Buffy,

I wrote this for you. I hope it explains why I did it and what it had to do with you.

I can't help but stare in your blue eyes
With only you in mine

Those beautiful eyes that look past me
And hold another

I lie, and lie, you mean nothing to me
But still lies don't come true
Lies killing me to tell the truth

I've cried so hard wishing you were there
I've cut so deep wishing you could care

Laying in a puddle of my sorrow
The pain, the hallow loneliness never leaves
Staring in the darkness all I see is you
Still even when I'm right beside you
you see through me

I shiver silently
Hoping you'd come and protect me from the cold
Wishing you'd hear my silent pleas
You're only so close but still you push me away

I just can't help but love the way you sleep
You seem so quiet, so fragile
I just can't help but dream of you

Touching your hand
Dreaming it was holding mine
Demanding comfort from the heartless world

And I know I've betrayed you
I know I've lied to you, but I swear it's true
I can love I can care
There are somethings I'd do anything for
But right now I'd do anything for you

I wish I could tell you
I wish I could scream all the things inside me
You won't leave me alone
You can't see I'm suffering

Please just try to look in my eyes
See all truths to me are lies
I want you for once just to believe
I don't want to lie I don't want to deceive

Every night I'm in your arms
Locked in an embrace of love
But I wake
And you're so far away
Someone else lying in your arms

Sorry, B, I know now we just weren't ment to be. And I also realised there isn't really any place for me. So I had to do it.

Love ya,

Faith.

Buffy dropped the letter and sobbed. "I love you, Faith."