Chapter One
"The World is an inferno of darkness and evil and there are two ways to deal with it. The first way is easy and wrong, accept it and become a part of it. The second way is harder and right, you fight it, you recognize those who aren't evil and help them endure." Sir Richard Burton
Odin's POV:
It was all supposed to go so different. I will never know what would have happened if I had told Thor about Loki being under Thanos's control or if I had not been in a meeting with my advisors when they arrived on the Bifrost. It's too late the damage has been done and my family irretrievably destroyed.
Odin had so many regrets. Thor was banished to Midgard with little hope he will ever be worthy of Mjolnir, of Asguard, of his family ever again. Loki is broken both physically and worst of all mentally. He may never be the same. He may never recover. First I broke his heart on the broken bridge. It doesn't matter that I never meant for him to think I rejected him. " No Loki", If I could just have told him that he had nothing to prove, that I loved him, that he was my beloved baby boy.
My sweet Loki, he tried to kill his self because he thought I rejected him and fell into a world of pain and torture. I thought we had vanquished the mad Titan. I thought he would never be able to hurt the Nine Realms again. I was so wrong and Loki paid the price. He fell in the hands of beings who broke his body and mind. When we sent off the Mind Gem, I never thought I would hear of it again. Instead the Mind Gem was used to break my child's mind and make him a marionette of The Other and his Master, Thanos.
My son was made to attack a helpless world and caused so much death and destruction. I have so many regrets regarding to how I raised Loki. I didn't express my love enough. I relied on Frigga to be his emotional support when I should have told him how proud I was of him. He is the greatest sorcerer in the entire nine realms and I never told him how proud I was of the young man he became. I let my Kingdom, his oldest brother and others in my Court disrespect him.
He always had such a calm and composed mask that I thought he wasn't bothered by the rumors, that he didn't need me to speak up. I cannot go back but I will do better with this new chance. I will use this time while he is on Jotunheim to change myself, too change my people for the better. I will make sure that when he recovers, when he returns and next steps in Asguard that he will be celebrated for the wonderful being he is. We will throw feasts when he masters a new magical discipline. I will make my citizens see that brains are just as valuable as brawn.
I cannot change that Thor raped Loki. I cannot change that Loki is catatonic. I cannot change that he has a better chance to recover on Jotunheim than on Asguard, that Asguard hold so many bad memories, reminds him so much of Thor. I have to trust that Farbauti and Loki's biological brothers can bring him out of his mind. I have to trust that Lady Winter and his birth realm can rebuild his body and mind. I have to hope he will give me another chance once he gets better, that he will get better.
Next chapter: Flashback to what was happening in Asguard and Jotunheim during the Avengers. Jotunheim hears that the lost prince lives and permanent peace with Asguard is brokered. Farbauti and Bylestir come to Asguard and Odin and Frigga agree to share Loki with his birth family and realm.