I posted this on www.instantsra.ctv.ca but the site is messed up so I decided to post on here. I hope you like.
She was dying and there was nothing I could do about it. As Sadie layed in her hospital bed with her eyes closed I couldn't help but study her facial features, her beuatiful, eligant, facial features that I had always been jelious of.
"Jude, you should go home and take a nap hun." Stuart told me from behind me.
"I'm gonna stay here. The doctors say it could be anytime now." Frustraded with myself I let the tears fall. "How on earth could I let myself believe Sdie was leaving me forever? I wont believe not ever that my sister who I called my guardian angel was dying right in front of my eyes." I thought to myself. Everyone had said that Sadie and I were sent to rescue each other. Sadie was always the beautiful one and I was the talented one. She couldn't be dying, not know.
"She was going to be a dancer.We told each other that we'd live to be 100-. That we'd get an apartment. That we would stay best friends forever. She can't die. She wont! She can't do this to me!" I yell in frustration as I kick a chair. Tommy stands up and grabs my wrist.
"Don't touch me Tommy!" I yell.
"Jude! You have to calm down. It'll be okay." Tommy whispered as he pulled me into a hug.
I push him back after a second or two.
"It wont be okay Tommy! It will never be okay! My sister is dying and I can't do anything! My best friend is going away forever!" I scream at Tommy.
As the tears continue to flow. All of a sudden Sadie's body starts to shake rapidly. The nurses all run to the bedside.
"We're losing her!" One of the nurses yells.
I feel a sharp pain in my stomache as I hear those words and I fall to the ground. Only to hear a beep of the machine siginaling no heart beat.
"Time of death 11:11." One of the nurses speaks.
I start to scream and Tommy picks me up and carries me down the hall to a bathroom.
I continue to cry into Tommy's chest as he lays me on the clean floor in the bathroom leaning against the sinks. "She died on 11:11.
We would always make a wish on 11:11. Tommy! I can't live without her I can't do it! I wish I would die and be gone forever and escape this pain." I start to get a grip and stop screaming.
"You don't mean that Jude. You don't mean it." Tommy repeated.
"I mean it Tom. I mean it more than anything. She is my sister,my best friend,my guardian angel, my partner at work, we going to get an apartment and live together. Tom I mean it!"
I was in such shock I almost couldn't breathe enough to stay consoius. I wrapped my arms around Tommy neck and hugged him as tightly as I had ever held anyone. I felt my sleeve start to get wet. I looked at Tommy to see tears streaming down his face too with the occational sniffle. I layed my head on Tommy's shoulder again. We stayed that way for hours until our breathing both became slow and steady signaling that we had fell asleep.
"Sadie no!"
I awoke on a cold sweat. Tommy brushes a stray hair out of my face. As I started to cry again.
"Jude! It was a dream!" I looked around. Could it be. I was still in a hospital bathroom with Tommy in my arms. My eyes were swollen and so were Tom's. My dream had been terrible.
"You dreamed about that night didn't you?" Tommy asked. He saw the horror on my face and knew exactly that it had been. I rested my cheek on Tommy's shoulder.
"Why does life have to be so damn hard?" I thought out loud.
"It is and always will be." Tommy answered for myself. He picked me up again and walked down the hall down to the lobby with me crying on his shoulder.