AN:/ hello lovely people! this is an AU story that i am in the process of writing, based off of a great idea a great girl by the user name of cnaheartsbotdf gave me and shes super awesome! you guys should read some of her stories! but anyway i hope you enjoy this first chapter and please review!

3rd POV

Jace was walking down the hall to his room, lost in thought. Lately he had been feeling just…not his self and he had no idea why. He felt like he was losing himself. Losing who he used to be. Jace sighed as he closed the door to his room and locked it. He walked over and sat on his bed reaching under the mattress for the small bag that contained the white powdered substance. He got up and went over to his desk laying down the ticket and dumped some of the powder onto the desk.

He had been doing this for about 4 months now. He was drinking more, going out to the clubs, getting high. It was his distraction and Alec noticed. Jace lined up the powder into a line. He leaned down and sniffed up the line, then wiped at his nose. Jace sighed at the feeling he was already experiencing. It's not enough. Jace thought to himself. Jace pulled his desk back a bit and pulled out the back of weed he had hidden back there. Jace sighed again and took out his wallet grabbing an old ticket. He dumped some of the weed onto the ticket, evening it out a bit before rolling it up in the ticket. Jace took his lighter out of his pocket and brought the joint to his lips, putting it into his mouth and lighting it. He inhaled slow and long before removing the joint from his mouth and sighing causing the smoke to be released from his lungs. He took another pull from the joint holding the smoke in his lungs a bit longer to feel that comfortable burning before letting it out. Jace leaned back in his chair and closed his eyes taking another pull and another until it was nothing but a small bud, then dropped it into the empty Monster can sitting at the edge of his desk, then fell asleep for about 10 minutes.

When Jace opened his eyes they were bloodshot. Jace giggled and stumbled over to his bed where he flopped onto it. Rolling over and staring up at the ceiling. After a while of staring at the ceiling lost in his own loopy thoughts, Jace sat up went over to the door of his bedroom and listened. He didn't hear anything so he opened the door and crept down the hall to the small kitchen that was shared between himself, Alec, and Izzy.

They had moved out of the house about a year ago when Alec turned 18 and didn't want to deal with Maryse and Robert's fighting all the time.

It seemed as though no one else was home, so he grabbed the bottle of whiskey he had hidden under the kitchen sink where neither Izzy nor Alec had ever looked for anything. Jace carried it up to his room, opening it in the process and taking a big gulp. Coughing slightly at the burning. Jace grinned and got a drunken grin on his face as he took four more long gulps of the alcohol.

Jace jumped at the sound of his phone ringing.

This used to be a funhouse, but now it's full of evil clowns

Jace laughed at the song he had made his ringtone and sat up pulling it out of his pocket.

"Hello" Jace slurred.

"Jace?" Alec said on the other end.

"Oh hey Alec! I miss you! Where are you?"

Jace said not doing a very good job of covering up the fact that he was both drunk and high. On the other end Alec sighed knowing exactly what kind of state Jace was in. Alec had been watching him for a while now noticing that over the past 4 months Jace had slowly begun to deteriorate. He had changed, started partying all the time and getting drunk. Jace had always been a partier but not like this. Now it was as if he was trying his hardest to get as drunk as possible. Trying to forget about something or someone. He wasn't sure but it scared Alec. Alec was in love with Jace, he had been for a while. He cared so much and just thought it was a phase. Now he was beginning to think something was seriously wrong with his parabatai.

"I'll be home in 5 minutes Jace. Just hold on a bit." Alec sad before hanging up on a giggling Jace.

At least he's a happy drunk. Alec thought.

AN:/ OK! so i hope you liked it please give me your thoughts on it by giving me a review! thanks for reading :)