A/N:
1) For those who read my other story, Way Back To You, fret not! I am still working on Chapter 2, so that shall be up sometime this week or next.
2) So basically how this whole fic will go...each chapter will be based on a song, either one I heard, or a request. Depending on the song, it might be AU. Mostly will be Klaroline, but I can write other ships if requested. So here we go!
Ch1: "Words I Couldn't Say"
Song: "Words I Couldn't Say" by Leighton Meester
He's gone.
I can't believe he's gone.
Caroline stands in the middle of the now empty Mikaelson manor. After all this time, after all the back and forth banter between them, she can't believe that he had actually left without so much as a goodbye. The place that once exuded wealth and filled with worldly treasures was now bare.
Before she knew it, she was walking into that room. The room that had once been filled with his beautiful paintings. She still remembers the last time she was here. She doesn't know how long she had been in that room reminiscing of that one moment between them. How she scoffed as he tried to impress her with his artwork; how he offered to show her the world.
She wouldn't admit it then, but she wanted nothing more that to accept his offer. To let him whisk her of her feet and take her away from this god-forsaken town. Let him show her the world that she had always dreamed of seeing. She was too naïve, too proud to give in. She felt a sense of duty to her friends. No matter how charming he was to her, she had to remember that he was still the monster who had turned their lives into a living nightmare. The more she spent time with him, the harder it was to fight this attraction towards him. Yes, he was a monster, but not to her.
"I've shown kindness, forgiveness, pity. All for you, Caroline"
Those words still echoed in her ears every night. Time and time again, he would show her a part of him that no one has seen before. He would show her the vulnerable side of him, the side that had a spark of good. He always forgave her, saved her, no matter what she said or did to hurt him. It killed her little by little to see the look of hurt in his face when he realized that everything she said, everything she did was just another part of a plan against him. In reality, all those things she said, every moment shared between the two of them...those were real for her. She just didn't want to admit it to herself. She didn't want to admit that she was actually falling for him.
The feeling of emptiness growing in her heart every minute she stood there in the vacant room was killing her. The it dawned on her. What's the use of living for eternity, if you aren't don't live it for yourself? He can't have left without a goodbye, he can't leave without knowing the truth. Taking a deep breath, she takes out her phone and dials the number that ingrained in her memory.
It's now or never Caroline. Just one call. If he picks up, just pretend you didn't know he was gone. Maybe he just forgot to tell you.
Pressing the phone against her ear, she waits impatiently for that familiar voice to answer. Suddenly, she hears a ring coming from his study. Her heart skips a beat. She makes her way there, phone still against her ear as the ring on the speaker matches the ring in the study.
Klaus?
She slowly pushes the door open, not prepared to see what is on the other side. Dropping her phone, her heart stops. There, laying on the window sill, is Klaus' phone. Blinking red, indicating a missed call. Her call. Her attempt to rectify all the horrible things she's done.
There's no denying it. Klaus is most definitely gone and seeing as her only known way of contacting him is staring her at the face, it's quite clear that he's gone for good. Finding it hard to breathe, she falls to her knees, silent tears running down her face. She's finally done it. She's pushed him one too many times. She's pushed away the only person that had finally put her first.
It took her forever to pull herself together enough to slip out of the manor, undetected. She spent months putting on a brave face, her perfectly practiced smile, while her friends celebrated the departure of the Original family. Her days were spent playing the fixer for her friends, the perfect daughter for her mom, the queen bee and future prom queen for her school. Her nights however, were nothing but despair. She would spend hours calling Kol, Elijah, hell even Rebekah, to get any information on where Klaus is. Was he with them, was he alright...does he still think of her? Every night she would call them, every night she would be met with nothing but a "Leave a message," and every night she would cry herself to sleep. As far as the outside world was concerned, everything has looked up since the Mikaelsons left.
Tonight marked a whole year since the Mikaelsons' departure. I was in no mood to pretend tonight, passing on an invitation to hang out with the others, to sulk at home, alone. I spent the whole night reminiscing on all the moments I've shared with him, all the words I could have said, but didn't. Getting ready for bed, Caroline's phone rings. Looking at the screen; unknown number.
Who the hell would call me at this time?
Ignoring the call, I slipped into my bed. The phone rang again, 10 minutes later. Grabbing my phone from the nightstand, "Unknown" appears on the screen again. Sighing I clicked the answer button.
"Hello?" I answered hesitantly, but heard only silence on the other side. If it was any other night, I would have hung up. It's strange and unexplainable, maybe it's because it has been exactly one year since, but I have a strong feeling that it's Klaus on the other end.
"Hello? ..Klaus, is that you?" I tried again, hopefully. "Look if this is you, please say something." I hear a slight change in breathing on the other end.
"Ok...I am about 99.9% it's you, but you're not answering. So just listen ok?" Pausing, I listened for anything on the other side.
"I'm sorry," I started, closing her eyes, trying to remember the speech I had prepared if he ever decided to give me another chance. "I'm sorry for everything I've done. All those horrible words...I...I didn't mean them."
Pausing again, waiting for an answer or for him to hang up the phone. I was just met with more silence. Well, at least he didn't hang up.
"Please, Klaus, just let me know where you are. I promise this isn't another plan, this has nothing to do with my friends. This is … I just..." sucking in a deep breath. This speech wasn't exactly going the way I planned. "I miss you. Okay? I do. I didn't realize it until I found your place empty...but I do. So please.." Before I could finish, the dial tone rang in my ear. He had hung up. I told him that I missed him and he had hung up.
Not realizing it could hurt any more, I felt my heart-break. Tears were now falling from my face and there was nothing I could do to stop it.
The next day, I wanted nothing more than to stay home and forget about the world outside. No pretending to be happy, no walking by every place that holds such precious memories. Rolling back over, hoping to sleep the rest of the day away, the sound of her doorbell broke the silence.
Ignore them, and they'll go away.
Apparently it just wasn't my day, because the doorbell rang once more...and again...and again.
"FINE!" Dragging my body out of bed, I grabbed my robe, I tied my hair up and made my way to the door. If they insisted on disturbing my 'ignore-the-world' day, they can deal with my appearance.
Opening the door, with every intention of telling the person off, I froze.
"Hello, Caroline."
Mouth still agape, it took Caroline longer than it should have to reply, "Elijah...hi! Umm.." Suddenly feeling very underdressed, compared to his suit, she pulls the robe tighter around her body. Moving aside to allow him in, "Oh! I'm sorry, please come inside."
"Thank you. You are looking well, Ms. Forbes. I hope you don't mind the intrusion." He said entering her house and walking into the living room.
"Oh! It's no intrusion at all." She replied, fidgeting with the rope on her robe. " Would you mind if I change into something more presentable? It won't be long."
"Of course," he said, polite as always,"please take all the time you need."
A few minutes later, Caroline and Elijah were in her living room, both with a cup of tea. Elijah sitting across from her, while she continued to fidget under his gaze.
"I apologize," Elijah started, "for what happened a year ago. We never intended to hurt you, Caroline."
Trying to hide her shock, "There's no need to apologize, Elijah. I understand that it was time for you to move on from Mystic Falls. It was best for everyone."
"Not everyone." He replied with a sigh. "Nik has been beside himself since that day. He was incredibly torn between leaving and staying."
Her heartbeat speeding up, "torn? Why would he be torn? Silas was dealt with, Elena's blood is no longer of any use for him. There is nothing to be torn about."
"Always so modest, of course there was." He replied, chuckling lightly. "It's no secret that Niklaus was absolutely captivated by you. The beast of darkness, drawn to the creature born in the light." Shaking his head as I sat there, fighting my jaw from actually dropping to the floor.
Did he just...Klaus was captivated by me?
Just hearing those words sent another wave of regret through me. Regret for not giving him a real chance, like I truly wanted to, regret for deceiving him, for making him believe that I didn't care. I knew Klaus liked me, but 'captivated'? It can't be, but this is Elijah. He is the most noble and moral in the family. If there was anyone's words I could trust, it would be his. Sucking in a shaky breath, I tried to think of something to say...anything to show Elijah that my actions towards his brother back did not mean a thing. As if saying it to Elijah would make me feel slightly better.
"He will be furious, if he discovers my whereabouts."
This definitely grabbed my attention. I didn't exactly think that Klaus brought Elijah here, but I thought he'd at least know that Elijah was in Mystic Falls. "He doesn't know you're here?"
"No," he answered, looking uncomfortable, for the first time that I've ever seen him. "I came here on my own, I came here to speak to you."
Taking my silence as a sign, he continued," you see, Niklaus has never trusted anyone before. Well, anyone that isn't family...until you." Sighing, "I've spent my whole life by his side and not once have I seen him act the way he did when he was with you. We all agreed, for once, that it was time to move on from this town, to move one with our lives. The day we left, he was torn between leaving town and staying. On one hand, he never wanted to leave your side; he wanted to remain here in case you needed his protection. On the other hand, he felt that his continued presence in this town would continue causing you and your friends misery."
"So...that's why he left without saying a word? He thought that I wouldn't have cared either way?" Shaking my head, "But last time he planned to leave town, he told me. He crashed our school dance and told me he was leaving."
"He wanted to leave you at peace, Caroline. He feared that seeing you once more before leaving would change his mind."
"We assumed that after time, he would return to the Niklaus we knew before arriving in Mystic Falls. That after some time away, he would go back to his old ways. We were very wrong. You have changed him, Caroline. He is a far cry from being a good man, but you have made him better. The senseless killings, the manipulation of women, the violent outbursts towards our family...he doesn't do them anymore. He's quiet, distant, a shell of who he used to be." A look of concern crossed his face, which took me by surprise, since I hardly think that an Original would have anything to be concerned about. "He needs you, Caroline. He is lost without your light; he has no idea what to do with himself."
Looking at the coffee table between us, where my phone is sitting, "I heard him on the phone the other day. Well, not him precisely, but you. I heard him listening to you on the phone. He looked so distraught after hanging up. I thought he had done it only that once, but then Rebekah and Kol have told me that they have heard him do it as well."
So it was him on the other end.
"I knew that I had to come here and talk to you. Let you know the effect you've had on him." Continuing, somewhat unsure, "I've also come in hopes that you would return to our home with me...to see him, if you would like."
Hesitating to answer him, I just looked down at my cup of tea.
"Caroline, as much as you try to hide it or deny it, I know you return Niklaus's feelings. He may be too blind to realize, but I know you feel for him as much as he feels for you. I implore you, if a year apart hasn't changed your feelings about him, go see him."
Of course I wanted to see him, I wanted nothing more than to just pack my things and follow Elijah to him. But what about my life here? I know in the depths of my soul that once I see Klaus, I will never want to leave his side. This past year has been torture without him.
Sensing my hesitance, Elijah spoke again. "Caroline, please take all the time you need." Handing me a card with his number, "should you reach a decision, don't hesitate to call. Whatever you decide, Caroline, please make sure to do what you wish to do, not what you feel your friends will agree with." I nodded at him, taking his card. Satisfied that he got his message across, he stood from the couch. "I suppose I must take my leave. I do not want to impose any more discomfort to you. I can't thank you enough for taking your time to hear me out, Caroline."
"It no discomfort, Elijah. It's just a lot to take in at the moment." I started, not wanting him to think he's done anything wrong. "I do care for your brother. I'm just...I've done a lot of things back then and I'm not sure if he'll forgive me. Heck, I don't think I even have the right to ask for his forgiveness...let alone ask for a second chance."
Shaking his head, in slight amusement. "Oh Caroline, all this time and you still underestimate his affections for you. He will do anything for you. Niklaus would never turn you away. It took everything within him to leave in the first place."
I walked with him to his car, my head still reeling from our conversation. Elijah paused before entering the driver's side, and looked at me.
"My brother, stubborn man that he is, does care for you. He misses you dearly. I'm sure he won't come back, for fear of not being good enough, but you can change that. Please reconsider, Caroline." He implored.
I gave him a warm smile. "I promise, I will think about it. I can't give you any more than that."
Giving a slight sigh, "You word is more than enough. I wish you all the best Caroline. I hope to see you again."
I watch Elijah's car drive away, his offer still circling in my head. I walk back inside to think over my options.
3 days later...
Well, there's no turning back now.
It took me about two days to realize that it would have been stupid for me to walk away from a chance to see him. Delighted to hear back from me so soon, Elijah booked me a plane ticket, as well as a hotel room for the time being. So here I am...in New Orléans.
Standing in front of his door, I take a deep breath. I'm pretty sure he doesn't want to see me, even after Elijah's visit. I don't blame him, after all I've done, I don't deserve a second chance. Even then, I can't just let this opportunity go. At the very least, he needs to know the truth. He needs to know that all those moments..they weren't all lies.
Mustering together the last bit of courage I had left, I knocked on the door and stepped back, bracing herself for him to appear.
The door slowly opening, my breath caught as I looked at the person in front of me. Klaus was still as handsome as ever in his jeans and Henley with those necklaces dangling loosely around his neck.
"Klaus," I breathed, the shocked look on his face, indicating that Elijah hasn't told him about our earlier conversation.
"Caroline? What..." Licking his lips, I can see that he's also at a loss of what to say.
After a good five minutes of us just staring at each other, I knew one of us had to break the silence.
"Hi! Umm...I know this is a little weird, me showing up like this, out of the blue," I rambled, wincing slightly at how stupid I must've sounded. I shook my head, looking down, trying to remember the words I practiced on my trip here.
Maybe silence was better.
As always, he noticed my nervousness and stepped outside, laying his hands on my shoulders. "Are you alright? Is something wrong?" He asked worriedly, looking me over.
Confused, I look up at him, meeting his eyes, "wrong? Why would something be..." Realization hit me.
Of course, he thinks the only reason I'd come was to ask for help...But at least he still cares.
"No. Nothing is wrong. I..." trying to keep eye contact, so he could see the truth behind my words, "I just had to see you." Seeing confusion spread across his face, I continued.
"I'm sorry..." I paused, gauging the surprised look on his face, "...about what happened back then. I'm sorry." He opens his mouth to speak, but I held my hand up, indicating I had more to say, "please...just...I really need to say this and if I don't say it now, I don't think I'll be able to, after you speak."
Silently, he closes his mouth and nods in understanding. His eyes never leaving mine.
"I'm sorry...for everything that happened between us." I winced, that didn't sound right. "I mean, how it ended, how it was seen. Those moments, all those things I said when we were alone, when it was just the two of us...it wasn't a lie. Everything I said about you being saved...I meant them. I was...I was just afraid of what the others thought. But I'm not anymore."
I raised my hand to cradle his cheek. He looked at me with the same affection as before, if not more. A look that I have missed for so long; a look that I thought was lost forever. Leaning against my hand, he closed his eyes, almost as if he didn't believe I was actually here.
"Caroline," he breathed, licking his dry lips. "Please tell me this isn't another one of your ploys. I may be an Original, love, but even I have feelings and I don't know if I'll be able to take another blow to my heart."
Mimicking me, he cups my face with both hands, "It's no secret how much you mean to me, Caroline. Even after everything that's transpired after all this time apart from you, I still feel it, if anything, my feelings for you have grown stronger."
Looking at me straight in the eyes with more affection and passion than I have ever seen in them, I knew what he was doing. He was showing me all of him, not just a part of him. He is opening himself up completely, without holding back.
"I still love you, Caroline. I will always love you." Tears start to fall down my face, as I see the man before me pour his heart out. Using the pad of his thumbs to wipe away my tears, "Tell me what you feel, what you truly feel and I swear, Caroline...I swear I will believe in everything you say."
Keeping our eyes locked to each other, this is it. This is the moment I have always dreamed of, the moment to rectify our past, to finally be happy.
"You are the Original Hybrid. You have caused my friend and my town nothing but despair." I responded. He broke our gaze and looked to the ground. Stroking his cheek with my thumb, I continued, "but you have also shown me your humanity. It took me awhile to realize, but you are not a bad person Klaus. Everything you did was to protect those that you care about. That's why you never killed my friend, that's why you never went through with your threats."
"That is why I love you." He snapped his head up with a surprised look. "God help me, but I do. The day I came to find you and found your place empty, I realized. I realized that no matter what happens, nothing you say or dill will change what I feel for you." I leaned forward and touched my forehead to his.
"I love you Niklaus Mikaelson."
Before I could register what was happening, his lips are on mine. Forgetting how to breather, I reveled at how soft his lips were. Closing my eyes, I try to capture this very moment in my memory forever. Suddenly, I feel his tongue tracing patterns on my bottom lip. Letting out a slight gasp, he took advantage of it and slipped his tongue in and found mine. My hand traveled to the back of his neck as I pulled him closer to me, responding eagerly to the kiss. My tongue moving with his, as if it was the most natural thing in the world. The feel of his velvety tongue moving with mine was pure heaven. Never before have I experienced such emotion, such deep connection and passion from a kiss. Playing with the hair at the nape of his neck, I moaned into the kiss and tried to pull his body closer to mine. Groaning, his arms circle around my waist pulling my body flush against his to the point that you can't tell where one of us ended and the other began. Losing all sense of time, we stayed there, lost in each other, lost in this very moment that we have waited and dreamed about for a long time. Finally pulling back, we both gasped for air, our bodies still melded with each other.
"I love you too, Caroline."
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