Summary: AU: Start off in the past. Lucas and Haley grew up childhood friends and later more in another town besides Tree Hill. Lucas never met Nathan or Dan. Starts off in the past with Lucas and Haley a little bit, then goes to after college, and is eventually everyone living in California. Will end up being Haley/Nathan, there will be both Lucas/Brooke and Lucas/Peyton at different times.

November 1st-

I haven't kept a diary in a long time, maybe ever. I wasn't very girly in high school, and I am still not. I just lost my boyfriend and my best friend. My boyfriend Lucas Scott was both to me. Ever since we were nine years old, it was us against the world. I never really had many friends, and no friends that were girls, I just have no one to talk to right now. I remember when Lucas and I first got together. It was junior year of high school on Halloween. We went Trick or Treating even though we were way to old for it, it was a lot of fun. We went back to his house after, where his mother actually let me sleep over. After all until that night we were just like brother and sister. Then that night, here we were eating candy and watching a scary movie. Then all of a sudden, I was shoving candy in his mouth, smarties. He hated them, so I was doing it to pester him. Then all of a sudden, he grabbed me and pretended to choke me, and then he was there on top of me, and for the first time I noticed how good looking he was. I saw his dirty blonde hair, and deep blue eyes. I guess for some reason he saw me in the same way, because we started kissing. Lucas had dated a few other girls, but this was my first kiss. It was everything I hoped it would be. He waited a while to ask me out after. We both played it cool, and tried to act like we were just friends. I told him I didn't want to ruin a good thing. A few days before thanksgiving, he asked me out and we started dating. We would have been dating three years this month, but as of twenty minutes ago we are broken up. Lucas Scott is no longer my boyfriend or my friend. He is a cheating liar. I thought I could trust him. I always admired him. I told him early on into our relationship that I didn't want to have sex until I was married. I know- NO ONE does that anymore. It is just what I wanted. He told me he understood, and he never brought it up again. We did everything else, and I figured that was enough for him. We went to different schools, only an hour apart. I saw him two times a week, once during the week and once a weekday. I trusted him, and he trusted me, the first year went really well. This year, there was an opening on the basketball team, and I urged him to try out. He did, and just as I had thought he got on. I started getting a little bit jealous at this time, though I was mostly happy for him. He had a lot more friends now, and of course, the girls. All the cheerleaders were crazy about him. I wasn't going to be able to see him this weekend, but I ended up going there early today to surprise him before going to visit my sister for the weekend. I knocked, and he hadn't been expecting me, so he opened the door. He was wearing just boxers, and there was a naked girl in his bed. He tried to explain but I ran out. I could not and would not hear it. I really have no one to talk to about this. I miss him, but how can I forgive him for this???

-Haley

"HALEY! Please open the door" Lucas had been out there for half an hour all ready. The day Haley had caught him, he tried calling her all day and of course no answer. He was desperate to talk with her now, he wouldn't leave until he could see her.

Haley was getting annoyed at this point, and gave in and opened the door.

"Haley, I am so sorry. I know how horrible that must have looked to you,"

"What it looked like Lucas? It looked like you were having sex with another girl,"

"I am an awful person Haley. I just want you to know I had a lot to drink last night, I wasn't thinking right. My heart wasn't there. I love you Haley, and I would never pressure you into having sex. I just, I am almost 20 years old, and a virgin, and I guess I just wanted to know what it was like,"

"Get out of here,"

"Haley, I love you. I made a mistake. How can I fix this?"

"Lucas, you cannot fix this. I trusted you, I've always trusted you. You have lost that now. There is nothing you can do to get that back. I cannot stand to look at you,"

"I will fix this Haley,"

Haley walked to the bathroom, and shut herself in there, hoping that Lucas would leave her alone. Turning the water in and undressing she sat down and cried. She wanted so bad to just go over to Lucas and cry her heart out, but he was the one who had caused her the pain.

What I did was wrong. I made a mistake. She means nothing to me, and you mean everything to me. I will hate myself for giving into nothing, and losing everything. Please forgive me. I love you.

-Lucas

Haley found the note after getting out of the shower and threw it out.

Lucas got back to his dorm and found the girl from the night before waiting outside of it.

"I was hoping you would be back soon. I left my ipod on your room yesterday, and I sort of need it,"

"Alright, I'll let you in and you can get it," Lucas said, he just wanted her to leave.

Brooke got in and laid down on his bed and took her shirt off. "Mind of I stay for a bit?" She smiled.

Lucas shook his head, "I am sorry about last night. The party was fun, and everything but I just, I have this girlfriend. I know you had no idea, it was really wrong of me,"

"Oh, the girl from this morning. I am sorry but you can do so much better then her,"

"Brooke, DO NOT say that about Haley, okay?"

"Fine. I'll just be leaving now."

"Please. I just need to be alone,"

Brooke smiled as she walked out, she loved the challenge. Guys were always throwing themselves at her, and she finally had something to work for.

A/N: Kind of different, but I'll update soon : )