Disclaimer: I do not own Ao no Exorcist or any of its character.

Summary: AU. Determine to win back her father's approval; Moriyama Shiemi decided to dress-up as a boy and study in True-Cross Academy, An exclusive school for boys. With all the teenage drama and romance, she will realize that in life, there are more important things than winning back her father's love.

~^~* Realizations of a Pierrot *~^~

Chapter 1: Start

"Don't leave me father!"

"You wicked child! Where is my son?"

"Father! I-I..!"

Sweat drops. Darkness. Nightmare.

Shiemi woke up third time that night. She had been having the same dreams, same nightmare that keep hunting her night for the past two weeks already. It had been tormenting her, leaving her breathless and greedy for air. She doesn't want to remember that horrible event anymore. If these dreadful nightmares would go on, She would definitely lose her mind. Her heart. Her emerald eyes scanned the room and focused on the glowing-in-the-dark wall clock.

'5:09 am'

Thank God.

Albeit to many, Shiemi isn't like the childish and happy-go-lucky girl that everyone loves. She was a girl hiding behind a masquerade. She was a pierrot. A girl having a white face and loose white clothes. Sure she was still sweet to everyone, kind and golden-hearted. But she couldn't let out her real feelings. She would always be known as the damsel in distress. She was getting tired of it. She was getting sick of it.

She gently use her forehand wipe the bead of sweat drops trickling down her forehead. Knowing that she wouldn't be able to sleep any longer, she slowly rose up from her bed and examines herself in the mirror just beside her study table. The dim light radiating from the window cascaded her delicate and small frame. She closed her eyes and let her mind drift off with the breezy air.

Shiemi is not one who believes in fairytales and princesses. Or maybe she did, but that would be when she was still naïve from the violence and danger of living in this complicated planet. There is really no 'happily ever after' in reality. Those fairytales only makes one escape from true life, from real world, to believe in pixie dust and such is such a lame belief.

They are all cliché anyway.

She knew better than that. She perfectly know things better than that.

Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale.

She slowly open her eyes and let them linger on the figure staring back at her. The golden locks that is framing up her pretty face is all unruly and disheveled. There was a small tint of pinkish hue in her cheeks.

Must be from all the drama last night.

There was a small black lining just below her eyes that is due by her constantly waking up from her dreams, specifically nightmares.

"Stupid dreams."

Thinking she looks fine, she lazily stroll from her room to the aroma of bacons and coffee coming from the kitchen.

"Good Morning, Mom!" She cheerfully announced away from her facade. She wouldn't want to show her angsts to anyone, especially her mother. I would only hurt her. Deeply.

Yes, She would definitely be hurt.

"Oh, Shiemi! You're up early. Again." Her mom answered back while cooking the greasy bacon that she knows Shiemi likes. "Since I know you'll be up early again, I made you breakfast. You know, a little crispy for your liking." She said with a hint of playfulness in her voice.

"Mom! You don't have to keep telling that again and ag-"

"Yes, Yes dear. Oh, You may wait on the dining table while I'm making these." She said with a giggle. She nods even though her mother already turned her back to her.

While she was walking towards the dining chair, She suddenly hears a loud struck of lightning and the sound of raindrops falling off from the sky. She hates the rain. It bring backs some memories with her father. Bad memories.

"What a great start of the day. Just great." She whispered sarcastically.

*~-^* End of Chapter 1 *^-~*

A/N: Hello there! This is my first time making a fanfiction. Gosh, I'm all feeling flabbergasted inside. :") Anyways, There would be a lot, I mean a whole lot of grammatical errors in this one so I'm currently looking for a beta! =))) To be honest, I totally dislike angsty Shiemi! That is just not like her, the cute moe character that I love. But it's needed for the plot. :'(

Oh, The drama.

Review please? They'll definitely make me motivated to continue this story. Just please, No flames! XD Later~

P.S: Sorry about the pixie dust part. I love Tinker Bell, I swear. ^_^;;

-Kresya!