Title: Incentive Destruction
Summary: "If he ever wakes up from the coma, he'll wake up to his insane genius gay drunk best friend who is in love with him and who tried to stop him from trying to kill himself. I hope it's enough."
Rating: PG 13
Warnings: Some cursing, suicide, character death, alcoholics, the ultimate serum is taken.
Pairing: Atticus/Dan
Disclaimers: I do not own any of the characters. This writing is for fun, not profit.
Author's notes: I know I claimed this would be a one-shot but it just wouldn't let me have peace until I wrote it down, and I thought to share it with you. Enjoy and review!
Prologue
1.
You don't even know my name, do you?
But you think you know who I am.
Bitter. Jealous. Sarcastic. Friendless, antisocial, and therefore alone.
Well, maybe you're right. But I wasn't always like this.
I had a friend.
I wish I could have called him my lover.
I had Daniel Cahill, and I absolutely knew how much it meant. Technically, logically, we shouldn't have been friends. I was a genius, a prodigy, destined for greatness.
(I would have picked happiness instead, if I had the choice. And for a while, he made me believe I could have both.)
Conversation flowed between us anyway. Things that would have seemed meaningless and boring to anyone else, but they fascinated me. Ninjas, mathematical equations, the Holocaust, our life, his favorite TV shows…
He was brilliant in his own way. I felt no jealousy, just admiration and something else that I refused to name.
He was goofy most of the time, but every now and then he'd get depressed and talk about how the world is a dark place full of suffering. He had never explained his reasons for thinking that. Maybe I should have felt hurt at his secrecy. I already told him everything – happy and depressing, secrets and random ideas. I told him my hopes and dreams. I confessed my darkest secrets and my fears.
I told him about my mother. I didn't mention how she sent him to me.