I look around at what I thought should have been heaven to find I am not dead. The knife that was supposed to have gone into me has been pulled out of my hand, so I feel nothing. I look up shocked to find a lady staring at me and holding my knife. She says " Hey what are you doing". I shrug and say "Contributing to the statistics!". She looks at me shocked and says " but why your so young, you have your whole life in front of you".

I shake my head as the tears are falling and say " I can't keep hurting the ones I love, they are better off without me." She shakes her head and says "But where are they". I look up and realize this is my chance to change things, to stay away but still live so I say "Gone they are all gone".

I am sitting in my new room right now writing this, it is a pretty pink room which I am sharing with another person like me, another "Orphan". They put me into a orphanage and I changed my name to Hope Matthews. The way I figured it, this is my chance, my only hope to a future but at the same time I am keeping something from my past, albeit my aunties last name.

It is nice here, well the food isn't but there are lots of kids my age and younger who are nice enough. I also have been enrolled into middle school where I am a junior. My first day was a week ago and I am friends with this whole group of weird people but they are cool. There is this red head who reminds me of Paige, her name is Rachel and she is really funny and sweet and loves maths. I suppose you are wondering how I escaped the sources knowledge. Well it was fairly simple, I bound my powers, I figured I would bind them until I am 17 and then I am better equipped to understand it. Enough time off the radar don't you think!

For some reason binding my powers didn't work out quite right. I managed to bind all but one and that is the newest power I have acquired. I can't exactly bind my power of telepathy which suxs since I can't control it ether. I can be around a person and suddenly wham I hear some personal thought which throws me. I can't work out why it didn't get bound so I figure maybe because it is new it can't be. I just seriously hope that the seer can't find me with that one power.

I think the weirdest thing about telepathy is, when I am around someone and they think about me. That is truly weird. I was around Rachel the other day when I hear her think she looks so familiar I wonder if she knows. Knows what , what am I supposed to know ? See that confused the living daylights out of me, just little things which confuse me. Although I have to say telepathy can come in handy at school especially since I am a 10 year old stuck in a 13 year olds body. I have to do twice the work as everyone else to understand what the hell the teachers are talking about. I may have tested at a 14 year olds level but my god 13 year olds work is really hard. At least when a teacher asks me a question I can read peoples minds and answer the question.

My 14th birthday is coming up in like a week and I am starting to get all emotional, no one knows it is going to be my birthday. I didn't even tell Rachel, I just figure some things others don't need to know.

I must be the most secretive 14 year old ever. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to be.