Hi everyone… I'm not that hyper today… I was crying a while ago, from a story… broken heartened I believe is the name… so here you go a one-shot and somehow a songfic…. Even thought I don't like them very much…. Just read!
"" talk, '' thoughts, italics the song.
Oh, I suggest you hear the songs, they are just for this fic and they describe how Ryoma feels; the first one is Bleeding Heart of Angra, and the second is Forever of Stratovarius, enjoy!
One Dark Raining Night
Ryoma sat on one of the bar's many tables. It was raining outside, he could hear the rain. He was in one dark corner, soaked. He had been running under the rain. He remembered what made him run here… but it was too painful…
He took other sip of his drink. He had been living in paradise some hours ago for the past 4 years, he was now 19. His other lovers where… 'It doesn't matter anymore… they did it themselves… thought I would wish to know why…' he sipped again his drink.
Suddenly the door burst open, and four men entered the place, looking for their fifth. When they spotted him… who by the way, was trying to hide… they took him by the arms, and went outside. They entered a limousine. Ryoma never tried to fight them back, he knew it was hopeless, but he didn't look at them either. When they arrived to Atobe's mansion, they carried him again, not wanting him to escape.
"We need to talk" said Syu, just as they arrived to their bedroom.
"There's nothing we have to talk about, you made it clear…" Ryoma said, not looking at them.
"We didn't want you to--" started Tezuka.
"You didn't want me to find out? Or you didn't want me to stay?" his piercing golden eyes froze them. He continued, "Because it was pretty clear that you were CHEATING on me" he said, his voice didn't broke, he was too angry, he didn't want to see them. "And I actually think it was both of the options, now if you would--"
"We are not letting you go until you hear us all!" said a very angry Gen.
"Fine. Talk." Ryoma went to the farthest corner he could find. They all took a deep breath before start talking.
"We certainly cheated on you…" at this Ryoma flinched, none the less Tezuka continued, "but we were stressed… because we needed to tell you something very important" he paused.
"…" Ryoma just looked out the window… 'This hurts too much…'
"The thing is that…" Gen continued.
"The thing is that I was leaving," said Keigo, "I have a duty, to have a wife and a heir…" he stopped, Ryoma was staring past them through the window, his eyes were blank, "And you can't give me that… and" he stopped, he couldn't continue, he knew they were hurting him, and that was hurting him.
"And we three have to leave too…" Gen continued, "Syu is a famous photographer, he can't risk his career, I'm a principle, I have to be an example, and…" he stopped to, Ryoma's eyes were still blank, they were lifeless…
"And Kuni is a lawyer; he can't risk his career either…" Syu continued, "The thing that is the most troublesome is the media…" at this, Ryoma snapped out of his trance, he looked angry, his eyes flashed with various feelings; anger, sadness, hurt, sorrow, a lost love and battle, the two last ones, were hidden, if they had saw them, they wouldn't be doing this.
"Are you saying that" Ryoma's voice was neutral, as if talking to a wall, "what you are doing… is because of the media?" he asked, the anger was overpowering him.
"Yes" came the answer from all.
"…" Ryoma stared at them, "you know I'm a freaking pro, the media is over me all the time… but just because of that…" he stopped, he looked at each one in that eye, "I'M NOT LEAVING YOU!!" he shouted, they all flinched.
"But we have to…" said Syu. A song in the distance started playing…
Now I know that the end comes
You knew since the beginning
Didn't want to believe it's true
You are alone again
My soul will be with you
"…" Ryoma stared at them for a while, he heard the song and smiled, a freaking smile… a bitter smile, 'I was hearing that… how good for the occasion' ironically, the other four boys didn't hear it… "And why was the cheating?" he asked, in a sweet voice, the others, stared at him, sad… 'We did this to you…' they'll thought simultaneously…
Why's the clock even running
If my world isn't turning
Hear your voice in the doorway wind
You are alone again
I'm only waiting
"We were stressed…"
"We wanted to relieve ourselves…"
"We wanted some escape…"
"We… we wanted… some time without you…"
You tear into pieces my heart
Before you leave with no repentance
I cried to you, my tears turn into blood
I'm ready to surrender
You say that I take it too hard
And all I ask is comprehension
Bring back to you a piece of my broken heart
I'm ready to surrender
The last answer did hurt him deeply… if they didn't want him, just tell… don't hurt… he didn't voice it… they wouldn't understand…
"I'm leaving then," he said… his eyes… the eyes that once were the window of his soul, a joyful soul… were in shadows… almost dead… "I'm leaving right now" he said, the boys stood rooted to the floor, and couldn't move until it was too late, a car engine was heard in all the mansion, the sound made them come back to Earth.
I remember the moments
Life was short for the romance
Like a rose it will fade away
I'm leaving everything
"Did we just said that to him?" said Syu.
"We did…" said Gen…
"…" Tezuka couldn't say something he saw the hurt…
"I can't believe us…" said Atobe; they just were hurting him and themselves…
No regrets, war is over
The return of a soldier
Put my hands on my bleeding heart
I'm leaving all behind
No longer waiting
"NO!" Syu shouted, and rushed to his younger lover's room. There was nothing… no Karupin… 'He isn't coming back… is he?' he found a lost Ipod, an Ipod that Ryoma trying to find in the morning… 'At least I have this…' he played the song… 'Only one song…? That is weird…' he didn't tried to go after his kitten… until he heard the song… (Is the same that Ryoma was hearing…) 'No…' at that moment his other lovers were at the door, he ran past them, with the music hunting him, and his lovers in tow, he snapped the door open, Ryoma… everything of him was gone… 'And isn't coming back…'
You tear into pieces my heart
Before you leave with no repentance
I cried to you, my tears turn into blood
I'm ready to surrender
You say that I take it too hard
And all I ask is comprehension
Bring back to you a piece of my broken heart
I'm ready to surrender
I've waited for so long!
"What is it?!" came the hoarse voice of Tezuka and Atobe, Syu just gave them the Ipod, they heard the last piece…
You tear into pieces my heart
Before you leave with no repentance
I cried to you, my tears turn into blood
I'm ready to surrender
You say that I take it too hard
And all I ask is comprehension
Bring back to you a piece of my broken heart
I'm ready to surrender
I've waited for so long!
"We did just this… to him…" Said Gen…
"We did leave him… hurt… sadness… sorrow… anger…"
"That was written in his eyes… and two other things… I couldn't decipher…"
"I couldn't either…"
"It was…" started Syu…
"What?" asked the others.
"A lost battle and love…"
"…" they stood there…soaked, it was still raining.
In the highway…
Ryoma was driving to the airport, he wanted to leave, leave and never comeback. He turned on the radio. And a song was starting to play.
I stand alone in the darkness
The winter of my life came so fast
Memories go back to my childhood
To days I still recall
'Great! This is just how I feel… and the raining is just making it better…' all this while he hadn't cried, and he wasn't planning in doing it anytime soon, not until he was out of this damn country…
Oh how happy I was then
There was no sorrow there was no pain
Walking through the green fields
Sunshine in my eyes
He was already in the airplane; it was leaving for the U.S. 'I'm not coming back…' just as the airplane started moving, he started crying, he really wasn't coming back…
I'm still there everywhere
I'm the dust in the wind
I'm the star in the northern sky
I never stayed anywhere
I'm the wind in the trees
Would you wait for me forever?
Somewhere else, four boys were standing under the rain, crying.
"Ryoma…"
"We are sorry…"
"Come back…"
"Please…"
But what is done, is done… the hurt in does golden eyes would be hunting them for many months… until they could be with him again… unless they couldn't… a broken heart… is so hard to repair…
"We will be loving you…"
"Forever…"
"We are going to get you"
"Until that day… wait for us…"
I'm still there everywhere
I'm the dust in the wind
I'm the star in the northern sky
I never stayed anywhere
I'm the wind in the trees
Would you wait for me forever?
I think I'm crying… review please… no flames, I hate them, tell me if you want a sequel… okay? ok, I'm going to be crying somewhere… bye!
Oh by the way, I don't know if they were kind occ… but if they were, it was for the sake of this story, so be nice!