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Chapter 1- after the fire

It has been one month, one month since that dreadful night the Winchester children's mother was taken from them in a fire. A ten year old Dean and a six year old Sam sit on the couch in a motel room. Dean has barely said anything the past four weeks and Sam would not stop asking about Mary he knew she was gone he just didn't really understand why she was gone. John left a while ago to go talk to Missouri, whatever that meant. Dean was to out of it to care

Dean turned on the tv while he made mac n cheese to distract Sam for awhile. Holly is sleeping still thankfully, Dean hasn't even touched her let alone hold her since John made him take her out of the house with Sam during the fire,it bought back memories. Its not that Dean hates his baby sister he loves her and Sam more than anything, he would do anything for them, and it was his job to protect them. But it was too much for Dean to deal with when he's been trying so hard to forget.

Normally John was around to deal with the crying and diaper changes, but he said he wouldn't be back until tomorrow so Dean prayed she would just sleep until John got home but if only he could be so lucky. When Holly wasn't asleep all she would do is cry non stop until she exhausted herself back to sleep. No baby should ever cry that much, Its weird even at that age its like she knew someone important in her life was gone.

Dean put the food on the table.

"Sammy dinner" He called putting mac n cheese in a bowl on the table. Sam took his seat. They boys ate in silence until Sam started

"De" Sam said

"What?" He asked

"I miss her" Sam said causing Dean to get teary eyed

"Yeah me too" Dean said swallowing the lump in his throat

"Is that why Daddy's so sad" he asked

"Hurry up and eat so you can take your bath" Dean said giving Sam a look that screamed stop talking about it

After Sam was all cleaned up and put to bed Dean was exhausted as soon as he hit the mattress he heard a noise from the playpen Holly was asleep in

"God please no" Dean pleaded then as if on cue Holly started screaming

"Please stop" Dean pleaded not moving

Holly's cries woke Sam who for a six year old knew how to take care of his baby sister. He used to help Mary with her all of the time. Sam got up and ran to to the fridge his tiny feet padded on the floor. He heated up her bottle and tested it. When it was warm enough he picked her up and fed her and burped her, but she would not stop crying. She didn't need a diaper change and just had her bottle and Sam didn't know what to do, he started panicking about thirty minutes went by

"Make it stop!" Dean said

"De I don't know whats wrong she wont stop!" Sam cried

"De!" Sam yelled. Dean sat up he didn't know what Sam wanted him to do about it.

"She wont stop! You take her!" Sam yelled sounding as frustrated as a six year old could

"Sam I can't" He said

"You can its easy!" Sam yelled over his baby sisters cries "De please!" Sam cried handing Dean the baby. Dean hesitantly took her. As soon as she was in Dean's arms the crying stopped.

Holly looked up at him with her big green eyes which were glossy from tears

"Hey kiddo" Dean cooed with tears forming in his eyes as all of the memories started to flood back

"See, easy" Sam said

Holly grabbed a fistful of Deans shirt with one hand and wrapped her other hand around one of his fingers with a death grip like she was holding on for life. She curled into his chest the constant rising and falling of his breathing seemed to sooth her to sleep. Dean didn't want to let her go he just sat there holding her and looking at her with wonder. Sam had passed out next to Dean a while ago. Dean looked down at his baby sister

"I love you and Sammy, and I promise that nothing is ever gonna happen to you two ever, because i'm you're big brother and I promise you i'll always protect you" he said kissing the top of her head. A small smile spread across her lips in acknowledgement making him chuckle slightly

John Winchester had just learned the truth about everything and was headed back to the motel earlier than expected. He walked in the door to see his oldest son laying on his bed with arm around his younger brother who is curled into his side and his baby sister sleeping soundly and contently on his chest. A small smile spread across John's face and a stray tear fell down his cheek maybe for awhile they would be okay

Thanks for reading, on a quick note I will be working on this as well as the youngest winchester, these are just short stories to fill in the time in between the youngest winchester's chapters, so you the readers don't get bored and know i'm still working on both and didn't fall of the face of the earth :)