A/N: So my damn muse has been at it again... But this should be fun for me because yes it's a GG story but unlike the others its going to be a little bit different... This will probably be AU... Enjoy! Oh anything in italics in this chapter is a flashback...
Disclaimer: I don't own GG...
Rory has always loved school but today she wasn't loving it. Today was her first day at Chilton without a certain blonde haired boy there to annoy her to death. She still couldn't believe that his parents well mainly his dad had sent him away. She sighed as she got to her locker and opened it up. She didn't understand why she was feeling this way and she wasn't sure she wanted to understand.
After all shouldn't she be happy that he was gone? Shouldn't she be happy that he would no longer be able to torment her? Shouldn't she be happy that he would no longer be around to tempt her? The answer to all those questions was yes she should be but for some reason she wasn't. She felt as if a piece of her was missing.
She made her way to class without even really seeing anything. Her thoughts were all on that certain blonde haired boy and everything that had happened last night. After he told her he was leaving she watched as he walked away with tears in her eyes and running down her face. She didn't even register Dean, her boyfriend coming up to her. She hadn't heard anything that Dean had said to her until he broke up with her.
As she thought about that her mind flashed back to last night.
"Rory you haven't heard a word I've said to you. I can't keep doing this. I think we need to break up." Dean said.
Rory's eyes flew to Dean's in shock and she said "What? No, Dean. Why do you think we need to break up?"
Dean shook his head and sighed. "I don't think we need to break up Rory I know that we do. When I saw you at the practice for Romeo and Juliet with Tristan I tried to ignore what I thought I was seeing but after tonight I can. Rory, you love Tristan even if you don't want to admit it to yourself. I've been trying to talk to you for ten minutes now and you hadn't heard a word I've said. This is the first time you've taken your eyes from where he just disappeared to. I can't keep doing this Rory. It isn't fair to me and it isn't fair to you. I love you Rory but you don't love me like you should. Your heart belongs to another and you need finally admit that to yourself even if you never admit it to him."
Rory's eyes filled with tears as she looked at Dean. As she stood there staring at him she realized that everything he said was the truth. "I'm so sorry Dean. I never meant to hurt your. I never meant to fall in love with Tristan. God I never meant for any of this to happen."
Dean smiled tenderly and pulled Rory in for a hug. "I'll always love you Rory but I think things have been really different since we got back together after our break up. I think you need to try things out with Tristan. I'll always be your friend Rory."
Rory shook her head and gave Dean a sad smile. "Even if I wanted to Dean I couldn't give things with Tristan a try. He's leaving. His Dad is sending him to military school. You know his last words to me were take care of yourself Mary."
Dean held Rory in his arms as he let her cry her eyes out. Just because they were no longer a couple didn't mean that he wouldn't be there for her should she need him and she needed him right now. He may not like Tristan but he wanted Rory happy and he knew that Rory was in love with Tristan. He just wished he would have been the bigger man earlier than this and then maybe just maybe she wouldn't be hurting like she was and maybe just maybe Tristan wouldn't be leaving town.
She cried into his chest until it was time to go up on stage. She laid down and played dead like she was supposed to. The whole time she was lying so still she couldn't help but wonder if maybe part of her was dead now because Tristan was gone.
She came out of her thoughts when the bell rang. She looked around and saw everyone sitting down and she sighed. She looked to her right and saw Paris looking at her in concern and she tried to give her a smile but couldn't. As the teacher started talking she couldn't help but look at the empty seat behind her. Tears filled her eyes as she once again thought about how he wasn't here to annoy her. She couldn't help but think how she would never get the chance to tell him she was sorry for certain things. She couldn't hold the tears in any longer and she did the one thing she's never done. She jumped out of her seat and her books and bag forgotten she rushed out of the classroom ignoring the concerned calls from the teacher and from Paris.
She didn't know where she was going all she knew is that she had to get away. She felt as if she were suffocating and drowning. She ran out the doors and came to a stop in front of the school. She looked over and saw a bench and she walked over and sat down as she finally let the tears fall down her face. She sobbed so hard that her whole body was shaking. She didn't understand why she was feeling all these things and why they chose now. She didn't understand how she could have thought that she didn't like Tristan all this time while she sat there with her heart breaking into a million pieces.
She closed her eyes as a wave of pain hit her so hard that it made her gasp. She couldn't help but think about last night again but this time another memory popped into her head that made her flash back.
As soon as Rory and Dean were done talking and the play was over she ran out of the school and sped towards Tristan's house. She just hoped that she got there before he left. She wanted to kiss him goodbye if that is all she got to do. She couldn't let him leave with him thinking that she was glad that he was going. She couldn't let him leave thinking that she did hate him when it was the exact opposite.
She jumped out of her car and ran to his front door and banged on it until it opened. She recognized Tristan's dad and she could tell that he was shocked that she was there. "I need to see Tristan before he leaves please. I just need 20 minutes."
Tristan's dad looked at her but nodded. "You can have half an hour because I have to go and do something before we leave. He's in his room. You know where it is right?"
Rory nodded and slipped past him and into the house. She ran to the steps and up them and then to his bedroom. Without even knocking she burst into his bedroom. Her mouth dropped open when she saw him in nothing but a towel but she got over the shock and quickly walked over to him and threw her arms around his neck and stood on his tip toes and kissed him with everything that she was feeling but she had to break the kiss a minute later so that they could both breathe and she looked into his shocked eyes. "I couldn't let you leave thinking that I hated you. I couldn't let you leave without the kiss you said you would have given me if Dean hadn't been watching. You know the sad thing Tristan? Dean broke up with me tonight and told me to get with you. The guy who loves me realized something that I didn't even realize."
Tristan stared at Rory dumbfounded. "Mary, what are you doing here?"
Rory let out a little chuckle and said "I had to come and give you a kiss before you left. I had to let you know that I don't hate you and that I'm not happy that you're going away. God Tristan I've just realized I have feelings for you and you're leaving."
She saw Tristan open up his mouth and close it before sighed and pulling her into him. She sighed into his mouth as his lips crashed down onto hers with passion. She couldn't believe that she was kissing him. She couldn't believe how much she loved the fact that she was kissing him. Before she even thought about what she was doing she pressed her body fully into his and moaned in his mouth when she felt how hard he was.
Tristan broke the kiss and put his forehead on Rory's. "We need to stop now because if we don't I'm not going to be able to stop."
Rory shook her head and whispered "I don't want to stop Tristan. I want this one memory of you. Please don't stop."
Tristan shook his head. "Mary I can't. I don't want you to regret your first time."
Rory shook her head and before Tristan could stop her she yanked the towel away from his waist leaving him standing in front of her naked. "Tristan I won't regret my first time. What I will regret is not having this memory of us. Damn it Tristan I fell in love with you and I want you. NOW!"
At her words all the control Tristan had been fighting for slipped away. He hurried undressed Rory and then laid her down on his bed. He came down beside her and kissed her passionately yet tenderly as his hands ran all over her body. After breaking the kiss he kissed down her neck and to her breast all the while his eyes were on her. He felt her shiver and he couldn't stop the smirk from going across his face. As he licked one nipple before pulling it into his mouth his hand traveled down her center and he groaned as he felt her heat and her wetness.
"God Mare you're so wet for me." Tristan groaned out as he let a finger slip into her.
Rory moaned at the feeling of Tristan's finger inside of her and she arched her back. She felt his finger push into her even deeper and she moaned. She loved the feeling of his finger in her. She felt his thumb on her clit and she moaned as he bit down on her nipple which sent her over the edge crying out his name as she came for the very first time in her life.
As she was coming down from her orgasm she saw Tristan looking at her with a question in his eyes and she nodded. Soon she cried out in shock and a little bit of pain as he thrust his hard dick inside of her. She felt him still and she looked up at him with a slight smile. She shifted a little and cried out in pleasure as the shift pulled him deeper into her willing body. Once the pain was gone she looked into his eyes. "I need you Tristan."
She watched him look at her as he pulled out and thrust back into her and she smiled as she heard him groan and say "God Rory you're so fucking tight."
She lifted her hips up off the bed a little and wrapped her legs around him as he pulled out and thrust back into her harder. "God Tristan yes. That feels so good."
She saw the second he lost all restraint because his eyes darkened ever further and he pulled back out of her and slammed into her. He sped up his thrust while his lips found hers and his hand made it's way down her stomach to her center. She cried out as she felt him pinch her clit before rubbing it as he pulled out and slammed back into her repeated. She felt herself climbing and then when he pulled out and slammed back into her as he lifted his mouth from hers and traveled down her neck to her bit her nipple she called out his name as she went over the edge.
She heard Tristan groan and say "Oh God Rory yes baby yes."
She felt him tense and she opened up her eyes to look into his as he pulled out once more and thrust back into her harder than before while shouting her name as he filled her with his hot seed. She was surprised that he didn't pull out when he was done but instead leaned down to kiss her and her heart started beating faster when he said "I love you too Mary and I'll never forget you."
She came out of her thoughts when she felt someone touch her arm. She turned her head and saw Paris sitting down beside her. "Paris what are you doing out here? You should be in class."
Paris smiled and shook her head. "No Rory I'm right where I should be. Plus Mr. Hanson gave me the okay to come and check on you. Are you okay?"
Rory shook her head. "God Paris I'm so stupid."
Paris looked at Rory in surprise. "You're not stupid Rory. You're the next smartest person after me. Why do you think you're stupid?"
Rory chuckled a little. "I didn't realize until it was too late that I was in love with Tristan. God Paris he hasn't even been gone twenty four hours yet and I miss him like crazy."
Paris looked down at the ground and then back at Rory. "You know Rory I always knew that you were in love with him. Just like I always suspected that he was in love with you. I'm sorry that you didn't get the chance to tell him or to see if you guys could make a relationship work. But just know that if you need to talk I'm here. I know I'm not the best friend you could ask for but I'm still your friend even if I act like a bitch sometimes."
Rory nodded and then whispered "I did tell him that I loved him. After I ran out of the play when we were finished I went to his house and saw him before he left."
Paris's mouth dropped open in shock and then she smiled. "Well at least you got to tell him goodbye and tell him how you feel. It'll all be okay Rory. Are you ready to go back inside now?"
Rory wiped the last of the tears off of her face and gave Paris a wobbly smile and stood up. She couldn't help but wish that she had Tristan beside her. She wasn't sure if she would ever feel happy again. As she walked with Paris back to her class her heart broke again as she looked at where his locker was as they past it.