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Summary:

Bella Swan was left by Edward Cullen and instantly turned into the local bad girl. She healed like he said she would; with the help of drugs, alcohol and other things. But what happens when Edward comes back for her? (Takes place 4 months after he leaves)

BPOV

Flashback

"You…don't…want me?"

"No"

"Goodbye Bella," he said in the same quiet, peaceful voice.

"Take care of yourself," he breathed, cool against my skin. There was a light, unnatural breeze. My eyes flashed open. The leaves on a small vine maple shuddered with the gentle wind of his passage.

He was gone

End of Flashback(A/n: I know I cut out a lot of things. If I put everything else it would have been its own chapter)

Every day I had to wake up to the empty, cold room without seeing his beautiful sculpted face. I wallowed in my pity for 4 hard months that could have passed for torture; a reoccurring dream that would leave me waking up screaming and sweating. I cut myself off from the world and spent most of my days silent. Soon, I found my escape.

I had seen a couple of kids do it behind the school. One day I followed them. There, Lauren Mallory and Jessica Stanley stood there smoking marijuana. Jessica looked at me and snorted."You look like hell, Bella," she smirked."I think we can help…" Lauren mused as she handed me some. I smoked a little of it and my whole world started to fade away. Edward's haunting face disappeared; his velvet voice became a light hum. After inhaling massive amounts, I became numb. I glanced at Lauren and Jess and they curtly smiled back.

"Thanks," I breathed.

"No problem…hey do you want to hang out on Friday?" Lauren smiled at me.

"Sure," I responded. Since then, Jess, Lauren, and I have been inseparable. Well, almost. There are sometimes when I'm at one boys house and they're at two other's houses. Edward had become and distant memory that barely resurfaced; unless I was in biology which was rare. I usually ditch biology and other classes. Teachers were accustomed to it by now. They just sighed, rolled their eyes, and continued. Life was perfect for me; no hole, no pain, no Edward; Just me, the girl, drugs, alcohol, and one night stands. Being as oblivious to life as usual, I didn't get the hint that the world as I knew it was going to change forever. Being the local bad girl was going to cause even more pain than I could imagine.

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