Here's Where I Stand

Disclaimer : I don't own anything, and I don't claim to. This story does contain slash, so If you don't like it don't read it. Flames will be ignored. So…on to the story.

Rory heard everything. He could hear his dad talking to his mother in hushed tones in the middle of the night. They might as well have been shouting. The words cut at his heart like a dagger tipped with poison. He knew well his father loved him, he wasn't so delusional to think the look in his fathers eyes held anything but love, but he knew he could never be the son his father wanted.

"That's it Rory, where're canceling Bravo." It was little comments like that that led Rory to believe that his father would be more then devastated if he turned out to be anything other then a red blooded, sports watching, burping, scratching, heterosexual man. A hollow space formed inside of Rory's chest when he realized that he couldn't be those things for his dad..

Rory did everything in his power to convince himself he wasn't like those people his dad looked down upon. His dad wasn't homophobic , not intentionally. Most of the comments his dad made about gay people were not malicious just ignorant. The poor result of growing up in a different generation. Where standards and norms were different.

Rory now kneeled at the base of a headstone, the marble cold under his fingers as he traced his father's name. Tears were already running down his chin, before he could even begin to start talking.

"Hey, Dad. I…I uh wanted to talk to you about something kind of important. I know that you loved me and that nothing could have changed that, but I kept something from you for about the last six months before you died. I mean I kept it from you for ever but really I didn't even realize I was keeping a secret before then. I wish I could have told you this before you were gone, but I was such a coward. God Dad I miss you.

Dad..Dad I'm Gay. I think I'm ready to start telling people , but I wanted you to know first. Please don't hate me."

Rory completely dissolved into hiccupping sobs and curled himself around the cold stone.

"He wouldn't hate you" The sudden voice in the stillness of the cemetery startled Rory and the realization that his whole confession had been overheard caused his heart to jump into his throat.

"Kerri what are you doing here?"

"I come to talk to dad at least once a month. " A shameful look crossed her face, "I didn't mean to eaves drop, but I'm glad I did. I don't care--you're my little brother and even though I never say it ,I love you. "

Rory just looked up into the face of his big sister in numbness . He looked at her outstretched hand as if it were a foreign object. Kerri shook her head and grabbed his hand. "Come on it's cold lets get you some hot chocolate."

Rory smiled for the first time in a long time as he felt the warmness of his sisters hand in his. "I'd much rather have some coffee.

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This originally was just supposed to be a one shot but I was thinking of making it into a full story. Let me know what you think.