Author: ChoChanger (hlchap@hotmail.com)
Summary: What happens when you just can't let go? The truth is just too much? You feel you can't cope? What the point in living when your life is full of sorrow and regret? What is the point? – First proper fan fic peeps so go easy (urgh! Rubbish summary i know) Post- Hogwarts.
Type: H/G (sort of...) Angst/General (a few romantic memories).
A/N:Like I said before this is my first proper fan fic so plase don't be too harsh – i know its rubbish but please Review anyway – feedback and suggestions are welcome. Oh if you don't like sad stories this isn't really the story for you- thought i better warn you. Anyways – enjoy (or at least try to!). Oh I also I also have to thank my friend Briony who has spent hours and hours editing this for me – thanks hun! Luv yall ChoChanger. Disclaimer: I don't own anything – hang on ...* looks around*... nope i actually own nothing. Oh I do own the plot though! Yay! I own something! Chapter 1: Memories
~*Ginny*~
Virginia Weaseley stood in front of her full length mirror eyeing her reflection with disgust - she didn't like what she saw. A short, fat, ugly girl with red hair and freckles glowered sullenly out at her . She pummeled her stomach with her fists frowning – she loathed the image in front of her.
'No wonder you have no friends' she hissed menacingly at her reflection, 'Who would want to be friends with you – fat, boring Ginny?'
A sudden pain errupted in Ginny's chest and she felt a lump in her throat.
Someone had wanted to be friends with her...more than friends...
Ginny swallowed and shook her head furiously, willing the pain to go away, that was all over – he was gone.
'Harry' she whispered softly, she noticed his name sounded odd on her lips – She realised she hadn't used it in a while. Ginny sighed and a small smile crept on to her lips in spite of herself – she remembered their first night together as if it had been yesterday, the night their lips had finally met, their passions realized, Ginny had never felt more happy in all her life as she had those last few months she had spent with Harry. Ginny frowned again and shook herself out of her daydream – as she had heard Harry once say ' It doesn't do to dwell on dreams and forget to live' (A/N sound familiar?!) Ginny knew, however, that these words meant nothing to her as she knew she would probably be haunted by this dream for the rest of her life. Ginny's eyes welled with tears as she remembered their last moments together...
~*Flashback*~
'Ginny stay there, don't come out no matter what happens,' I heard Ron yell sending a fresh wave of panic flooding through me
'But…''No! Get back!' and he pushed me further into my hiding place. Seeing my frightened face he gave me a small, strained smile ' We'll be ok, I promise.' Though I noticed his eyes didn't quite meet mine. I watched him run out into the chaos, the light from the raging fires blinding me. I was scared; fear was piercing my heart like a dagger. This was it; this was the day that we all knew had to come, although none had expected it so soon. Voldemort had finally penetrated the magic of Hogwarts and had attacked with the Death Eaters when none had expected it. Dumbledore had come running in to the dormitories looking weary and panic stricken,
'Harry come with me, it is time' he'd said, Harry solemnly had got up and followed him, however, as he passed me, he whispered softly
'I'll be back, I promise' and with that he'd left through the portrait hole without looking back. We all stared somberly at the closed portrait hole, we all knew what was happening; this was it, the battle, the last battle. McGonagall had then come and evacuated us from the building into the forest where she said we would be safe, but Death Eaters had been there too, we scattered and at that moment Dumbledore's words from my third year entered my head
'We are only as strong as we are united, as weak as we are divided.'
'Ginny!' I was aroused from my thoughts by Ron running over looking panicky
'There you are, come here, you have to hide' he gave me a quick hug and led me over to a thicket of trees and told me to stay hidden.
That's where I was now, alone and scared, wondering if I would ever see Ron, Fred, George, Hermione again – but most of all I was worried about Harry. I wanted him so badly, I wanted to know he was safe; I wanted him to be here with me.
Suddenly I saw him run out of a thicket of trees to my left, I gasped as I noted the fact that he was bleeding and covered in scratches. I opened my mouth to call out to him but stopped when I saw who ran out of next. Voldemort himself emerged out of the trees and laughed that high cold laugh that sent chills down my spine. He turned to Harry and screamed the killing curse his wand pointed directly at Harry's heart – but Harry was just as quick, and I heard him yell,
'Permissen Benevolentia Evalesco!' – which I later found out means ' May Goodness Prevail.'
The wands then, as I had seen many a time before, connected, the beams meeting in the middle, however, this time it was different. There was no beautiful Phoenix music to be heard, nothing at all –Then I noticed that a
big sphere of energy had gathered in the middle of the connection and was glowing a vivid electric blue, steadily increasing in size. I watched it cautiously as the the round ball of energy began to shudder. Then timeseemed to stand still – the energy suddenly exploded, throwing Voldemort and Harry backwards, then sending a blinding green light towards Voldemort – the spell had rebounded back on to its master – Voldemort was dead. I felt a smile creep across my face – he was gone, it was finally over...we were free. I turned round still smiling, expecting to see Harry brushing himself off and getting to his feet – my smile vanished. Harry was lying awkwardly on the ground, his breathing harsh, his eyes closed.
'Harry!' I screamed, I ran over and knelt down beside him 'Harry!' I screamed again 'Harry wake up, don't leave me! Your going to be be ok –you promised me you'd come back!' Harry gave a shuddering breath and slowly shook his head, his eyes still closed, tears poured down my face as I sobbed uncontrollably.
'Its over...' he said, and a ghost of a smile passed across his face '...we won.'
He gave another harsh breath before he continued
'Say...goodbye...to...Ron and...Hermione' his words were faulty, as if he was using every last ounce of strength inside him to get the words out.
'No,' I sobbed 'don't say goodbye now, I love you Harry, don't leave me,' He sighed, and gave me a small smile
'I love you...Ginny,' then, with one last shuddering breath, he breathed his last.
~*End Flashback*~
~*Ginny*~
Tears streamed down Ginny's face as she recalled the event although it had happened well over a year ago. He was gone and he wasn't coming back. It seemed that the one thing that she had loved about her life had been been given to her then taken away again as if the world was playing some kind of cruel trick. Ginny's brow suddenly furrowed and fury masked her face as she heard laughter coming from downstairs.
'How could they just forget about Harry like that? Laughing and joking around, It was as if he had never existed!'
Of course they had all mourned, Ron had been a wreck for weeks, but in time they had come to accept the fact the Harry was gone and though his absense had affected them all, eventually they had got back into their every day routines. Ginny narrowed her eyes, she wasn't going to just move on, pretend it never even happened.
'I'll never forget you Harry' Ginny said fiercly 'Never'.