MUSINGS FROM A MISGUIDED SOUL
Chapter 1 – How did I get here…?
*Pairing:
Reno/Rosalind, Reno/Elena, Reno/Tifa, Rhodes/Tseng, Rude/Cyr
*Rating:
T
*Disclaimer: I do not claim to own any of the
characters from all FFVII films, RPG's etc. I claim no hold over
characters and locations.
*Summery: This is an introduction
of a man who needs no introduction. Musings of our favourite
red-headed Turk who we've all taken to our hearts.
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Its hard to remember what life was like before now. Going about the same daily routine, moving like clockwork to the beat of some twisted tune. Doing only when told to.
I always thought that I was hardy, prepared for life… but nothing could ever prepare me for the events that unfolded before me, taking me down a path that just forced me forward into something I wasn't even sure I wanted. I've tried to look back and think about what I would have been if things had only been different for a mere moment. Could one moment really change your life forever? How can you be sure? Maybe no matter what you do it doesn't matter, you're destined for something horrible. Take comfort in that, maybe, that your whole life is already planned, you're not really the one doing the evils because its fate… you're only a tiny piece in a greater plan.
I don't know what wakes me up in the middle of the night, covered in sweat with my breath caught in my chest. Maybe it's the idea that I'm really not in control, that no matter what I do everything will wither and crumble around me no matter what. Or maybe it's the thought that I am in control, that the events of my life weren't predestined at all- that I had a choice, that I chose my place in this world.
I look around at the people I love and care about and how I've taken them to hell and back and often wonder what kind of a person I am. the thoughts that enter into my mind, the ideas… its not even worth mentioning, yo.
This is my confession. The confession of a man, no not a man… merely a person at all. The confessions of a killer… a thief and sinner.
I'd laugh right now if I could… I really would, just to see how it felt, I can joke and tell you stories in my normal mannerism, twisting them to fit make even the bleakest situation shine bright; To cause a slow, unsure smirk to crawl across your features… but I'm not going to do that anymore. I need you to listen to a story, my story…
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A/N: Please Review, This is the start of a multi-chapter story through the eyes of our red-head Turk, it's a little bit of a spin off from my on-going story 'Awaken' just to get a bit of background on Reno.