I like my uncle's room a lot, and he looks after me very well, though
mommy and granny don't trust him...! As soon as mommy is a bit distracted,
I escape and go in his room. He is always happy to see me and he lets me
climb on his bed. They say that his bedroom is too messy for a small girl
like me, but that isn't true. When I go, I see him looking around to see
if there is any little thing on the ground that I could get in my mouth
and swallow without meaning to. Of course he wouldn't need to do that,
for, as I am a little old now, I know that everything shouldn't be eaten!
And, besides, I like much more what they give to me than the things that
could be on the ground, for, beside not tasting half as good as the other
things, they have told me that if I swallow them my tummy will hurt and
I will have to stay sick in bed eating green stuff, and I don't want, that!
When I go to his room, I climb to the bed and I look at what he's doing.
Sometimes I bring some toy in case he wants to play. He also has a toy,
despite how old he is. It's a black machine that he has on the table. He
loves it so much, sooooo muuuuuch, that sometimes he spends the whole afternoon
with a thing that clings out of the machine in his hands and staring at
the telly that is also stuck to the machine. That telly is not like the
daddy's, mommy's or granny's, it's different for it makes more colours
and you can always hear music. I like uncle's telly best. Sometimes uncle
lets me touch the machine, he puts that thing in my arms. Then the machine
is very happy and makes even more music, and I laugh because uncle tells
me that I'm winning, and I like winning!
Pan also likes uncle's toy for when she comes to uncle's bedroom she
always looks at it, and she makes it open and she puts plain doughnuts
inside. But they are not doughnuts like the good ones, no! Once I bit one
of them and I didn't like it at all, for they're hard and have no sugar.
Pan explained to me that those doughnuts were not for people eating them
and I became very happy when she gave me small doughnuts, for she had not
only thought of the uncle's machine but she had also remembered me! Surely
those plain doughnuts are the food for machines for I have seen that mommy,
daddy and granny, and uncle and Pan, sometimes take them out of some small
boxes and those big machines with screens like tellies, but are not; and
that are called computers, they swallow them at once, without biting! And
nobody tells them off... it's not fair, I'm always told off if I swallow
anything without chewing...! And there are some other machines that when
they are given doughnuts, they play music... it must be because she becomes
happy...!
In my house, since it's the ceecee, there are lots, and loooooooooooots
of machines!
And if Pan comes to uncle's bedroom when I'm in, it's even more fun
because she sits with me on the bed and since mommy and granny rely on
her better, they let me stay as long as I want to. Then we play the three
of us, and sometimes uncle plays with his machine and Pan and I look at
him, and sometimes they both talk and I stay on uncle's or Pan's lap and
in the end I feel so good that I fall asleep...
Uncle has a case in his room that is full to the top of sweets and when
I go into his bedroom he gives some to me. When Pan comes, I give some
to her too, but she's so happy that she gives me half of it! Moreover,
she also has things for me! But I, what I like the most in the world is
when they tell me that they love me, and that they give me kisses! I also
give them lots of kisses because I like a lot being the three of us in
uncle's bedroom...!
I don't know what's the matter with uncle for he has a computer in his
room, but he doesn't love the computer as he loves the black machine that
is called a game console, now I remember, and sometimes, he sits opposite
to the computer and starts saying very strange things, and he starts pressing
buttons, and more buttons...! Till sometimes the screen turns black and
he becomes very happy. I think that he gets so happy because the computer
dies, because he doesn't like it! Yet, when the screen of the game console
goes black, he gets very, very sad, for he thinks that there will never
ever be colours and music on it, but afterwards there are.
And when the computer dies he tells me that it is messed up, that I
don't know what that means, and that he will call Pan and she'll repair
it. Then we are both very happy for she will come!
Pan wears very beautiful clothes, much more beautiful than my mother's.
Uncle says that momma is only dressed in threads, and I laugh because it's
not the truth and because it would be very funny that momma only wore threads!
Momma always dresses as if it was summer and it was very hot, and nobody
knows why, only me; momma dresses like that because she told me one day
that daddy liked it that way. Perhaps dad doesn't like winter!
But I like Pan's better. And when I sit on her lap it's soft and she
smells so nice! Once I stained the shirt she was wearing with chocolate
and it made me so sad to see the brown spot there, ruining everything,
that I started crying, but she told me not to cry and she said that it
didn't matter, for it just needed to be washed and that was all, and she
started tickling me until I laughed again. I love Pan, a lot!
And I also love uncle a lot because he does very funny things. When
his computer dies, as I have already said, instead of being sad, he gets
very happy. Then he calls Pan on the phone (I do talk to her as well and
I say hello, Pannnnn!) and he tells her to come and cure it. I don't understand
it, but it makes me laugh: if he's so happy when it dies, why does he call
Pan to come and cure it? Sometimes, big people do very strange things.
And when he hangs up, he lifts me and tells me, with a huge grin, that
now his little angel will come and that he is very happy. But afterwards
no angel comes, not little or big, but Pan does, only Pan and that's all,
but it seems that uncle conforms to it because he is happy as well. And
then Pan sits opposite to the computer and goes on pressing buttons again,
until she gets the computer not to be dead anymore. And uncle must like
her repairing his computer because he keeps on staaaaaring and staaaaaaaaaaaaaring
at her, with one of those smiles even bigger than the one before!
And then Pan stays to have a snack with us and we have fun. I like that
uncle's computer dies, too!
Sometimes, we go out for a walk, us three. I love it! We go by the sea
and you can make cakes with the sand, but those cakes are not to eat, no,
I do know that, because they are not like the others and they make your
tummy hurt, as it happened to me one day when I was small and I didn't
know and I ate a tiny one, just to taste it! They carry me on my stroller
and sometimes one pushes, sometimes the other does. And if it is in the
evening when the sun is starting to go to sleep, they put a jacket on me
that is very pretty because it has a hood and everything! And uncle puts
an arm around Pan's shoulder so that she is not cold. And as she doesn't
want him to think that she is not cold anymore and take his arm away, she
holds his waist and this way she is sure that he is not going to stop hugging
her. And they walk like that, very close... and it's very funny because
people think that they are my parents and that I'm their daughter! Some
people come and say things to me and then they speak with uncle and Pan
and they say, your daughter... then they blush, for blushing is what old
people do when they are ashamed, and they say no, that my uncle is my uncle
Trunks and that Pan is my cousin Pan... and although they say so, I think
that uncle would like Pan to be my auntie, because sometimes he asks me,
Blau, would you like it if Pan was your auntie Pan? Would you? And I say
yes because, if she were my auntie, it would be very nice because she would
live at the ceecee with us and she would always be there. And she would
come to say good morning when I wake up!
I feel that uncle wants to marry Pan, as my parents and my grandparents,
but the problem is that every time he tries to ask her, he gets so, so
red that the words don't come out. He is a bit shy, my uncle! But as I
am a bit small and I don't make him shy, because old people are only shy
with other old people, he does tell me those things. He tells me that,
perhaps, one day, Pan and he will be the parents of a girl like me, I would
love it a lot because here in the ceecee there is no one else that is small,
only me! They say that when I grow up I will go to a place called school,
where there are a looooooot of kids like me, but because I am still a bit
small, they wouldn't let me in yet. And, of course, at the moment I'm all
alone! So it would be very nice that Pan and uncle got married, because
they would have a small boy or girl and we would play together. But then
comes Pan and he doesn't ask her! I want to tell my uncle, that's not the
way, uncle, this way you will never be parents of a girl like me, but,
as I don't know how to say this, uncle keeps silent... maybe he doesn't
know what has to be done to have a baby. The truth is that I don't know
either (it probably comes out from a machine, since there are so many here...),
but he could ask daddy and mommy, or granny and grandpa, for they have
already have some... but he does nothing... he just stares at her, he staaaaares
at her...
Sometimes only uncle and I go for a walk, when uncle gets momma and
granny to stop complaining. Then we don't go to the beach, we go to the
city. And he buys me some cotton candy and I get so dirty that one day
when we came back home momma asked me if I had eaten even a bit, because
it seemed as if all the cotton candy had all gone on my clothes. And when
we go to the city we buy presents for Pan, and afterwards uncle gives them
to her. Once we bought some flowers for her and he also gave me some! That
was his way of thanking me for having helped him that much to choose Pan's
flowers. They made suuuuuuch a pretty bouquet...! And Pan was sooooo happy!
And uncle put a flower in my hair and I was very happy because he told
me that all the people that passed by looked at me and thought, what a
beautiful child, with this flower in her hair...!
And sometimes when we go to the city uncle doesn't put me in the stroller
and he carries me. Then it's very funny because he carries me sitting on
his shoulders, and I'm taller that anyone else! And when uncle, who is
a bit crazy, sees that there aren't many people on the street, he tells
me to hold tight and he starts running and running...! And I jump and my
tummy tickles and it's very funny, and in the end uncle has to stop because
I laugh so hard that I almost fall!
And sometimes we go out for a walk but instead of going to the city
we go to visit Pan, who lives in a house in the woods. It's a round house
like the ceecee, but it's much smaller because only she and her parents
live there, not like ceecee that is that big because, besides uncle, my
parents, my grandparents and me, lots and lots of people live there too,
people who walk along the corridors with lots of papers in their hands
and who are always playing with machines. And lots of girls that always
say weird things to uncle, though they are shy because sometimes they blush!
And Pan is always very happy to see us. She makes me a plate full of popcorn
and then we play something. Pan also has a computer in her room and she
shows things to uncle, and sometimes they laugh a lot looking at the screen.
Perhaps it's showing jokes, but I don't know because I don't know how to
read yet, and it's writing that the computer speaks... and I meanwhile
look around Pan's room that is very nice, like uncle's room, and has lots
of things on the shelves. On a shelf there is a clay doll that uncle made,
I saw him making it. He stained his face so much that it seemed to be white!
And then he painted it and he made it have black hair, and black eyes like
Pan's and he painted its clothes like what Pan wears sometimes, a blue
skirt and a pink shirt. I think that he painted it very nicely, and Pan
did like it a lot as well! And she also has other things on the shelves,
looooots of books, and some planets that cling from the ceiling and some
stars that don't like the light and only rise when you turn the light off,
like my uncle's. Sometimes the three of us lay on the bed with the lights
off so that the stars aren't afraid and rise and they speak softly, softly,
it must be so that it doesn't scare the stars, and in the end I fall asleep
because when I feel very well I always fall asleep and I'm very well on
Pan's bed with Pan and uncle.
And I feel that Pan also wants to marry uncle because she also staaaares
at him, staaaaaares at him like that, with the face that old people look
at each other when they want to get married but they are ashamed of saying
so. They are so shy, uncle and Pan! Perhaps they are waiting for me to
learn to speak to tell them! But at the moment I only know how to say some
words, and they aren't useful for this, so they wouldn't understand me...
I hope that uncle and Pan don't have to wait to get married and have children
like me until I can speak well enough! This would make me sad because I
love Pan and my uncle a lot and I want them to get married now and that
Pan wears a dress, one of those whiiiiiiiite, whiiiiiiiiite ones, that
are so loooooooong and that trail along the ground...! Momma has one of
those dresses too, because she is a momma. I like a lot of those dresses!
And perhaps they would dress me in one too, though I'm not a momma!
Here comes momma. She wants me to sleep, but I don't feel like sleeping
now...! I think that she is a bit annoyed because it's been very long since
she has put me in the cot and I'm still awake, playing with my teddies.
I'm not sleepy, mommy! But she says that I must sleep, now. But momma,
you know what happens, when I'm angry... great, she's brought me a cookie!
Look, mommy, I'll eat it and I'll go to sleep, ok? Hey, Pan has also come!
Hi, Pan! Lift me, Pan, lift me, I want to hug you! Great, I like it a lot
when Pan rocks me... I didn't know that you had come, Pan... look at the
cookie momma's given me! Do you want some? No? Ok, I'll eat it... Pan,
Pan, tell momma that I'm not sleepy... eh? Tell her... she's closed the
blinds, but I can see that there is still light outside, through the lines...
and when there's still the sun you don't have to sleep, have you? You only
have to sleep when the moon comes and the sun goes to sleep as well in
his bed... Ugh... I think that I'm getting sleepy, because when I feel
very well I always fall asleep... and Pan rocks me so good... but don't
leave me in the cot, will you, Pan? I want to be with you... you smell
so nice... I love you a lot! And you rock me so well... so well...
