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Ja ne Kat

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Growing Pains

"Gimmie that back you perverted Kappa!" Goku yelled for the umpteenth time that day.

"Make me, dumb ass Monkey!" Goyjo yelled back

"Would if I could."

"Both of you shut up before I clean up a few more pieces of Garbage!" Sanzo yelled. The two in the back shut up instantly. Hakkai smiled.

"Too bad." Hakkai said softly.

"Nani ou?" Goku asked, popping his head into the front of the jeep.

"We ran out of food at lunch. You and Goyjo just lost the last piece when Sanzo yelled at you."

"NANI!?!?! Sanzo we have to find something to eat before I die!"

Sanzo turned and pointed his gun at the boy with a satisfying CLICK.

"You just finished eating! Your not going to die! So, shut up and act like a person, before I'm forced to have the pleasure of killing you." Sanzo said into the dead silence. Goku looked up and saw real anger and impatience in the priest that was his keeper. Sanzo nodded, happy that the boy was finally quiet. The rest of the ride was continued in that same silence. Goku didn't even ask for a drink of water.

There were only two rooms to rent at the Inn that night. Hakkai said that he'd share a room with Goku, much to the dismay of Gojyo. Sanzo didn't care as long as Gojyo didn't bring in any bed partners, female or otherwise. All this said he dismissed them for the night. Gojyo pulled Hakkai aside.

"Hey! What's the matter? Did I do something to make you mad? You don't normally mind me picking on the ape." Gojyo pouted. Hakkai leaned forward till he just barely brushed his lips across the other man's, then he pulled back, much to Gojyo's disappointment.

"Of course you haven't done anything wrong, Anata. Goku just looked really down in the jeep today and I want to make sure he's alright. Maybe I can help him cheer up." Hakkai said

"Oh Great!" Huffed Gojyo. "I get SACRIFICED to the crazy Priest just because the monkey looked a little down! If he shoots me, I'm so coming back to haunt you."

Hakkai broke out of his masked smile into a rarely seen real one.

"Promise?" He inquired of the redhead.

"Oh, I promise." Gojyo said with a pout. Hakkai hauled the taller man to him.

"Goddamned need to breathe." Gojyo breathed a few minutes later.

"I'll make it up to you later." Hakkai said just as breathlessly.

"Promise?" Gojyo question came out almost like a plea.

"Oh, I promise." Hakkai said mimicking the word's Gojyo had uttered a few minutes before. With that he pulled away and slipped silently up the stairs.

"Dumb Monkey."

Hakkai slid into the room without a sound. Goku had claimed the bed that was pushed under the window and sat upon the sill looking out into the night. Hakkai looked closer and saw the tears trailing down the young boys face.

"Thank you . . . Hakkai." Goku said softly. Surprise chased across Hakkai's features before his face slid back into his blank smile.

"For what, Goku-kun?" He inquired.

"For worrying about me, but Gojyo's going to be unbearably grumpy tomorrow." He said with his own little smile playing across his features. This time the surprise stayed on Hakkai's face.

"When did . . .? How did . . . ? Who did . . . ? " He trailed off unsure what he wanted to know at that moment.

"Not even I'm that clueless. Even I can see that Gojyo is plain gone on you." Goku finally turned away from the window with his rarely seen serious face looking right at Hakkai. It was the face of a person who'd been punished with 500 years of thought and loneliness. It was one of those rare times that Hakkai was sharply remind that Goku was older then all of them in both age and experience. He was also the most emotionally fucked up person Hakkai had ever met. Himself included.

"Thank you Goku-san." Hakkai said to the man on the bed, unsure how else to address him. He was no longer speaking to the child that was his friend, but to the man that Goku would grow up to be someday . . . or maybe had already been. The man nodded to him.

"You're welcome and very lucky." As Hakkai watched the child swam up to the surface pushing the older self away like it never existed. "I wish I had someone who'd care about me that much. I don't remember anyone whoever gave a damn about wether I lived or died." More tears trailed down the boys cheeks. He looked up at Hakkai and smiled while tears fell down his cheeks. "Do you think that the baths would still be open?"

Hakkai nodded dumbly and watched as the boy walked out of the room. He remained standing in the doorway, remembering silver tears and tortured gold eyes.

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"Why are you so mean to him?" Gojyo demanded of the leather clad Priest.

"I'm not. Why are you so perverted?"

"I like it."

"Whatever." Sanzo said before turning his back on the hanyou.

"You can't really enjoy being that mean to him?" Sanzo gave him no answer.

With a sigh Gojyo left the silent monk with the intention of getting something to drink before he went back into that ice cold room. "Baka!" He muttered to himself as he headed down the hall. "He has a devoted person right there in front of him who cares . . . "

"Loves." Came a soft voice. Gojyo turned to the right. There in the doorway, with his back turned to him, stood Hakkai.

"Nani?!?!?" Gojyo asked his lover. Hakkai shrugged and turned around without fixing on his smile in place, without it Hakkai's face was a sad, melancholy one.

"Goku loves Sanzo. You can't have that much pain and sorrow without love." Hakkai gave him a humorless smile. "Trust me. I would know."

Gojyo seemed to take this in for a second. "So . . . are we going to help him?"

"No, were not."

"Nani? Doushda?" Gojyo was shocked that Hakkai was going to be so unfeeling to the poor monkey's feelings. Hakkai was always the first one to jump in and help the boy.

"Because Sanzo doesn't tell us how he feels. If he only feels a responsibility toward Goku because he let him free, we'd be dooming Goku to a relationship where he'd be used. No one wants that. I'm sure even Goku would rather be alone then be used. The best thing that we can do for him is to keep him happy."

Gojyo moved forward and kissed his green-eyed partner, hoping to take some of the worry out of his face. He smiled down a t Hakkai. "That's what I love about you."

"Nani?" Hakkai asked confused. Gojyo shook his head, liking the fact that even Hakkai could be confused.

"You're so cute when you're lost." Gojyo said to annoy him. With that he went back to his bed where he promptly fell asleep.

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K! There you go. It has two invented charaters in some of the later chapters, because I had to invent some of Goku's past. So I added a Girl and a Guy. But you'll have to wait to meet them.

It's a secret.

Ja ne

Kat

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