Hey guys :)

I'm back... again lol. This is my most important songfics that I wrote, I've been going through a hard time with this one guy I love, (I've loved him for almost 8 years) I still love him now :( he's not catching on, I need love advice.

Okay, this story is inspired by Until You're Mine- Demi Lovato

Disclaimer: I DO NOT own SWAC (If I did, I'd put SWAC on hold until Demi came back) & I don't own this song :( but... I do own my voice that sings this.

:)

I got into the studio at 6 this morning with Chad, we watched tv until7 and then went out seperate ways, I've had this poem in my head for the longest, I walked to my dressing room and unlocked the door, I grabbed a peice of paper and began doodling, Chad + Sonny CDC. Hearts on the paper. I started to write my poem:

My state of mind has finally
got the best of me
I need you next to me
I'll try to find a way that I
can get to you
Just wanna get to you

I've been lovesick for Chad longer than I could even remember, I'm sick of being Ms. Sonny Munroe who's never dated anyone, let alone kissed a boy in her life. I'm only 15 for crying out loud. Every one of my friends has kissed a boy exept for me that is, its not that I choose to, I just feel I should just kiss Chad. Here's the thing, Chad and I are total bffs, we do everything together, hang out on weekends, go over each other's houses, go to the mall, etc. It all started in Wisconsin when we were like 3 and then, Chad moved to California to be on "The Goody Gang" I was left in Wisconsin until about last year to be on so Random!, Chad cheered me on all the time. He still does, he'll miss about 2 tapings a week to see me perform, he's so sweet. Chad and I talked every single day, when I say every single day, I actually mean it. Every day since pre school we've been talking to each other. Last year, I was talking on the phone with him when he told me "Oh hollywood's fun, I have a girlfriend now, so that's pretty interesting, her name is Tiara." I hung up the phone, prayed and everything and literally cried myself to sleep that night, I give him hints that I love him, but... does he ever get them? Nah. I went to see "Madama Butterfly" that next day, she commited suicide because she lost the one she loved to another woman, worse part was, was that he thought the wedding was fake.I wanted to do exactly what butterfly did, but... I know God would not like it.

The world I see is perfect now,
you're all around
With you I can breathe

I feel empty without Chad, Chad's my everything, (On Earth. God's my everything though.) Everywhere I go, Chad, Chad, Chad. CDC, CDC, CDC. You get it? Of course you do. Chad's like my air that I have to breathe.

Until you're mine, I have to find
A way to fill this hole inside
I can't survive without you here
by my side
Until you're mine, not gonna be
Even close to complete
I won't rest until you're mine
Mine...

Without Chad, I feel as if I have no air at all in my system with Chad, its a whole different story. Chad's mine, he'll always be mine (in my head that is) One day, Chad and I were in the mall with his little sister Chloe,"You guys are such a cute couple." one older senior man told us, "Thanks." Chad said, I just smiled, trying to hide my blush. If only Chad was mine, he's always saying "I'm tired of being single, I need the right girl." HELLO I'm HERE! Ugh.

Alone inside, I can only hear
your voice
Ringing through the noise

When we're on set its constantly noise everywhere, I see Chad and all I hear is him. All day all night and everyday and every night.

Can't find my mind, keeps on
coming back to you
Always back to you

If I do ANYTHING Chad comes to my mind, its so weird.

Wanted something out of reach
It's killing me, you're all I see, yeah

Its killing me, I can have Chad but I'm scared he doesn't want me at all, we've been friends for 12 years and I think he only thinks of me as JUST a friend, I can't take this any more, I have to tell him.

Until you're mine, I have to find
A way to fill this hole inside
I can't survive without you here by
my side
Until you're mine, not gonna be
Even close to complete
I won't rest until you're mine
Mine...

Exactly what I said earlier, without Chad, I feel as if I have no air at all in my system with and Chad, its a whole different story. Chad's mine, he'll always be mine (in my head that is) Those words the old man said still ring in my head, "You guys are such a cute couple." I know he's right, but does Chad? I don't even think so. Wait, why does he always say "I'm tired of being single, I need the right girl." when he's always near me? Is it even possible that he likes me? Just one bit, a tiny bit? Maybe love? I wonder... does Chad love me? Loves me, loves me, loves me not, loves me... I think he does love me, who am I kidding? I'm going wayyy over myself.

"Hey Sonny, lets go, rehearsal starts in 10 minutes." I took the paper and left it on my desk, the back of it said Chad and a bunch of hearts surrounding it, I grabed my nerdy glasses and headed down to Studio 8 with Tawni. "So are you going to tell him?" I looked at Tawni, she knows about Chad, "I don't know." she sadly smiled at me, "You're going to have to do it someday Sonny." I nodded, we finally reached Studio 8, it took 5 minutes. Chad walked past us, but he always hugs me when he sees me in the halls. "Hey Sonshine." Chad hugged me, I hugged him back, "Hey Chaddy." Tawni was giving me that 'tell him now or I'll tell him for you' look. I laughed. Chad and I stopped laughing, "So I'll see you later?" I nodded, "Yeah." Chad pushed my bangs to the side. Tawni was staring at us, "Bye Tawni." she waved him off. "You guys are adorable together." I looked at her again, wow, I'm speechless, everyone says that.

Rehearsal was okay today, Marshal was sick today so Ms. Bitterman worked with us today, she's nicer now haha. I went to the bathroom after rehearsal, Tawni left to go back to the dresssing room, wait dressing room, oh no. I pulled out my phone and sung into it.

"Just stop wondering
If we were meant to be
Forget about fate and just hold me
I'm ready to begin
The waiting has to end
Right now, today
I've gotta find a way

Mine...
Until you're
Mine..."

I heard a round of applause, it was Ms. Bitterman, "Wow, that's really really good Sonny." I nodded sadly, "Sonny, don't cry." I was, Ms. Bitterman hugged me, "Chad's going to realize it soon okay? I know he also loves you." I shook my head, "I doubt it." she looked at me, knowingly, "Don't doubt it Sonny, go for it, you won't regret it." I nodded, "Thanks Ms. Bitterman" she nodded, smiling, "You're welcome Sonny, oh and you can call me Joy." I nodded, "I'll see you later." she siled at me, saying goodbye, "Good Luck." I'm going to need all the luck I could get.

Until you're mine, I have to find
A way to fill this hole inside
I can't survive without you here by
my side
Until you're mine, not gonna be
Even close to complete
I won't rest until you're mine
Mine...

I walked back to my dressing room with a hole in my heard, I don't feel well, I feel sick. I need Chad, why doesn't ge get that in his freaking head of his. Everyone here, church, malls, movies, everywhere says that we're a cute couple. We're not even dating ugh... I hate this so so much. I finally got to my dressing room, I looked on my desk, the poem was GONE! Where is it? Oh my goodness, I'm stressing out here. "Tawni." no answer. Uh oh. I walked out of my dressing room and almost made it up to the cafeteria. I felt two strong arms turn me around. Chad, duh. I looked down, "What's wrong Sonshine?" I shurgged, a few tears running down my face, "Nothing just tired." Chad nodded, he pushed my bangs back, his eyes changed into a soft, calming, relaxing blue. Chad slowly leaned in. He kissed me, oh my gosh, I'm KISSING Chad. Woah. Well, it was one little peck, "I'm sorry Sonny." I nodded my eyes closed, "You didn't know." he sighed, "I didn't catch on, until I found that note, thanks to Tawni." soo, that's what happened, oooh. "So girlfriend?" I nodded, "Yup, boyfriend." Chad kissed me again, I heard that when someone you love kisses you, you feel fireworks, I feel that now.

My state of mind, has finally got the
best of me,
I need you next to me...

I FINALLY HAVE MY CHAD! I'm extremely happy. I'm a ton more bubbly too, its only been 30 minutes, I'm still shaking. "Sonny. I heard what happened." Ms. Bitterman and Tawni said, they both hugged me and congratulated me, I couldn't of been any happier. I went back to my dressing room, I'm exhausted. Chad came over to my dressing room, "Hey Sonshine." Chad kissed my cheek, yup... my life is now exactly perfect, I have my Chad. "I have to tell you something." I'm not so happy now, I'm scared. I nodded, "I love you." I was completely in shock, "Chad, please don't just say that because we're dating, what if we were to break up, you'd tell your next girlfriend you love them too like Tiara, Please tell me you actually mean it, tru-" Chad kissed me softly, cutting me off. "Sonny, I'm not that type of guy, I honestly went out with Tiara for the publicity, outside of the public eye, she's one of my friends. You're the one I love. I'm never ever going to hurt you, I wouldn't live with myself if I did. I'm honestly saying this truthfully from my heart, no ifs, ands or buts about it. I love you, always and forever, I'm never ever going to leave you. I love you, I love you, I love you. I love you too much to let you go." I nodded with tears in my eyes, Chad wiped them away, "I love you too." My life is a total fairytale now. The most Beautiful, Perfect, Romantic fairytale ever.

"He's not your prince charming if he doesn't make sure you know that you're his princess."
— Demi Lovato