It's Cool, We Can Still Be Friends...
Chpt. 1
Authors Note: Yea I totally got this idea from this song from Bright Eyes hence the name of the story. This has been floating in my head around for a long time so im finally writing it. Enjoy.
"You hurt me." She said in a voice like a prayer. Yea I lost my cool and said a few things that were said to hurt her, but I didn't mean it, and she knew that, didn't she? I looked down at my shoe, her stare was too depressing to look at especially with tears downing out her eyes. 'Yea I hurt her, but lets contrast and compare, lift up your shirt, the wound isn't their'. I thought to myself. "I know. but-but what do you expect me to say when my girlfriend is cheating on me... with a GIRL?" I said wanting to scream. How embarrassing, what was wrong with me that she had to turn to another person, a girl for that fact and cheat on me. "Im sorry..." I said with a sigh. I heard her inhale rapidly as her body shook, it was cold out here, But I didn't feel it my heart was much to cold to acknowledge the weather. She grasped her hands around her arms and ran her hands up and down her arms trying to keep warm. I looked at her with her tears finally losing their grip over her.
I couldn't help it my anger left me body as soon as it arrived and I wrapped her im my arms. Trying to get her warm. We were in her back yard by the pool where I had caught her making out with an other girl in the Jacuzzi... the girl left in a hurry, I wonder why. She must of been freezing since she just got out. I felt her damp towel getting my clothes wet, but at the same time I felt the warmth of her arms around me just like before and for a second nothing changed. "Im so sorry" She said in a voice that started to crack. I couldn't stand to hear her cry. "No...no please Ashley don't cry, im sorry for what I said I didn't mean it, I-I was just surprised I didn't know how to act." I trailed off hoping it would make her stop crying. But she didn't, I felt each tear and it ripped me apart like a bullet. Some thing was defiantly wrong.
I picked her up and she just held me tighter. I carried her up to her room and each time she whispered "sorry" through her tears made me even more scared about what was going to happen next. I sat her down at the foot of her bed. And those 4 dreaded words that everyone hates hearing, and no matter how cliche' they are your never prepared enough to face them. "We need to talk." She said in a small voice. I knew what she was going to say. I looked at her and sat next to her. She grabbed my hand he touch was so soft and I had to hold back tears because I knew that was the last time she would touch my hand as my "girlfriend". I just stared at her hand that wrapped around my own hand, the same hand that caressed my face as we lied next to each other, the same hand that she ran through my hair every time we kissed. I sighed and looked at her distraught face. Two years and it all crashes down to this.
"Aiden, I don't know what happened, I just , started to get these feelings towards other people, girls, I don't know why but ever since we lost the baby, I just haven't felt the same. Its like a part of me died, and the part that was deeply in love with you died with it..." She took a long pause and examined my face. I had to blink away the tears and nod, even though I wasn't sure what I was nodding to. I closed me eyes to try and block this out of my mind. I loved her so much, I couldn't comprehend that it was over. "I still love you..." She continued. I could only guess what she was going to say next.
"But only as a friend, I still want you as a friend, I really care for you... can, we still be friends?" She said the last part in a whisper. I was still staring at our hands. " So this is it?" I said knowing it was but just wanting to hear it out loud. "Yea" She replied as she put her head on my shoulder and gave me a kiss on my cheek. I let go of her a hand, her touch was beginning to grow cold. I put my head in my hands and just closed my eyes. "So can we still be friends?" She asked again putting her hand on my back. I looked up. " Yea its cool we can still be friends." I replied its as though those words came from someone else. I left her with a stiff hug and with one last "sorry" and I walked out to my car, pulled out of her drive way and let out those tears that were threatening the life out of me.