Hold On
Author's Note: Just something I thought about at 7AM. I don't own Animorphs, as much as I wish I did. Please review to let me know what you think. Thanks!
I should have expected that one of us would die. I mean, I did expect it. Marco always said that one of us would get killed. I just never thought that it would be her.
I loved her. I still love her.
Rachel...
She was my everything. My life, my world. I would give up everything I had for her. To see her smile, her eyes, her hair... Anything.
But no matter how much I wish it wasn't true... she's dead. She's never coming back.
I didn't want to deal with the thought of living without her, so I didn't. Not as myself, anyway. I was a hawk. For a while. But nothing lasts forever, so soon I had to deal with her death.
I tried... I tried to kill myself. I just couldn't deal with this pain. I didn't... I couldn't live without Rachel.
It's Jake's fault she's dead. He could have sent anyone else. Marco, Cassie, Ax, me, anyone. But he sent her. And she went. She left me. Alone.
I suppose... I didn't die because deep down I knew that if I died that I would be leaving my friends alone. If I was ever needed I would be there to help them. And I wanted to be there. Like Rachel was there.
So now, light years away from home, we're alone. Jake, Marco, two of Jake's students... and me. Far away from Earth and we're probably never going to see our homes again. Jake and Marco would never see their parents again. They wouldn't have families. Everything they haven't lived long enough for is gone to them.
None of us would be able to see Cassie again. We were leaving her. But...
But we had no choice. Ax needed us.
I'm moving forward for him, you know? He's my best friend. He's my family. I have to be there. Like Rachel was.
If I save him, I save him. If I don't, I can finally see Rachel again. Either way...
But for now, I'll hold on. For my friends.
For my family...
I'll hold on.
~Aislyn Marie
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