james sat , thinking about a paticular red head ,with emerald green eyes , and a million dollar smile , that allways made him smirk more broadly then ever , but of course to lily this was just a sign that he had done someting really REALLY bad , and she never wanted to know what. " oh prongsie my darling , old remus has been waiting for so long , he was getting worried " , siruis came storming over with a large grin forming on his face when lupin blushed , and whacked siruis hard on the back.
"ow moony "
" yes padfoot my lovely airheaded twit"
"will you to stop bickering "
siruis looked taken aback at what james had said,and james noticed and quickly added in
" before old wormtail here wets himself with laughter "
pointing to a chubby kid rolling on the floor at the sight of the two best friends arguing , everyone laughed , untill by accident it kinda slipped up , to be honest , he really didn't mean it , but siruis really REALLY ruined it for james , and may be even their frendship.
" thank god james , i thought you were going to back turn into a woman , like last time , ewwwwwwwwww i mean you'd be sleeping in the girls dormitry again bluch.
siruis suddenly stopped dead in his tracks
oh god james is gunna hate me for saying that , sirius thought worriedly
james looked taken aback at first , but then he finally realised what his so called best mate had just told the whole school , and lily was sitting right there , with an angry expression that she ws trying to hide , but she could never hide it from him , and she knew that. they both knew that.
prongs gave an evil glare to padfoot , getting up to storm out , slowly going a dark shade of mahogany red .
" oh damn , seeya remus , seeya peter , " siruis waited hopefully , but james just turned and said.
" is that every one , seeya everyone EXEPT BLACK " he started to give a small but weak grin to lily , but stopped , " oh stuff it i'm going to bed wake me up and u'll find out how it feels to have the crutiates spell put on you . He stormed out with every one looking disbelievly at siruis
" what i never meant it " and he to stormed out .
lily groaned to her friends
" oh shit "
"what lily"
"black and potter with the ump "
" yeh so "
" at the same time "
" oh god , anyway i better go calm him down , i really don't think he meant it , he never tells anyone any secrets "
"your going to black , what about potter " tammie one of her best friends came running over exitedly
"well siruis is my boyfriend , not james so stuff him" carrie exlaimed
" jamie needs cheering up to , siruis just told a really big , astonishing , "she added in , "secret "
don't worry i'll go , anyway it's the boys common room , snd if you really wanna go over there , be my guest.
tammie turned so quick , that she doulbled over and tripped
" wo tammie , careful, you see if in were pad , or prongsie , i would just let you falll , but you know me much better than that " tammie looked up , to see a smirking lupin staring down and gripping her arms to stop her from falling .
she blushed
" i-i-i-i-i was j-just asto-o-onished sor-r-ry "
remus frowned she , tammie stammering , she never stamered it wasn't her, and for reason he didn't know why he really
REALLY LIKED it.
" siruis " carrie shouted looking franticly around for sirius
siruis sat in the corner of the library , feeling stupid and upset , they were best friends , and he had to say that , what a plonker , he really hadn't meant it , and now he was gonna do somethin bac... ohhhhhhhhhh no , siruis panicked , last friday , he had spilled millions of secrets , about his gfriend tammie , he was drunk and james was taking advantage AGAIN , shit he'll tell her , it will ruin me , i love her so much , oh god did i just think that . " ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh "
tammie rebounded she knew that scream , it was so familiar , and it came from the library
siruis ran , he knew carrie had bin looking for him , he sat down on his bed , looking over at james lying their peace-fully , he gasped a letter plopped down in front of him " thanks errol u clutz , go through the window , he laughed and then looked at the letter frowning slightly, he was scared , it had the mark of worry ,
" shit " he shouted loudly
" shutup bastard ttrying to get to sleep here " james grumbled half asleep , but awake enough to know that it was siruis
siruis fumbled through the letter and gasped , he ranout of his dorm and into carrie's
'' oh god c-c-c arrie please wake up plz '' he shook her knowing she'd do her nut , but he did'nt care
lily woke up and screamed , causing the lot of her dorm friends to wake up , including carrie
" SIRUIS GET OUT GET OUT GET ...
siruis looked astonished at first , he could feel tears welling up in his eyes , and rolling down his supple cheeks , and could hear an uncontrollable cry .that seemed to be coming from him .
carrie stared ,
remus burst in and went straight over to tammie , who was blushing furuiosly
'' errrr not a good time then aye , padfoot are you crying " , siruis covered his face in embarrasment , wishing his best friend ( james ) was here right now.
" no go on what did you want to tell tammie , siruis said trying to grin but failing miserably
" n-n-n-no don't worry , another time , why r u crying , lupin suddenly looked nervous and wracked .
" siruis sat down , well first it was james ...
" oh 4 god sake is that it " ;lly asked annoyed
"no then th-th-there was a letter ...
" go on " lupin sed frowning miserably , everyone knew he allready knew , he had to be soooo smart didn't he.
" mum a-a-and dad a-re d-d-d- "
" oh you lot shut the hell up " everyone looked round to see an annoyed james at the doorstep , " awww is paddfoot cwying , should knew , he allways cry's baby , he laughrd evilly , and turned as tho he was the best guy in the universe , and slammed the door shut .
" why me , he was my best friend , i like him still , but he toild everyon " no that was a lie , he didnt care bout htat , but lily had heard , EMBARRASSING , he stormed back up to his dorm and lay flat on his bed , slowly drifting off to sleep. dreaming about a red heard girl called lily.
" now that the GIT has gone , back to the subject ," lily paused , '' siruis ''
" i can't say it " " read the letter
" oh god siruis i'm so sorry , he suddenly felt llots of arms and remus eyes , feeling very sorry for him , but he wern't happy , he needed james to be sorry for him to , he couldn't get through it if james wern't there
lupin knew exactly what padfoot was thinking " don't worry , he'll get over it , but you really need do need james to get you through it , i mean he's the only one who can help with this sorta thing , "
" huh " lily looked mockingly " james couldn't in a hartbeat." she laughed , but stopped when she felt 2 pairs of boy's eyes glaring at her .
" what "
" MAY- BE TO YOU JAMES , IS AN ARSE OLLE , BUT THATS ONLY BECAUSE HE'S BEEN TRYING TO WIN YOU OVER FOR THE PAST 3 YEARS "
" but "
"lupin continued , ignoring lil'y s interuption " HE REALLY IS NICE WHEN YOU GET TO KNOW HIM , HE'S THE ONLY ONE THAT GOT ME THROUGH MY PARENTS DEATH , shit i can't speak loud anymore , but you know fully well what i mean.
" oh don't look so suprised '' s iruis said with a note of sarcasm in his voice , but it vanished as quick as it had appeared , i'm going to bed guys , he wiped his tears , just in case james was up , and went to sleep thinking about his parents , and the last words he had said to them , thank god he was nice that day , thank god ..
james woke up and went down for his breakfast , i need to tell padfoot and lupin about my dream , he thought , no wait i don't like padfoot , ohh remus will just smile , i need padfoot to smirk and start to crack up histericly , he WAS my best friend , but maybe he still feels like it , he sit at the griffyndor table , staring into space , numbingly
carrie and lily walked past him , and james couldn't help but turn to carrie and say
" hey carries so how is that big boil on your back , and the doll you cuddle every night " he remarked laughing
" huh , how do you know that "
" old GITTY siruis " he said through clenched teeth "
carrie stormed of to find siruis , and in none other than 3 minutes , padfoot came running in looking really sad , and crying because of it "
james hated to see him cry , god why was he feeling guilty , he did it to him , but he couldn't help it , he wasn't ever the one to do stuff to his m8's , he knew siruis never meant it , but it had hurt , but why was he doing it that bad , i mean " carrie meant the world to him , i'm evil , evil , evil " he started to bang his head in repetion to , im evil , he rembered lily and james started to feel him-self tense up this was his last year , and james had alllready showed he was an arrogant prick , no way was she ever going to like him now
not having a clue she was their he started to mutter things under his breath " god i'm a prick , what is wrong with me , i an arrogant ,useless , airheaded stuck-up bubble headed disaster , just like mum and dad had all-ways said , i h8 them if they hadn't done it to me , i would be nicer , well id be a bit nicer , so i could at least become friends with lily , she must think im an idiot , a stupid , thick , ugly , disaster , i don't see how so many girls can actully like me , i mean if you looked at me properly , i aint that good , siruis is better than me , and so is lupin , yet no-one goes 4 him , gods i'm confused "
lily smiled , he had changed a bit after all , her stomach sarted to move inside her , as she looked at him , her lip started to tremble , he was so gorgeus , no what am i thinking ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww , this is james potter , JAMES POTTER WERE TALKING ABOUT , not brad pitt, she shook of the thought , james looked up with a dazed lily standing over him " ahhhhhh" he fell back and THUD he lay flat on his back on the floor " owww" he grinned
" god i love that smile " lily thought
' ewwwwwwwww ' she sed out loud
'' oh come on evans i'm not that bad '
'' look i have to go ''
carrie was smirking " you like james potter , she whispered directly into lily's ear " no i do not "
do to
do not
do too
do not
doo not
doo to
" see i tolfd u , she laughed "
" anyway u and situis "
" i hate him , hate him , HATE HIM , siruis looked over , pretending to look happy , but everyone knew when he was upset , his eyes didn't twinkle nearly enough , and he hadn't cracked a joke , or a prank in 2 days.
lly stormed up to james and started to shout " what "
" you self centered git , look what you done to black , potter."
" look he deserved it , after what he said "
" oh get over it , can't you see he's down right miserable without having you as a friend , he really didn't know , plzzzzz just "
" NO I ABSOLUTLY HATE HIM , AND BLACK KNOW YOU , DON'T YOU DOG ,, he spat , siruis got up and turned to him , '' I HATE YOU JAMES , YOU KNOW WHAT YOU REMEMBER WHAT LILY SAID , THAT YOU GO UPSET ALL WEEK , I SAY EXACTLY WHAT SHE SAID , EXEPT THAT YOU R A HORRIBLE FRIEND , AND PETER Y PUT A ONION IN FRONT OF MY FACE , he shouted trying to cover up the fact he was crying , but james knew , he wanted to cry too , but decided against it .
" ohhhhhhh " he banged his hed on the table once more , leaving nothing but a mark on the top of his fore-head , james looked fustreated , he hated him self , and lily hated him more . " god i'm a prick "
" yes you r , now say sorry , he needs you to help him get through it " she sat down next to him , feeling nher pulse skip , and she did'nt know why
" get through what " james asked aware of lily's closeness , and his hart beat like a drum playing in perfect symphony .
" did no one tell you , he needs someone , and now that carrie's gone he has no-one to talk to , you could have helped him triugh it , he needs YOU , he realyy misses you too , altho he's too stubborn to admit it . james , hisparents are dead , gone , by voldemort .
" SHIT ''
''james ''
'' i'm an idiot "
" SIRUIS "
" WHAT ,
LOOK I'M REALLY SORRY , ABOUT EVERYTHING ,
siruis turned and shook his head , go away and leave ,me alone , i have somehing to do ,
lily walked to james and sed , nothing u can do will let him like you now
. but there was something he could do , something that would get siruis friendship back , not to mention winning lily , but 4 once he didn't care , this one would be brilliant , an anouncement to remember