Distorted Diving

Warnings: Spoilers for New Moon, Edward x Bella, Jacob x Bella, implied sex

I watch her, watch them, looking through a window at their perfect human relationship (the wolf-boy never had to constantly worry about hurting her, about doing something that might give away what he was. and even if he did, Charlie probably wouldn't care, just because of Bella). I watch as the wolf-boy leans in for a kiss, as Bella playfully smiles and pushes him away, as Charlie and Billy Black smile knowingly at each other in the back round.

A while later, the gathering breaks up, and Charlie offers something to the wolf that he never would have to me: the opportunity to stay the night. It's obvious (I don't even need to listen to his thoughts to know) that he wants the wolf and Bella together, especially since everyone (including me) knows how she gets when they're apart. It's on those nights that the screams echo with more horror than they usually do.

Bella blushes painfully (the crimson looks so beautiful against her pale skin, I think, and know the wolf thinks it too) and splutters meaninglessly in embarrassment (how many times had I done the same?). The wolf-boy grins, his answer apparent, and Billy makes a wry comment about "playing it safe". The men's laughter fills the room, and Bella gapes wordlessly, though, in the end, she doesn't fight him as he climbs the stairs behind her. He's heading to her bedroom I'm sure, along with something (I can probably guess what) that Charlie had discreetly handed him with a whisper of "Just in case".

Clenching my fists, it takes much more willpower than it should have not to move to her bedroom window (have I become masochistic lately?). My rational mind screams that the wolf-boy would pick up my scent (it was a wonder that he hadn't already, though I could understand how one could lose themselves in Bella's luscious scent) and I would be caught. And that couldn't happen, I told myself. Not now that she has finally healed enough to love another.

With one last, pained glance at Charlie setting up a bed on the couch (he wouldn't be sleeping upstairs tonight) and Billy preparing to leave for the night, I disappear into the surrounding forest. Even if I can't disappear from her life completely (because I would always need to be near her, and the memories would always haunt her with the dreaded nightmares) I could allow them privacy for this deed, much as it made my heart ache to think of her with anyone but me.

I had written this as a "What if?" from the end of New Moon (when Jacob says that if Bella hadn't jumped off the cliff that day, then the events that brought the vampires wouldn't have been set in motion, and they could have still been together). It's (vaguely) set a few years after the beginning of New Moon, in a world where Bella hadn't jumped that day. In a world where Jacob got his chance to win Bella's heart, and, to some extent, did. It's set from Edward's point of view, where he's an outsider looking in on how life has moved on in his absence, and, in this world, he discovers that maybe moving on wasn't such a good idea.

But since it is my first time writng Twlight fanfiction (and writing from Edward's point of view) I would like to know how it turned out. And if came out well, I have more drabbles from the LJ 30_dreams theme set that I have to post, if anyone's interested.

EDIT: I did write a second part to this (because there was a person that mentioned that they would like for it to be a multi-chaptered fic), but I took after a few months with no feedback because I assumed that it was a failure. :(