It was raining, but… this rain was so different to the one I was used. In the future where I've always lived, rain was equal to danger. Once it started raining you had to find a place to shield yourself, or the heavy acid would simply kill you. But now everything was different. This was not the future. For the first time in my life I was standing in the rain and I was enjoying it. The water running all over my body felt like a purification. Finally…, this was where I was supposed to be.
I turned around and saw Nathan. He had his eyes closed. His face was totally relaxed, absolutely different to what I've seen the last months. Finally, after many years, he was able to fix the time machine, and make us return to the past. Well… in truth could you call past the time in which you were born?
He told me once, many years ago, that his childhood had been very similar to mine. He was taken to the future to survive. I was well aware of the virus that had damned his life, and knew that that was the reason why he grew up far away from his time and family.
He explained to me when I was a little child, that some people wanted me dead, and so in order to save me his father asked him to take me far in the future, where we wouldn't be reachable. It was supposed to be a place where I would grow without fear, without complications; a place where I could learn to use my so powerful powers.
Let's say that the first part wasn't as planned. We had to run many years, but in the end I was able to learn. My power manifested some time after X Force came to help us. With it, some memories retuned too. Well, at first I didn't know they were memories. I thought I was having nightmares, terrible ones. I used to wake up feeling incredibly sad, crying and screaming. Nate would always come and make me feel better. He always asked me to tell him the dream. He was always so concentrate, he would hear every word I said.
In the end, both my powers and memories retuned with full force. At first the power I had was overwhelming, so very difficult to control. But now, six years later, after a lot of effort and work, from mine and my father's, eeeehh well, Nathan's part, I have totally control over it. It's a part of myself I can't live without now.
I'm connected to the very same universe. I can feel the life that surrounds it. I am Phoenix after all! The creator, the savior, the destructor!! For the fist time in my entire existence (counting my previous life as Jean Grey, and most important, as a cosmic entity) I feel complete. Absolutely complete. I'm a whole being, with many defects, but also with many good things like a loving heart and worship for life.
Now I'm standing in the rain, thinking what this new place and Time will offer me. I remember my earlier life, the X Men. But most importantly. I remember him. Scott… What should I do? Return to him? Confront him after his betrayal? Do I really love him, or are these feelings only a product of my memories? It's true; I can't deny that I used to love him with all my being. Every time I saw him my heart would jump for him, beg for him. But now I only think of him with fondness, like a good memory, a good past.
No, I don't feel like that anymore. I am a new person, with a different past and needs. There is only one thing that keeps me thinking constantly about that life.
The first time I saw him some years ago in the Future, I instantly knew we had a connection, some sort of bond. I don't know if Logan recognized me then, but I truly don't care. I know him as well as myself. He loves me. I can feel it even now. Once Nathan and I entered this time I felt him reaching to me. I am sure it is an unconscious act, but his love and essence screams to me.
Yes, he is my future. He is where I am going now, where I will start this new life, he is Home.