Just a little oneshot I had rolling around in my head xD Er...every idea I have about a Jasper/Bella One shot will be in this story thing... K?
Listen to the song by Rihanna...
Unfaithful.
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
I didn't want to do this to him, but it's not like I can stop feeling what I have for Jasper and what he feels for me is nothing.
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
I frown unable to not think of that blonde. I smile as I picture him, bringing my lips to his. I realize Edward came in threw my window and I stop. "Bella? What is wrong? You seem...nervous?" Edward asks me. I smile like its nothing. "Im fine, thanks for asking though." I kiss his cheek unable to stop the guilt from rising.
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
"Okay. Alice is having a party and see wants you to come." I nod "I'll go." Internally I sigh, Edward didn't deserve me. Buts it's not like he doesn't see whats happening. He knows, and its killing him.
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't picture ever leaving Edward, but if I keep this up I'll have to and he knows it. But I can't stop. I love him...I love Jasper. Edward smiles and picks me up. I squeeze my eyes shut and we take off to his house.
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
We get to his house and I skip down the steps. "Bella!" A pixi like voice shouts. "You made it! Yay! Its going to be perfect!" I smile sadly at my future seeing best friend. "I bet that it will be." A deep voice says. I turn around and my smile widens. "Hello Jasper." He smiles "Hello Bella." We keep it formal, like nothing happened.
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
Alice grabs my arm. "You look horrible! Lets go get you dressed!" She pulls me up the stairs to her room. As I leave I catch a glimsp of Edwards face. Its heart breakingly sad. I never asked for it...it just...happened. A calm feeling washes over me then im dragged into hell.
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
Its torture. Being in the same room as my best friend while im cheating with her husband. I feel terrible.
I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
The next day after the party Jasper texted me asking to meet up. I of course said yes. I curled my hair and applied some makeup. Grabbing my purse I sense that someones watching me. I peck out my window and sure enough, Edwards there.
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
I open the window and he comes in. "Where are you going?" He askes, curiousity filling his voice. "Just out with some friends." I lie. He catches it but says nothing. "Okay..." Edward kisses my cheek and looks at me.
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
His face looks like hell. Like someone died. Oh wait...he did die inside...and its my fault. I take a breath "I wont be gone long. Promise." I say and walk outside to my turck getting in and pulling out the driveway.
Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
I look back but drive away anyways. Its better...Im happy. Edwards to protective.
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
Im lifted out of my car as soon as I park. "Hello Bella..." My blonde haired lover says. He buries his face in my hair and I sigh happily. "Hello Jasper!" I say hugging him.
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
My mind keeps replaying what Edwards face looked like as I drove away. I sigh and sit on the back end of the truck. "Edward knows somethings up..." I say quietly. "I know." Jasper makes it sound so simple. Like nothing we are doing is wrong.
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
"Do you love him?" I shake my head. "No Jasper. I only love you."
Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
We love eachother. Jasper healed me, I owe him. He patched up my heart...its his. Edward...I never did love. He broke me. Left me to die then came back saying it was a mistake. I can never forgive him.
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)
"I love you Bella...Please know that." I smile "Always Jasper. Always." I kiss the corner of his mouth as he holds me. I love him. He bends down and I meet him, our lips touch. Passionte, love and bliss fill the kiss.
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
A heartbreaking gasp pulls us apart. Edwards on his knees in front of us dry sobbing.
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
"E-Edward!" I freeze terrified. "YOU!" Edward growls out, his eyes pitch black. "No more! Bellas mine!" I get mad. "No Edward. Im not YOURS! You treat me like a toy. Like a possision! Not like a person. I dont know how they did it back then but in the 20th centary women are people!" What I just said breaks him even more.
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)
He gets up and runs. Jasper looks at me. "Im yours. And only yours."
No no no no
He smiles and kisses me. "And im yours Bella."
Yeah yeah yeah
Finally.