Ser Cullen,
I've thought and argued with myself over sending you any kind of message. I can only imagine the rumors and stories flying back and forth through the tower about why I was forced to leave.
We've been friends, atleast I hope that's what we've been, for nearly as long as you've been at the Tower. I feel that I owe atleast you... No, especially you an explanation.
You must have heard about Jowan by now, and know that I had a hand in his escape. I will not deny it. I discovered that Jowan was meant to be made Tranquil, not by his own hand but by order of Knight-Commander Gregoir. You must understand, Jowan is, no, was the closest thing to a brother that I knew. The thought of him, like that... I could not bear it. It would have been different had he asked for it, but to have the decision stripped from his hands?
I did not know Jowan was a Blood Mage, you must believe me. But I will not lie to you either and say I regret my actions.
I had wanted to tell you this, in person. I had wanted to say good bye, as I don't think we're ever bound to see one another again. Would you even want to see me again...?
Can you forgive me, Cullen? I suppose that was the purpose of this letter. Even if you can't, know you will always have a friend in me.
Fiona Amell