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VA= Richelle Mead.
Song = Mine By Taylor Swift.
You were in college working part time waiting tables
Left a small town never looked back
I was a flight risk with a fear of falling
Wondering why we bother with love if it never lasts
I say can you believe it?
As we're lying on the couch
The moment I could see it
Yes, yes I can see it now
He looked so gorgeous. The moment he came up to me to take my order. I couldn't help, but smile up at him. He was about 6'6'' maybe 6'7''. He had a built tan body that could make any girl melt. His long hair fell in his face instantly making me feel the urge to reach up at tock it behind his ear. Our eyes stayed connected with each other as he poured me another cup of coffee.
It was all I could afford and it had free refills. I was at the little diner all morning into the mid-afternoon. I was wondering when they were going to kick me out. They didn't though. I was happy they didn't either. If they did that would mean that I would have to go back to the town of broken hearts and dreams. I couldn't go back. I didn't want to go back.
I was studying the way he walked and talked. Every time he interacted with somebody. He was so gentle with everyone especially the kids. He smile made everyone glow with pleasure. This guy knew how to make on person feel on top of the world.
Hours went by and the sun started to go down. I was staring out the window when I heard a sound of a plate being put down in front of me. It was a piece of pie. "You look like you would prefer sweets," he said as he walked away.
I smiled up at the love of my life. Remembering the day that we met. Today was our one-year anniversary. He was cooking me dinner while I sat on top of the counter watching him, his every move. I was swinging my legs making a banging sound against the cabinet.
"Would you stop," he said annoyed and I just giggled still smiling wide and continued to make the noise.
He sighed and threw down the knife he was using the chop up the onions and walked over to me. He placed both hands on each side of me and pushed himself, as close as he could till my legs couldn't move. I just smiled wide at him and he shook his head as he gave me a kiss on the lips. Then walked away to go back to cooking.
"Can you believe it?" I asked.
"Believe what?" he responded as he chopped up the onions.
"That we lasted," I said thinking back to everything we have been through.
He just smiled. I could see the corner of his mouth move up. I jumped off the counter and walked over to him wrapping my arms around his waist leaning on my toes to whisper in his ear as I let one hand move up under his shirt and the other to his belt. I felt him tense up and smiled to myself. "Teach me how to cook," I laughed as I released my arms from around him.
Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
"What are you thinking about?"
The question broke me away from my thoughts and I just shrugged my shoulders as I shoved more food into my mouth. He laughed. His laugh was one of the most amazing sounds I have ever heard in my life.
"You know you eat like a cow," he laughed even harder probably cause the look on my face. I placed my hand over my heart to fake hurt and then threw some food at him and stuck out my tongue. This moment had to me one of my favorites. There are many moments I loved, but some of them stood out more than the rest.
"I don't do this," I said pacing back and forth.
"Do what?" the tanned boy said looking at me confused.
I pointed to him and then me. I don't fall in love. I was getting very frustrated. He was getting my point. He had been guessing all day trying to figure out what was bothering me. I didn't exactly know either, but I knew it had to do with us. Also, it was the day that my dad left my mom and I. Its been two years.
Love didn't exist in my family. Neither my mom nor dads have ever told me that they loved me. I guess I was moving around too much, because the next thing I knew was Dimitri pulling me into his lap. He kissed the back of my neck. "I love you," he said like it was nothing like it was normal.
I moved against him to get up, but he held his grip harder.
"I love you," he repeated again giving me another kiss on the back of my neck.
I tried moving up again, but I was weak compared to him and his kisses were making me even weaker.
"I love you,"
That was it. I stopped fighting and just leaned back against his chest and turned my head too look at him. I stared at him searching his eyes to see if he was lying. They weren't filled with lies though. They were filled with love, admiration and happiness. I smiled and whispered, "I love you too."
Flash forward and we're taking on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes
But we got bills to pay, we got nothing figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes, this is what I thought about
I didn't want to leave to go home tonight, but I knew that my mom was expecting me. Dimitri asked me to move in with him awhile back, but I said no. I just have a small spot in his room that I leave clothes and a few things I need if I spend the night.
I was in his room laying on the bed while he cleaned up downstairs. I was looking at a bag I had over on the nightstand. It was something special I bought for tonight, but I didn't know if I was ready. There were a lot of doubts in my mind.
I wanted tonight to be the night though. I sighed. Lissa and Christian do this all the time. Mia does it with everyone. Eddie and Mason have both done it. Yet, here I am 22 years old and I still can't do it and don't want to do it. Actually, that's a lie I want to do it. I mean he has been patient with me. Never pushed me further then I have wanted to go and he has never gone else where to get some. A year is an eternity for guys or so I am told.
Jumping off the bed grabbing the bag I ran into the bathroom I looked at myself in the mirror and took a deep breath. I started to strip down to nothing. I was ready for this. I pulled the little black piece I had in the bag and went to put it on.
"I am ready for this. I can do this. You love him. He loves you. He isn't going to leave you," I said to myself as I just stared at myself in the mirror.
I wanted to scream and punch myself but I just slid down against to the door. Why was this so difficult? I know girls who can do this with no problem. I know guys that feel no guilt for sleeping with people they don't love. Yet, here I am in love with someone who loves me back and it's the hardest thing in the world to do. Why must I always make things so difficult?
Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I knew that it was now or never. I sat up and reach toward the doorknob. I stopped myself though. What was wrong with me? I could hear Dimitri walking up the stairs. He was so close. I turned around and looked at myself in the mirror one more time. This was it. I was going to do it. There was no looking back.
"He loves me," I reminded myself one more time.
I mean why am I arguing with myself about it.
"Roza," I heard him knock on the door, but I ignored him. "Are you okay?"
I shook my head though. It's not like he could see me. This was it. I know I keep saying that, but it's for my own benefit. If I keep saying it then it's going to happen I can't back down. Why was I so nervous? I felt tears coming to eyes. You don't cry! What's wrong with me?
'He's going to leave me'
That stupid voice in the back of my head yelled.
And I remember that fight, 2:30 am
As everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street
Braced myself for the goodbye
Cause that's all I've ever known
Then you took me by surprise
You said I'll never leave you alone
No. No. No. He wouldn't leave me.
"I can't believe you. You're an asshole. I hate you. We are over," I screamed pushing him away from me running out the door.
I was crying so hard. He had Tasha over and I saw them kiss. I couldn't believe it. He was supposed to be in love with me, then why was he kissing Christian's sister. I ran and ran till I was out of the house. I was running to my car, but before I could open the door. He was already next to me grabbing my arm and turning me around.
I knew what was coming. My dad did it to my mom. I didn't want to hear, but I was ready. I took a deep breath. The next thing that happened is something I will never forget.
"I'll never leave you alone. Even if you hate me, I love you Roza. Tasha kissed me. She was upset about her parents dying. It was harmless. She apologized after. I was going to tell you. I wouldn't lie to you," he said pleading with me pulling me into him as I cried even harder. He came after to me and not to tell me goodbye, but to tell me that he was mine forever.
"Rosemarie open this door," he said getting impatient with me. I didn't realize how long I had been in here and with that I opened the door. His eyes widened as I pushed him back towards the bed and let myself go.
You said I remember how we felt sitting by the water
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
She is the best thing that's ever been mine
Hold on, make it last
Hold on, never turn back
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Yes, yes do you believe it?
Yes, yes we're gonna make it now
Yes, yes I can see it I can see it now
The next morning I woke up with a frown. He wasn't in bed next me. I smiled though thinking of how perfect last night was. That's when I rolled over and was surprised with Dimitri kneeling on one knee at the side of the bed.
"Roza, you are the best thing that has ever been mine. Will you marry me?"