring, as she laid there staring at the ceiling the tears started falling, she thought back to that day that her world fell apart.
"she had slept in that morning it was a Saturday and they hadn't caught a case so she took advantage of the down time, until her phone rang that afternoon, it was a very upset and distraught Nicole on the phone, "Sharon, sharon, dad's had a heart attack, he needs you, as she listened I'm on my way now she started to cry as she made her way to the hospital where she found Louie and Patrice sitting in the waiting room, they looked up when they saw her walk in, "Sharon he's not doing good, Louie whispered as he wrapped an arm around her shoulder, she looked at him again, "is he awake?
He looked at her a moment as he felt Patrice standing next to him, "No sharon they have him sedated he had another one right after nicole called you and it's not looking good, we are waiting on the doctor to come back out. About that time the doctor came through the door, She was a young looking doctor, she walked up to them.
"Hi I'm Doctor Szermer, "I've been taking care of Andrew since he came in, as she looked at sharon, "and you are his girlfriend? Sharon looked at her yes, "how is he? The doctor hesitated for a moment, "I'm not going to sugar coat anything with any of you, "it's not good he has sustained a lot of damage to the heart muscle itself and he isn't responding very well to the treatment and medicine we are trying to give him, "We are going to take him down for surgery to see if we can fix some of the damage that was done, We should know more once we have in the O.R. As she stood there listening to the doctor she could feel the tears threatening to fall as she gently touched louies arm she whispered that she was going to go out and call rusty and let him know what's going, he gently patted her arm as she turned and walked outside before she left she turned back to the doctor, "can I sit with him for a while until he's taken up to the O. R. ? "Sure if that's what you want to do, "I must tell you that the next few hours will be very crucial, "we aren't sure how he is going to respond to the medicine, At that sharon turned and walked outside to call her son, A few mins had passed and she made her way back inside, she saw louie and patrice waiting for along with the rest of their team, she stopped before she got to them to collect herself and her thoughts before she spoke, when they saw her coming back they all stood up waiting to see what she was going to say, "well its late I would like all of you to go home and get some rest, "I'm going to stay here and sit with him, "Sharon are you sure? "Louie asked, she could see the concern on his face, "yes, I can't leave him louie, "well if you need anything or you need us just call me, " I will she smiled sadly, he gave a her a quick hug as him and patrice walked out, "that goes for us too captain Julio spoke up first followed by buzz, tao, and amy, as they all left, she turned to nicole ,"honey you need to go home too and get some rest, she smiled sadly at her, "I think I am going to stay for a little while if that is ok with you? She could tell that nicole looked worried that she was going to say no but right now sharon needed her as much as nicole needed sharon, "that's more than fine with me honey, as they entered his room, he looked so pale and fragile as they both looked at each other as they made their way to the bed, A few hours later they were woken up to the sounds of the orderlies getting him ready to take him down to surgery, before they took him down she bent down and gently kissed him and whispered I love you as they took out of the room, she hugged nicole tightly as they sat in the waiting room for the doctor to come back out, it seemed like hours passed before the nurse followed by the doctor came out to talk to them. They stood up when they saw the doctor coming, "how is he doing? "Is he going to be ok? The doctor looked between them, "he suffered a lot of damage to his heart between the two heart attacks that he sustained before he arrived, right now it's up to andy and if he is willing to fight, "The next 24 to 48 hours are going to be critical. They both held each as they stood there processing what the doctor told them, "I'll check back on him in a little while two to should try to get some rest and something to eat, They made their way back into the room, "Nicole why don't you go ahead and head home and get some rest, "I know your exhausted, "what about you sharon? "you need to rest too, "I'll be fine honey, with that nicole hugged her and walked out of the room leaving her alone with andy.
Sharon sat down and took his hand in hers she just sat and stared at him as if he was going to wake up any second, but she knew that he wouldn't be for a while, if he even did, she didn't want to think about that right now she was just trying to keep it together for nicole, after what seemed like an eternity she realized that her and nicole had both fallen asleep, she stretched and smiled at nicole who looked even more tired than she let on, "honey how about you go ahead and head home and get some rest, I can call you if there is any change, nicole looked at her and yawned, yeah I guess your right, I need to check on dean and the boys anyway, "are you going to be ok here by yourself sharon? She asked concerned, "yes honey I'll be just fine I'm just going to sit here and do some thinking I'll be ok, she stood and hugged nicole, As she turned to leave nicole looked back at her, "you know he loves you with everything sharon, you know that right, she smiled at her "yes honey I do, "I love him too honey, "get some rest honey, she said as nicole walked out of the room leaving her alone with her thoughts, as she stood next to his bed she gently ran her hands through his hair and down his cheek, she sat down in the chair and held his hand as she felt herself drifting off to sleep,
She suddenly sat up in the chair when she heard voices around her she opened her eyes to find the doctor and one her nurses talking to each other, the doctor noticed her moving around, "how did you sleep? She asked as she watched sharon stretching her sore and aching muscles, "How is he doctor? She asked cautiously, the doctor gave her a sad smile, "there's been no change sharon, "he's still not responding well to the medicine and his blood pressure has been falling all night, "to be completely honest he's not doing good, As she stood and listened to the doctor she could feel the tears starting to burn her eyes as she tried to hold them back, as hard as she tried she couldn't keep them from falling, she saw the doctor watching her, "I'm sorry doctor, as she wiped the tears from her eyes and off of her cheeks, The doctor smiled at her don't worry about it sharon, "I understand that you love him and want him to pull through but the thing is that his heart is too weak and damaged , "it's basically up to him now, his body has to decide if it wants to keep fighting or if he's ready to give up, just then the door flew open and rusty came running into the room,
"Mom! As he walked up and wrapped his arms around his mother trying to give her a little comfort, as he held her he felt her tremble against his chest, he knew she was crying again and he held her as she cried, the doctor patted him on the arm "I'll come back later, try to get her to eat something or to go home and rest, "I'll do what I can doctor he nodded as she left the room leaving him standing there holding his mother why she cried, after a few mins she stepped back and looked at her son, "what are you doing here honey? " I thought you were at school, he looked at his mother, "well I figured you needed me more than I needed to be at school so here I am, he said as he wrapped his arms around her once again and she let him hold her, she hugged him tighter and let go and sat back down in the chair next to the bed, he pulled the chair over to her, she looked at him before you say anything I'm not leaving him, "I didn't say anything mom, the doctor did, he sat down in the chair next to her, he reached over and held her hand in his as they talked about different things, she looked up to see Louie and Patrice walking into the room, "how's he doing sharon? Patrice asked as she made her way over to sharon to hug her, "there hasn't been any improvement, "I'm starting to get worried Patrice, "what if he never wakes up? "I don't know what I would do with out him, she began to cry as Patrice stood there letting her cry while she tried to comfort her, "I know sweetheart, I know, Patrice hugged her tighter, "have you been home or eaten since we left, sharon smiled sadly at her no I haven't left his side, "well you won't be doing him any good if you don't take care of yourself sharon, "how about you go home and take a shower and rest for a while and try to eat, then come back, "Louie and I will sit with him until you and rusty come back, " I guess your right, "you will call me immediately if anything changes? " I promise sharon I will, "come on mom lets get you home so you can eat and rest for a little bit, "I promise I will bring you back, the drive back to condo was a quiet ride, " I know notice that she has been staring out the window watching the world go back, "I wish I could do more to help her she seems to be carrying the weight of the world on her shoulders right now, "mom you ok? I ask knowing I won't get a response, she turns her head and looks at me with the saddest look I have ever seen, "yeah I'm fine honey, I know she's not fine but she thinks she always has to be the strong one, as they entered the condo sharon headed to the shower and he went to make her some tea and something to eat he knew that she had to be hungry, after she had removed all of her clothes she stepped into the shower and let the water wash away the world, once she stepped out of the shower and got dressed she lay across her bed lost in her thoughts until she heard a faint knock on her bedroom door, "Mom you ok in there? Rusty asked, she sat up and stared at the door, "yes honey, you can come in if you want to, he walked into her room and sat down on the edge of her bed next to her, "you know he's going to make it and he's going to be just fine, you know that right, she looked at her son, she gently touched his cheek, " I hope so rusty, "I really do, "I don't want to live without him.