It had been a year since the dark lord had brutally murdered Harry Potter, and thrown the world into turmoil. Muggles had long since become slaves to the wizarding world, and were treated no better than house elves.

Many had died during the war of the dark ages. Lucuis...Albus...

...Draco...

The memories were painful to Severus Snape. His plan had not worked in his favour. In fact, it had turned completely against him. He had in fact, murdered Albus Dumbledore; but not because he hadn't been on the mans side. Rather, he had been afraid to loose his life. Looking back, it probably would've been a better option for him to have sacrificed his own life. Perhaps then, Dumbledore would've been able to prevent the deaths of so many brilliant pupils.

"Severus?...What are you thinking?"

Remus wrapped his arms around Severus. They had started living together after Harry was killed. Remus was the only one that understood...Severus was only trying to do what was right; but he was scared. Scared to stand up for himself, afraid to die. Snape had longed for death for a long time...however, there was one who always stopped him. Remus had been the strong one between them; had always been the sensible one, even back in their Hogwarts days. The only times he needed Severus was before the full moon. Those times were the only times that Severus had seen the other side of Remus...weak...fragile...

"I'm just remembering things...thinking about how..."

How i wouldn't mind dying...

Severus moved away from Remus's embracing arms, and looked outside. It was getting to be dark. Another day filled with regret, another night full of pain. Remus sat down on the couch, staring at Severus with concern. Remus loved Snape, and it worried him when Snape went into his thinking moods.

Remus looked out the window, and remembered. "Severus, i need a potion...its going to be a full moon tonight..."

Serverus smiled sadly. "I know..."

Severus had not moved an inch. "I don't want to live anymore Remus..."

Remus instantly got up off the couch, and walked over to his beloved. "What do you mean?"

"I regret so many things...I've killed innocent people Remus! Half the reason the world is so fucked up now is because of me! I murdered Dumbledore, I let Voldermort kill Harry, I left..."

Remus broke Severus's words off with a deep kiss. "Those things are in the past Severus...and this is not the time for us to be talking about them."

His eyes filled with tears, Severus looked at Remus. "I've been holding you down for too long now Remus. There are better people...loves..."

Remus stared into Severus's eyes. "You didn't make the potion for tonight, did you."

The silence that followed was enough for Remus. He ran up to their room, swearing profusely as he brought out the silver chains that would keep him from killing.

"Hurry, Severus!"

Severus simply stood in the room, tears running down his face. It was then Remus realised. Snape truly did want to die. Remus could feel the tears emerging from his eyes. He wrapped his arms around Severus's waist, holding him tightly. He could already feel the changes for the monster within taking effect.

"Remus, do not doubt for a moment, that all I've ever felt for you is love...i just need... an end."