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Chapter ONE: Shuichi
Always, since the beginning of the time I've spent with Yuki, I've always done what he said. No...I didn't just do what he spoke, for me to obey him completely, there had to have been an inner meaning. A sense of real want, and when I felt that want and command in him at the same time, I dropped everything on the ground, abandoned those who needed me and obeyed him. If Yuki told me to 'Shut it.' I would if his voice meant it. If he told me bury myself, I would and have. If he told me to jump off a cliff, kill myself or die...I did just that.
Since the time I've spent with him, I was given a gift. The gift to be able to tell apart from his words what the lies were, and the truths. That ability allowed me to give him in complete confidence everything I had, my undying love, my body, my soul and mind.
Most of the time, when Yuki said something negative...those words, I knew, they weren't entirely meant to hurt me-they were more like cooes of love that's encased within those harsh words, left for me to find the more cryptic meaning.
Can a bird understand a dog?
And when I've found the significance in each cruel tones, my heart would bursts into joy knowing he loved me. Or so I would come to believe. However, if I am mistaken, that those daily words were said for pain, would I be able to take it? Would I be able to stand on my feet once more knowing I was just there to be hurt? And what he says...does he mean them?
Can a snake love a rat?
Does Eiri love me? Does he feel that I belong only to him not just in body, but the rest of me?
From the moment I laid eyes on him, in that dark and confusingly bliss moment, I was ready to give him all I had till the last strand of time passed, so long as he would come to love me, and did I achieve just that by following his every wish?
Can a heart beat without sound?
Yuki...if you love me, then why have you commanded almost all the terrible commands that exist in the world? Why have you told me everything except for the one thing I really want to hear from you? Why have you not said 'Don't Leave me'
Why have you not uttered the words 'I love you' to me?
My heart aches to acknowledge the fact that it's home is not assured where it should be, right next to your heart. It hurts to know that the ground right beside you is not guaranteed to be forever 'Shuichi Shindo's place. Oh I would make the bird understand the dog, I would make the snake love the rat-I would hearken my heart to beat without sound and all the more just so I could hear your words of love.
I'll do just that and more because I'm terribly lost inside, I am incapable of handling the knowledge that one day, you'll awaken from the hold of whatever gravity bonds you and I together, afraid that any minute of the day that I am with you, you would be able to mumble those dreaded words to me...that anytime, you would be able to speak without anxiety of what I hate most:
Your words? Leave. Get Out. I never want to see you again.
And when that brief statement is over, I will have to leave, and I pray to god to spare me the pain and take my soul to the depths of hell...
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