I wrote this awhile ago, But I don't know if I like it... Then again, I Don't like any of my stories! :) Enjoy!
It's been years since I've seen him last. Everyday I feel lonely and lost. My heart aches for him, but he's gone.
Kendall had died six years ago, he was my best friend and boyfriend. I loved him so much, I still do.
He's my soul mate, and I lost him. I wish i could go back in time and switch places with him.
It was a tragic day when it happened. We were on tour, and we had just finished dinner at a Mexican restaurant. Kendall was laughing and joking around when suddenly a car came speeding around the corner and hit him straight on.
I watched it happen, I saw the love of my life instantly die and I couldn't do anything about it.
James and Carlos tried getting me to move on, but they gave up after a while. It was no use, I would never be able to get over him.
He was my sunshine, and he was my heart, he still is.
I haven't visited his grave for about two years. I know it's terrible, but I just couldn't see his name on a stone, in the ground.
I don't want to believe he was gone. My biggest fear came true, and now I'm lost.
I decided today was the day I was gonna visit him.
On the way to the cemetery I played our song lost in love. I always listened to our music because I needed to hear his voice, I always cried though, But it was worth it.
BTR broke up after his funeral. It was hard for us, but there was no big time rush without Kendall.
I pulled into the parking lot at the cemetery and got out. My hands found my pockets once I closed the door to my car. I don't know why, but I was nervous.
I walked through the cemetery and made my way to Where he was buried. I tried to be brave, but once I reached his grave I broke down, full on sobbing.
I know if Kendall was here he'd hold me and tell me it was gonna be alright. He would hate to see me like this. But then again if Kendall hadn't died I wouldn't be crying in the first place.
"H-hey k-Kenny." I choked out. "I-I'm s-so s-sorry I d-didn't v-visit s-sooner." I paused and took a deep breath trying to control my emotions. "I just can't believe your actually gone.. You were so young and full of life. You didn't deserve to die. God Kendall, I miss you so much."
I fell to the ground sobbing once more. I laid on Kendall's grave and for the first time in six years, and I felt like I wasn't alone anymore.
I closed my eyes and whispered "I love you, Kendall" before falling asleep on my soul mates grave.
I'm literally crying...
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