His head was caught in a desperate struggle. How could he choose? How? He loved both so much. The one he had always longed for, his unrequiented love, staring at him, bewildered.
"How could you choose him over me?" Remus whispered painfully. "Don't you love me?"
Sirius cringed, "Of course I love you, I just…"
James smashed his fist against the wall, eyes on fire as he glared fiercely at Remus. "You didn't want him. You turned him down for years. He's mine now." James growled out.
Sirius dropped his head into his hands. He can't choose. He would never be able to choose. The love he had always dreamed of, or the love that was truly there for him. Both were his friends. Both loved him. He loved both.
And now they wanted him to choose.
He couldn't…he can't…
Sirius looked up, eyes searching their faces. Love and pain reflected on both, eyes shining and lips trembling. He clenched his eyes closed in frustration. He needed to choose, before this killed all of them. He shook his head and tried to think logically. Remus didn't want him before…what's to say he wouldn't leave him once they were together? And James. Could he really have a relationship with James? Could they make this work?
"I'm sorry," he muttered, turning to the man on his left, "I'll always love you, but you can't be him."
A sob breaks free of his throat, and the heartbroken wizard runs out of the room. Leaving only the two.
It takes Sirius a moment to realize what he's done. He feels his heart tear apart in his chest as he realizes the terrible mistake he's just made.
James' arms wrap around him as his mouth drops and tears spring to his eyes. "What did I just do?" Sirius whispers.