A/N: I know, I should be updating all of my other stories and not creating a new one but I promise this is going to be short and it's only about three chapters. This is for the Challenge of Kendall Mpreg. ENJOY!

James Diamond of Big Time Rush. That's who I had a crush on.

And who am I?

I'm Kendall Knight, also a member of Big Time Rush. Also known as James' best friend. Well, that's where we started. Now, I'm not quite sure where we are at the moment. Well, I know where we are physically. Right now, he's driving into with the strongest force he's ever used.

Why?

Because I begged him to fuck me into this wall as hard as he could. See, it all started when he decided that he wasn't going to shave as some sort of Movember thing. I don't know. I personally can't do it because of my sensitive skin, which is covered in James' teeth marks and personally delivered hickeys.

James thought it would be nice to rub his stubble against my face when he asked me for a hug. He knew I didn't like the feeling but he continued to rub his face on any exposed part of me every chance he could. When we were playing video games, when we watched Tv, during dinner, even dance rehearsal. I wasn't being completely honest when he first did it because It confused me. Not his actions but my reaction. I told him to never do it again because it hurt and burned.

Actually, it was a pleasurable burn, if that makes sense. I liked the pain a little. Okay, a lot. Lets just say, if I were a girl, every time he did it, my panties would get wet. Is that simple enough?

On my birthday, November 23, he had a substantial amount and he told me he had a gift for me. Of course when I open the box there's nothing in it but a note. But the note had some very powerful words on it that would change everything.

'Coupon for anything you want.'

I looked up to him and he mouthed the words anything, making me blush. I quickly closed the box, claiming there was nothing in it before Carlos could try to take the box from me. Everyone turned to James and he smiled before explaining that he had something planned.

At first, I thought it was just a quick thinking excuse but I was wrong. He had something planned alright. Apparently my reactions to him rubbing his stubble on me were less secretive than I thought. He noticed. That night when I walked into our shared room, he sat there on his bed that he pushed up against mine.

That night was the night I used my birthday gift and lost my virginity to James. Despite rumors, me and Jo were nothing but close friends who eventually became beards for each other. Once she found out about what me and James did, she was overjoyed to the point where she wanted to tell everyone.

Luckily, I stopped her before she could ruin the fabric of BTR as we know it. I mean, our fans are mostly girls and the occasional guy. If the girls knew that they didn't have a chance they would have to make a decision which would most likely end our careers.

Anyway, you would think once this Movember thing was over, he would shave. He did but he just shaved his somewhat beard back down to the stubble. It only took one rub and an empty apartment to recreate what happened that night. We tried to talk about it but it didn't end the way I wanted it.

When he took my virginity, he said that it was fun and hinted at doing it again. The second time was when I confronted him about it, he explained that both of us were single and we have needs. He side stepped every hint of us being together and ended up changing the subject just before Carlos walked in. Then we had to explain to the small boy why we were like that. Well, there wasn't much explaining because he shocked us speechless when he said, "You guys were having fun like how me and Logan have fun."

To put it in the most vulgar way possible. James fucked me wherever he could. From under the christmas tree to the supply closet at the studio. He's good, no, he's fantastic at what he does but there's always that feeling I have after.

Due to those feelings, I tried to stop him. That lasted for a few months until I finally cracked when he walked out of the shower with light stubble, disheveled hair, and perfect abs, glistening with drops of water. People began to notice the sexual tension between us after that. I stopped fighting him and had sex with him every chance I got.

Once we were done, we dressed in silence and went on with the day. That leads me up to now but there's one difference. I'm currently being fucked into this wall of the tour bus bareback, which means, no condom. This is a first for both of us and by the way its feeling, it won't be the last.

Everything was on fire; him sucking on my neck with the rubbing of his stubble, the previous hickeys he created when we started, his hand holding onto my waist while the other strokes me with his rhythm, and his driving force as he pounds me into the wall. He pulled me back by my hair, making me moan before he forces his mouth to mine.

When his tongue wrapped around mine, I couldn't hold it any longer and immediately felt my release. He hit my prostate for the millionth time before he released within me. I can't help but gasp from the warm and strange feeling. Instead of pulling out of me, like he normally does, he wrapped his arms around my mid-section, holding me.

He laid his chin on my shoulder and the only thing I could hear was our breaths evening out as we came down from our highs. I could feel the stubble on his chin rubbing my shoulder before he moved.

He slowly pulled out of me and unwrapped his arms from my body. I got that cold empty feeling again but this time, I felt slimy. I could feel his cum slide down my thigh and I headed to the small shower we had. I cried in the shower like I always did after we had sex. I know it's sad but I put myself through this every time.

A simple 'No' would stop me from feeling this way but I just can't seem to say it when the time comes. I finished my showering and got out. I put on some sweatpants and quietly stepped past James as he got in the shower. I put on a tank top and my shoes before heading out of the tour bus. I saw Carlos zoom by on one of the motor scooters Gustavo got us.

"Hey, Kendall." Carlos said, turning around and circling around me. I noticed he had a juice box in his hand as he steered the motor scooter around.

"Why was the door locked?" He asked with a smirk on his face.

"Car-"

"I was trying to get some juice and Logan wouldn't tell me why he had an extra one."

We sort of kicked Logan out of the tour bus when he was reading. He was right about Carlos wanting juice around that time. I ran my hand through my damp hair as I stared at Carlos as he took another sip of his juice. He continued driving around me as he repeated, "So why was the door locked?"

"Carlos, please." I finally said after the fifth time. Carlos stopped and gasped as he stared at me wide-eyed.

"Were you and James-"

"Yes." I said walking past him.

I could hear the motor scooter following me as I headed over to the venue. Once I walked in and Carlos was no longer following me, I headed to the stage. I walked out and down the ramp, sitting on the edge of the stage. I reached for my phone and realized that I left it in the tour bus. I sighed and laid on the edge of the stage. Before I could even think about it, my eyelids were closing.

"Is he really asleep?"

"He's so cute when he's sleeping."

"I can't believe he's sleep right in front of us."

I heard a few voices. They sounded like teenage girls. I opened my eyes and screamed, making them scream. They were sitting there, watching me sleep. I sat up and moved away from the stage, remembering what Gustavo told us about fans.

"How did you guys get in here?" I asked them as I got up.

"The door was open."

"Yeah, and it's time for the sound check."

"How long were you watching me sleep?"

"Enough for us to take some pictures of you. We'll delete them if you want us to." I shook my head before I turned and walked up the ramp.

"Where are you going?" One of them asked.

"To get the other guys." I told them as I walked backstage.

"Kendall! There you are!" Logan said, breathing out a sigh of relief.

"Dog! Where were you?" Gustavo asked me.

"I was out on the stage. I fell asleep there."

"You fell asleep on the stage? They have a place for that, it's called THE TOUR BUS." Gustavo yelled at me.

"Come on." Logan said, turning me back to the stage. I sighed and headed back out, grabbing a mic. The girls cheered as we greeted them. We asked them tons of questions and answered theirs.

Afterwards, we performed a few songs for them before heading back to get ready for the actual concert. I had on my clothes and when I walked into the hallway, James was talking to some girl who looked like a fan. As I walked closer, I saw her merch shirt and knew she was a fan.

"Can I touch your facial hair, please?"

"Sure." James said, leaning closer to her. They looked like they were about to kiss.

"James!" I called out to him. He turned to look at me and the fan was visibly upset.

"Can I talk to you for a minute?" I asked him as I stood in front of them.

"Yeah, sure." I turned to look at the girl and she didn't seem to get the memo.

"Alone." I said to her. She scoffed and turned around, walking down the hall.

"Dude, this better be good."

"Don't you think you shouldn't be flirting with fans backstage? That's like begging for bad press."

"Kendall, that's none of your business."

"Excuse me? Do you even know how old she is?" He stood there thinking for a while, proving my point.

"Exactly." I said, walking past him, heading towards the stage.

A/N: I'm going to update tomorrow or later on. I can't decide yet but the latest is tomorrow.