Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing I just like to play with the boys.
Voldyismoldy: I have been reading a lot of Gundam Fanfiction lately and have gotten tired of reading fic's where Duo is the more vulnerable one and Heero abuses him. In my opinion Heero would be the more vulnerable one never having relationships before or really anyone to care about him so I decided to write my own where Duo is the abuser and Heero is the one being abused. If you don't like don't read. I haven't decided yet if this is going to be a one shot or not it depends on the reviews I get and if people want me to continue it. Also this is my first time writing something like this so if it is not good I apologize and if you give me suggestions I will try to make it better.
Warning: Graphic rape scene don't read if your under the age of eighteen.
Dedication: This fic is dedicated to the victims of rape know that it is never your fault and if the only way a person will care about you is to force you to have sex they aren't worth it. No one deserves to be used or abused and I urge you to seek help if this has happened or is happening to you.
A Warm Summers Night.
Heero lay in his bed curled beneath the single sheet having pulled off his blankets due to the heat. It was a hot summer night so he wore only his boxers and was still sweating making it difficult for him to sleep, that and Duo's continued absence.
He had gone out earlier that night and had yet to return and if he was to be honest with himself he was a little worried about him. He had been going out a lot lately to deal with the stress from work or so he said and Heero could believe that. They both worked for the preventors and it was stressful dealing with all of the high class missions they were sent on being the top two agents.
But there was something wrong with Duo, he had grown quiet lately and angry, and Heero missed his usual cheerful grin and non-stop talking not that he had said anything about it. He had never even hinted at his feelings for the other boy not used to having such feelings or knowing how to express them. Dr. J had always told him that feelings were a liability in war and he wasn't supposed to have them but the war was now over and the feelings had come.
The warmth filling his chest whenever Duo had smiled at him and the feeling of safety when he slung his arm over his shoulders. He had been shocked when the braided man had asked him to move into an apartment together and Heero had immediately agreed. It had felt so good to be wanted by someone and not for what he could do but just for himself.
He had hoped too that perhaps now he and Duo would have a chance at a real relationship. He knew that was what he wanted, to be loved by Duo, the only one he really considered a friend. It was true he had the other pilots but Quatre and Trowa were to busy with each other to spend time with him and Wufei was busy with a girl of his own. The three of them had moved on, started their own lives, and Heero hadn't known what to do with his until Duo had offered to let him be a part of his.
Until Duo had showed him that even he, the perfect soldier, the experiment, could be wanted too. He hadn't believed it was possible that anyone would want him in their lives, even Relena had decided that Heero wasn't what she wanted after all and had left him and he couldn't blame her. He was a freak, unlike any other human because of the experiments that had been done on him, the testing and genetic manipulations, and who would want someone like that? Who could love someone like that?
God he hoped that Duo could and a small smile, one that was becoming more and more common to see there, spread across his face as he thought of him. As he imagined the feel of his lips against his own, the warmth of his skin beneath his hands, and felt a tightness to his groin. The smile faded a little as he wondered what Duo would do, what he would think, if he knew what he was thinking. Would be glad and return the feelings or would be disgusted by them and reject him for them?
He wasn't given time to contemplate that thought as he heard a key slide into the lock of the front door and the door swing open with a bang as it was shut again. Duo was home, he was ok, and he sat up in the bed wondering if he would come to talk to him and tell him what was wrong or if he should go and talk to him. Heero wasn't any good at talking but for Duo he would try, he just wanted the old Duo back again.
He listened as the other man thudded down the hall and knew he had been drinking. Heero, himself, detested alcohol and the way it muddled his senses but never said anything about the other man's drinking habits knowing he needed something to dull the pain of the war they had fought. Heero used his work to dull his pain concentrating fully on the mission to block out any other thoughts or memories and it worked fairly well except that he was now known as a workaholic (though really he wasn't that bad).
The thudding stopped outside his door and he saw his doorknob move as his work partner opened his door stepping inside and closing it behind him. Heero tried to smile at him as he came closer hoping the man was finally ready to talk to him. He was sure once he got whatever was bothering him out they could fix it and then everything would be all right again.
Duo walked up to the bed without speaking and then stopped staring at him with a strange look in his eyes. Heero watched slightly unnerved as they traveled down his bare chest and abdomen to the tops of his boxers that peeked out from beneath the sheet that covered the rest of him. They lingered on his belly button and to his surprise Duo actually licked his lips before he moved to kneel on the bed in front of him.
"Duo . . .?" Heero questioned but the rest of his words were cut off as Duo suddenly brought his lips to his in a rough kiss.
It wasn't at all what Heero had thought kissing him would feel like. His lips were cold and tasted of alcohol and something else he couldn't place. There was no warmth, no passion, and he wanted to move away from him but couldn't as he felt the man's hand latch itself in his hair forcing him deeper into the kiss.
His lips were bruising on his and he gasped as Duo bit down hard on the lower lip slipping his tongue into the now open mouth. It slid inside his mouth tasting him and exploring every inch of it while Heero wanted nothing more than to end the kiss. Why was Duo doing this? What was wrong with him and how could Heero want this and not want this at the same time. He was torn between desire and disgust and didn't know what to do.
He didn't want to hurt Duo, didn't want the boy to turn away from him, to leave him as all the others had. He didn't want to be alone again and he knew if he tried to stop this than his friend would be angry with him, may even hate him, and he didn't want that not with Duo, the first and only person he had ever had feelings for, the only one who had ever wanted him.
So he did nothing and when Duo started to push him back onto the bed he allowed it a shiver of fear racing down his body. The braided boy pulled away the sheet without breaking the kiss and ran his free hand down his chest and stomach his finger dipping into his navel. In spite of himself Heero let out a small moan and smiling the boy broke away from his lips and moved down to suck on his neck just above his left shoulder.
Heero cried out as he bit down hard on the tender skin and then groaned as he licked the spot before moving onto his now hard brown nipple's. He took one in his mouth rolling it around with his tongue and Heero moaned again throwing back his head as he closed his eyes. He had wanted this for so long, to feel Duo's hands on him, to experience such pleasure with the other boy and yet something about it still felt wrong. Shouldn't he have at least asked him first or had he already been sure that Heero would want this too?
He wanted to ask him, to find out what this was all about, but Duo was continuing his administrations to his chest and moved onto the other nipple giving it the same treatment and keeping him from speaking as he moaned again. He felt it then his hand moving from his abdomen to the skin beneath his boxers trailing over his erection as Duo rubbed against his stomach with his own.
Heero's eyes opened as he felt the man remove his only article of clothing leaving him naked beneath him his face flushing. This was going to far, he had wanted this yes, but not like this and he felt a strong urge to push the other boy off him. To end this now before it went any further but again he didn't want to hurt him or make him hate him. Duo was the only one who had ever cared about him so did that mean he should let him do this, not fight it but go along with it? It wouldn't be that bad right? Duo cared about him and wouldn't hurt him he was sure of that so he pushed back his fear and only watched as the other boy removed his own clothing before returning to his mouth.
He kissed him hard and Heero made himself kiss him back even as he felt his hand separate his legs grabbing his hardened member. He gasped at the feel of his warm hand wrapped around it and almost came right then until he felt Duo position himself between his legs lifting his hips slightly while he continued to kiss him. He knew what was coming now but he hadn't even prepared him, hadn't done anything and Heero had never done this before. He wasn't prepared for it at all and tried to move away from his lips to tell him so when he felt a sudden ripping pain between his thighs.
He screamed as he felt Duo enter him and clutched the sheets beneath him as he gasped for breath. Duo wasted no time not caring at all about his comfort or the pain he was in as he started thrusting into him. Each scream that ripped from Heero's throat only seemed to entice him into a further frenzy and the blue eyed boy felt tears fill his eyes and stream down his face as he realized what this was. This wasn't making love, or sex, this was an uncaring fuck with an available body, this was rape.
Duo was raping him but he wouldn't do that, not Duo, not his best friend. Duo cared about him he would never hurt him not without reason so he must have done something to deserve this. Yes that was it he had done something to upset him and now he was being punished for it. He tried to remember what he could have done but the pain was to much for him to think clearly and his throat was going raw with the screams.
Duo continued his thrusting absently pumping Heero's own cock along with his movements and he felt a small wave of pleasure mix with the pain. He felt himself trembling and then he came his semen flooding over the braided boy's hand. Duo seemed not to notice as he continued and then a few minutes later Heero felt him shiver on top of him as he exploded into him and then collapsed on top of him.
For several minutes they lay there panting and unmoving and then Duo struggled off of him sliding out of him. He looked down at Heero for a moment a dark look on his face and then turned away from him crawling off the bed. Heero watched him as he gathered up his clothes and turned to look at him again where lay unable to move from the pain between his thighs. He wanted to tell him he was sorry for whatever he had done but Duo opened his mouth first and he stayed quiet hopping he would tell him everything was all right now and he was sorry he had to be so rough with him.
"You disgust me," He said instead his voice cold and hard as he glared down at him with his beautiful violet eyes and then turned to leave the room. "Little whore."
Heero watched him leave fresh tears coming to his eyes as he curled into a ball on the bed. He could feel the blood and semen running down his legs and staining the bed beneath him and knew Duo was right. He was disgusting and there was no way the other boy could ever care for him. He turned his face into the pillow as Duo slammed the door behind him and cried himself to sleep as he wondered how things could have gone so wrong.
A/N: To all those wondering I don't hate Duo he is actually one of my favorite G boys second only to Heero but this was something I wanted to write so I apologize if I ruined your favorite character. Please, please review and tell me what you think even if you hate it I want to know and especially if you want me to continue it.