A/N: I'm going to try and keep this Author's note short. Anyways, so I have been very busy, so sorry I haven't been able to update ANYTHING! But anyways, I've got this new story for you guys :D I love writing about Logan, he reminds me of me. And on that note, this entire story is based off a dream of mine. This chapter wasn't the dream, the dream will come when I mention it to you guys, but I had this weird dream, and I am writing to fill in the blanks. Logan is me in this story, and I hope you guys like it! :D

There are many things in life that a person will never be to understand about themselves. Why they think a certain why, why they act a certain way, and why they look a certain way has come across everyone's minds in one way or another. These questions and many others are just too hard for us to comprehend and so we tend not to dwell on these small matters and just move on with our lives.

This was not the case for a certain person by the name of Logan Mitchell.

All day, Logan would be sitting around, be it in class or in the library, and think about everything in his life. He felt as though he needed to understand himself and those around him in order to gain a better knowledge about the world he lives in and how to deal with it. He usually gets the answers to his problems after taking long considerations about his situations. But no matter the case, everyone in the world has one question that will follow them to the grave. The one that's been swirling around in Logan's brain for as long as he could remember was:

Why the hell am I in love with Kendall Knight?

The question once again popped in his head while he was sitting in his AP Spanish class and he couldn't help but instinctively groan loudly and ran his hand through his hair exasperated.

"Is there a problem Logan?" Logan quickly turned his head to the front of his class to see his professor glaring at him and the rest of the class locking their stares on the awkward young boy. He couldn't help but look back down at his textbook in shame.

"Lo Siento Señora." Logan could hear a couple of giggles and snorts around him, and he felt as though he could almost cry.

It wasn't his fault that he had suddenly become infatuated with the star varsity hockey player in his school. He didn't even know that he, Logan Henderson, would ever be gay in his life. But that all changed when he entered his first day of his Spanish class. Logan couldn't help but stare at the tall, blonde, and cute athlete, and from that point on, Logan couldn't stop thinking about him. However, there's one major obstacle standing in Logan's way:

Jo FUCKING Taylor

Logan couldn't help but roll his eyes as the girl's name wandered its way into his thoughts. As long as Logan has been in love with the hockey player, Jo and Kendall have been dating. The two have even been labeled as the school's "Sweethearts" and it makes Logan want to almost vomit. But that's what he gets from falling for the straightest guy in the world. Logan has been asking himself what he finds attractive about Kendall and has been trying to fall out of love with him, but he can't bring himself to do it.

He's straight goddamn it! Get it through your thick skull Logan!

Logan shook his head and once again went back to his original question, hoping to find the answer to his problems. He slowly looked up from his book and examined the blonde boy in question, who of course, had to be sitting next to his girlfriend. Logan could only dream of the day the two lovebirds would break up, but until then, he had to solve his own dilemma. He pulled out a piece of paper and split it into two columns. Pros and Cons of Kendall Knight became the appropriately titled piece of work that would be occupying Logan for the time being. He began with listing the pros:

Athletic

Great smile

Infectious laugh

Tall

Depthless eyes

Logan had more in mind, but if he kept on going, he'd never get to the cons list. He forced himself to stop and slowly moved over to the cons side, and as he looked down at the empty column, he blanked. He couldn't think of a single thing wrong with Kendall, and that proved to him the validity of the phrase "Love makes you blind". He sighed in exasperation, and decided to fill the large column with one giant word of the only problem Logan could conjure up at the moment.

JO

He picked up his paper and gave a small smile to his masterpiece. He finally believed he had the answer to his problem. The boy was just too perfect to stop himself from crushing on, and he hoped that eventually he'd find someone else, but in the mean time, it wouldn't hurt to dream right?

"What's that you got there Logan?" Logan froze his thoughts and widened his eyes when he heard that voice. He quickly hid his paper and turned to see Kendall sitting right beside him, with a small smile on his face, and surprisingly, away from his girlfriend. His pulse started to rise, but he knew he had to reply unless he wanted to make a fool of himself.

"Oh it's nothing important." Logan gave a fake smile, hoping to hide how panicked he was feeling at the moment. Logan's smile dropped however when Kendall raised one of his eyebrows and gave a small smirk.

"Really? Cause I believe I saw my girlfriend's name on it." Logan widened his eyes and quickly returned to looking back down at the text book, hoping that Kendall didn't see anything else.

"Like I said. It's nothing." Logan kept his eyes locked on the text in front of him, hoping that that was the end of the conversation. He didn't want to make things worse than it already is. Kendall probably already thinks he's a freak for writing down his girlfriend's name. At that moment, he just wanted to punch himself in the face for being such an idiot. However, that thought was ceased by a large hand being placed on his back. He looked back up to see Kendall smiling at him.

"Don't sweat it dude! I get it she's hot, but you don't have to be that jealous of me!" Logan was really confused but at the same time, he was relieved at the obliviousness of the blonde. It was kind of adorable to the brunette how aloof Kendall can be sometimes.

Another thing to add to my pros list, Logan thought to himself. He smiled back at the blonde and gave a small chuckle. "Yeah, she really is something. You're lucky to have her, and she's lucky to have you." Logan quickly realized what he just said and almost ran out of the room. He needed to recover quickly. "I mean cause someone like her would've been laughed at if she was single." Logan hated his recovery, but it was the only thing he could think of. He examined Kendall's face to see if there were any sign of notice of the brunette's fault, but once again the blonde's naiveness didn't cease to amaze Logan.

"Yeah, I guess you're right Logie." That nickname made Logan's heart skip a beat. Kendall's never called him that name before, and barely anyone ever does. He usually finds that name annoying and somewhat childish, but the way Kendall says it, changes his mind about the name, almost as if it were like a pet name. "So you ready to get this project started?"

"What? What do you mean project?"

"You mean you don't know? I can't believe you choose today to be off in your own little world. The teacher assigned us as partners for the next project." Logan couldn't believe what was happening. He didn't know whether or not to consider this chain of events as good or bad luck, because he didn't think his heart could take working on a Spanish project with Kendall.

"Really? Yeah, sorry, I've just had a lot of things on my mind." Logan sighed, exhausted from the recent events. He put his head from the desk, just so he could take a breather and forget about all the stress that Kendall's been putting on him. He felt a hand be placed on his back, and looked up to meet his gaze with Kendall. The blonde had a sympathetic look on his face and opened his mouth to say something but,

RING!

Kendall closed his mouth and stood up with his backpack, and then removed his hand from Logan's back. "I guess I'll see you tomorrow Logan?" Logan gave a slight frown at the sound of his regular name being used, but he stood up as well and gave a small nod to the blond.

"I guess so. Then we can start this project." The two smiled at each other, and the blonde walked away to meet up with his girlfriend by the door. Jo and Kendall shared a small kiss before Kendall wrapped his arm around her shoulder and the two strode out of the classroom. Logan completely forgot that Jo even existed during their conversation, and that scene completely heart broke him. He dropped his shoulders and he wanted to scream, but the he refrained from embarrassing himself any further than he had already today. He slowly picked up his backpack from the ground and slumped out of the room.

He walked out into the hallway and looked to his right and left for any sight of the "lovely" couple, but he was somewhat relieved to see that the two blondes weren't together. But rather, Kendall was walking out of the hallway with his best friend James. Logan wished he was in James' spot, having Kendall as a friend. He'd rather want to be holding hands with Kendall, but if not, being best friends would be an excellent second option. The two were always together if Kendall wasn't with Jo, and that added on to Logan's amount of jealousy. As he was looking at Kendall, Logan caught eyes with James, and James gave a small smile to the brunette before turning to Kendall and laughing at what Kendall last said. Logan felt a smile grow on his face, and he with that, he turned and exited out of the hallway.

"So how was Spanish today?" Logan was walking home with his friend Camille, and she knew of his little "dilemma". They've known each other ever since he moved to LA from Texas about 6 years ago, and when he started to discover his feelings for the blonde, he immediately turned to her for help. If there were anyone in the world he could turn to, it'd be Camille. She was very accepting of his problem, and occasionally teases him for his taste in boys, but he knows she can keep a secret.

"I don't want to talk about." Logan felt his face get hotter, and knew that Camille would notice how red his face was getting. He tried to look away from Camille in order to avoid getting the conversation to go any further. Maybe if he ignored her she'd let the subject drop. However, he felt two hands wrap around his arms and he was forced to turn and look at her.

"Logan, come on. You know you can tell me anything." He immediately dropped his tense shoulders in defeat and looked down at the ground, giving him a somewhat pensive look.

"I know I can!" Logan still refused to look at Camille and she could see a somewhat sad look growing in his eyes. "It's just that I don't like talking about it. It seems like the more I talk about him, the more it seems impossible that it'll come true." Camille could see a couple of tears begin to well up in the small boy's eyes, and she couldn't help but feel sympathetic for the boy. She pulled up her sleeve and used it to wipe any tears dropping from his eyes. She put her hand on his chin and slowly moved his head so their gazes met.

"Look Logan. There's no need to cry about it. I know it's hard to deal with these unrequited feelings, but there's still some hope. Aren't you two assigned to work together for a Spanish project?" Logan's eyes quickly changed from sadness to surprise.

"How did you know about that?" Camille gave a small smirk and rolled her eyes playfully.

"I heard Jo complaining about "Not being with her boyfriend" and saying some nasty things about the teacher. She said some things about you… but I think it was just in the heat in the moment and I kind of don't want to repeat it." Logan rolled his eyes and puffed out his chest looked straight ahead of him.

"She can say whatever she wants. She's just worried I'll steal her man away from her." Logan's triumphant look on his face made Camille burst out into laughter. Logan tried to keep his face straight but immediately burst out laughing as well. Once the pair was done laughing Logan turned to Camille and smiled at her. "I can't thank you enough Camille." He pulled Camille into a warm and tight hug. Camille hugged back and when she pulled away from the hug, she gave him a big smile.

"Well what can I say? I'm amazing like that." The two let out a laugh before continuing on their walk.

A/N: Did you like it? Cause I kind of liked writing it :P Tell me what you thought in a review plz! Oh and enjoy the Kogan? Tell me that as well! :D Btw, I hate the title, so can you guys give me some idea of what the title should be?