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Author: Me
Title: I Can't Kill Her Just Yet
Summary: Jacen talks about his Sithliness over the rest of his life.
Characters: Jacen, Allana, mention of Ben
Notes: If the verb tenses look odd, it's because Jacen sometimes talks about stuff right after they happen and other times, he waits a few days before he starts speaking. I hate LOTF, especially Jacen, with a passion and this is actually based on what I heard about Bloodlines because I am boycotting the series.
Timeframe: LOTF

She's a four-year-old child and she won't resist.

I can't kill her just yet.

Her raw strength in the Force is growing.

I can't kill her just yet.

She turned seven. That's how old Ben was when I first took him.

I can't kill her just yet.

She hates me.

I can't kill her just yet.

Instead, I took her as my apprentice.

She is untrained and thus no match for me.

I can't kill her just yet.

Years went by. I am now more powerful than ever. Allana is nothing more than an annoying, teenaged amateur whose death would give me pain and strength. Still...

I can't kill her just yet.

She turned eighteen and is now officially an adult. She lived way too long.

I can't kill her just yet.

She and Ben never liked each other, not since Ben first saw her, and I should have expected this moment. She poisoned Ben like the Hapan she was and I must avenge my prized apprentice, but...

I can't kill her just yet.

She's a flower in a field of weeds and I gave her a Sith name instead. Now, she must die.

I can't kill her just yet.

Eight years passed and she married some spineless, Hapan idiot. This has to end here, but wait, this completely loyal, mindless fool has his uses as long as he is married to my daughter.

I can't kill her just yet.

I waited too long, for Allana just had twins. One of them will give rise to a powerful dynasty. These people will start wars. I had plenty of opportunities to take out Allana, but I didn't. Now, I'll have to kill them all.

I can't kill my daughter and her children just yet.

I didn't know where Allana hid the little rats.

When I least expected it, my daughter came to me alone and defeated me.

I can't kill her, ever, not after she just sent me back to the Force.