Ok… this is my first Fanfic and I'm so proud of myself. I finally got off my behind and started on a Fanfic… it's not exactly my best work but bear with me….

Oh before I forget…

DISCLAIMER- I own everything in my room except for things I've stolen from my siblings, but I do NOT own Twilight by Stephenie Meyer.

ENJOY!

Confusion

Chapter One- Tears

"Why Edward? Why," I managed to say through my anger.

"Bella, I just want you to lead a normal life," Edward whispered.

I was on the verge of crying, but I would not let Edward see me cry. I finally lifted my head. Edward had repeated that once too much.

We were in one of those fights were I want to get changed but Edward being his stubborn self would not allow it. Although we've had fights like these often I knew this one was going to be a lot more serious than the others.

"Edward," I whispered, " if that's what you want then maybe you should leave."

That was when I couldn't hold my tears in anymore, one single tear trailed down my face. Edward looked at me heartbroken and…lost. I have never seen him like this, it broke my heart to know that I have caused one and only this much pain. He slowly reached out his slender, pale fingers to wipe away my tear but he stopped. His arm dropped back to his side.

I saw one thing that broke my heart further. His mesmerizing, golden eyes were filled with tears, tears that would never fall. We stood in my lounge room with our eyes locked together, his eyes held pain. My eyes held tears, which started to fall freely then it came out furiously as if it is a race.

"You're right," his voice was shaky, "I love you Bella, I really do," with that he ran off without looking back.

I ran to the my front door and yelled, "Edward," then I whispered, " I love you too."

Although it was a whisper I knew that Edward would've heard it.

With tears still rolling down my face, I silently closed the door and slid down the smooth surface until I reached the floor, where I cried my heart out. Maybe I shouldn't have asked him to leave, no but he would have left me anyway so it would've hurt less if I was the one who asked him to leave. Great, now I'm contradicting myself.

Charlie had mentioned in the morning he was coming home late, I'm not sure what late is. I dragged myself up the stairs towards the bathroom.

As I looked into the mirror, I remembered the time when Edward wanted to watch me in my 'Human Minutes.'

FLASHBACK

I woke up with an arm around my waist, an involuntary smile spread itself across my face.

"Morning Bella," My angel said.

"Good Morning," I replied happily.

I tried to get up but with Edward's arm around me, made it impossible.

"Ummm… Edward I need my human minute."

Mmmm…it's a Saturday, it can wait…I'd much rather have you in my arms."

"No, really, Edward I need to get up anyway."

He ignored me.

"Edward," I said in the most threatening voice I could muster up.

"Fine, fine," he replied, "but only if you let me watch."

I turned to face a grin on Edward, I gave him a questioning look, and he simply shrugged.

"I get curious."

"Whatever."

He flashed a crooked smile that I adored in my direction, then picked me up and swung me over his strong shoulders, I screamed mainly out of shock but then I started laughing.

When we reached the bathroom, Edward placed me gently back on my feet and bent over to kiss my nose.

"Now, you may start your human minute," he smiled looking amused at the same time.

I rolled my brown eyes and looked into the mirror and sighed at my pigsty, also known as my hair, I grabbed my brush and started brushing my hair unsuccessfully.

Edward came from behind and wrapped his arms around my waist, he then peered into the mirror.

"Don't worry, you look gorgeous anyway," he said when he looked at our reflection. I couldn't help but blush.

FLASHBACK ENDED

I sighed once more and washed my face.

It had been weeks since I last saw Edward. His whole family left Forks including Edward, I felt guilty I knew how much they loved Forks. According to Alice it was where Edward found happiness, where he found love.

I hung out with Jess, Mike, Angela and co. I acted as though I wasn't heartbroken or sad or lonely, everyone thought I was fine, so did I.

Today I was having an off day. I was feeling down in the dumps. Mike and I are discussing the sudden homework the teachers are piling up, that was until Lauren interrupted.

"Bella, what exactly did happen with you and Edward?" She asked.

Everyone on the table paused to look at me, except Angela who was glaring at Lauren. All these weeks no one ever repeated the Cullens' names, well not to my face.

I sighed deeply, Lauren out of everyone was always the least sympathetic towards me, "nothing Lauren, we just broke apart."

"Sure," she said sarcastically.

"Whatever Lauren." I said as I stood up, attracting attention, grabbing my bag I stormed off, she had NO right to ask me that. She knew perfectly well that it was a touchy subject for me but nooo she asks me anyway in front of everyone.

Tears were falling down my face, I heard Angela call after me but that just made me run to my truck. I jumped in and started the vehicle.

I couldn't see where I was going, everything was a green blur, I just wanted to get away from everything, people, school, Forks…my life.

It got so blurry I couldn't see anything. I heard a loud crash, then voices, smooth, silky voices, then everything went black.

Thanks for reading my first chapter I hope you enjoyed it and REVIEW! I'll get second up soon. I know Bella doesn't sound very sad but I just think Bella shouldn't be like fully depressed if Edward leaves.

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