Author's Note: This is the sequel to Wonderful, you should probably read that first to get the whole Charlie background story but it's not absolutely necessary. This is in Adam's point of view.
Warning: Slash, angst, probably a little bit of language.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything.
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I think I'm the only one who can see past Charlie's mask.
Maybe it's because I'm his best friend, or maybe it's just because I watch people, see what they see, feel what they feel, or maybe I'm just immensely perceptive.
Maybe it's none of that.
Maybe it's just that I want to be able to protect him, and always be there for him, through everything.
He always seems to get scared when I try to get close to him.
He always seems to run away when he needs to stay the most.
He always seems to be hiding something.
He always seems scared to speak, almost as if he thinks I'll get mad at him for speaking his mind.
He's such a quiet kid, vulnerable and sweet. The kind of person who would never hurt a fly. Someone who would do anything to protect the ones he cares about, but does nothing to shield himself from the hostility of today's society.
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I always knew I was different. That I felt different things then everyone else, anyway.
I guess I always knew I was gay.
Ever since I joined the Ducks, and Charlie was the first to accept me with his searching eyes and gentle smile, and I felt the butterflies in my stomach come alive, I knew.
I knew Charlie was the only one for me.
I knew Charlie was hiding something from me, from everyone, and I was determined to find out what.
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I always suspected Charlie was abused, he thinks he hides it well, but I can see it in eyes.
His eyes are always so troubled, as if he's trying to communicate to me through them, searching my eyes for an answer to all of his problems. I see a flicker of pain flash through his eyes everyday when school ends. I see the worry in his eyes when he walks out of Eden Hall and catches the bus to his house.
I see what he thinks he hides so well.
I want to reach out to him, take him into my arms, kiss away his tears and make everything okay for him, never let anything harm him ever again.
I want to kill the bastard that did this to him.
I want to take Charlie and just run away.
Away from all of it.
I want to run to a place where I can tell Charlie how I feel, where he can love me back and where we aren't judged by anyone.
I want to wash away all of the pain and violence in this world, so that nothing can touch Charlie.
I want to be there for him, every second of everyday.
I want to protect him with all my being.
I want to love him.
I want him to trust me enough to tell me everything.
I want him to love me back.
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Author's Note: Well that was extremely angsty and I can honestly say I didn't really expect that, my fingers kind of just took over and this was the result. If that makes any sense, at all, haha. I'll try to update soon.
Anyway, review guys!