This is like my own version of New Moon. I'm not Stephenie Meyer and I do not own the characters or anything like that!!
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It's been 4 months 22 days 8 hours and 12 minutes.
I wake up to my freezing cold bed. Obviously because Edward isn't here to hold me in his arms. It is only another day, and it's nothing exciting. I've stopped trying to put on a fake smile. I haven't gone to school anymore; I've taken online classes instead. I don't go out, and that makes me sound like I have no life at all. Of course I don't. I'm not with Edward so nothing seems right anymore. I'd looked out the window to see nothing but fog, and hear the drizzle. I really wanted to just lay down and go back to bed. But I couldn't. I had things to do before my online classes started. I got out of my bed and walked down the stairs to get breakfast. Charlie was probably fishing as usual. So that meant I was home alone again today. I felt so bad that he wasn't doing anything with himself. So I told him that he should get out more besides working. He just didn't know what to do with himself because I couldn't get my act together and act like normal Bella. I just can still picture the moment of when Edward told me I will never see him again.
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"Bella, can we talk?" asked Edward.
"Uh, sure." I said nervously.
I wasn't really sure what he was going to tell me, or what we were even going to talk about. We were leaving school, and it was a Friday so he was just going to tell me that he was going hunting with Emmett and Jasper or something for the weekend.
We pulled up to my house, and got out of the car.
"Bella, I have to tell you this, and I hope that you understand." He said.
"Okay, what is it?" I said still nervous.
"Bella, were leaving. My whole family is. Well everyone else did at lunch, but I'm the last one to leave. I want you to know that I love you more then anything in this world, more then my own existence."
"Well, I'll come with, I can come with right, I don't want to be without you. I'd rather die then stay away from you. Edward I can't be without you." I said, really nervous now.
"No, Bella you can't. It'd be much too dangerous for you to come. Since your near death experience since spring. I don't think that I should be around you, just to keep you safe. I love you that much, to keep you safe."
He leaned in and kissed my forehead and the last words I heard him tell me were;
"Don't do anything dangerous to hurt yourself. Please, please just do that for me."
And after that, he smiled my favorite crooked smile, and left. He was running so fast that I couldn't see him anymore.
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I shuddered at the last thought. He just smiled at me and left. All I could say and think after that was, He's gone, he's gone, he's gone, and he's really not coming back. I don't know what I did to deserve this, I really didn't want this at all. But I just couldn't stop thinking about it. I really wasn't too worried about school today, So I thought that I could go out for a while and do some things.