Title: All Things Considered - Chapter 1

Disclaimer: I own nothing, except a few CDs and my extended book selection. So, no suing. Thanks.

Summary: Two and a half years after Jess walks away from her life, for what he thought would be for the last time, Rory's moving on with Logan, and She now has to realize what, or who, she truly wants. Luke and Lorelai are engaged, and waiting for Rory to reconcile with Lorelai before they make a wedding date, but there has been serious planning for it already. Logan proposed to Rory on their Year and a Half anniversary.

A/N: This is my first Fanfic that I've had the pleasure of putting out there. So, if you could go easy on the criticism. All the characters are a little…OOC. Logan is nice, I don't hate Logan, though I am a Literati fan. Completely and totally. I have no real reason to hate Logan except for what happened in Nov. 8th episode…that was so uncool, him treating Jessy like that. Okay anyways, please enjoy the story, and please review, and tell me if you want me to keep posting more of the story. Thanks.

The rain was falling steadily outside the window. The sky's grey was stretched as far as the eye could see. A small brunette slowly turned on her side on the queen sized bed she was resting on. She opened her cerulean blue eyes to face the sleeping bundle next to her. He looked so peaceful, his brown hair going every which way and his face relaxed, easy to read. He was content and there was a twisted smirk on his face, the smirk that drove her absolutely insane, the smirk she had fallen in love with.

"Jess.." Rory Gilmore whispered softly, nudging him.

"Mmmph," was the only answer she received.

"Jess…" Rory stated, louder, causing the man next to moved a pillow over his face.

"Sleep," Jess Mariano muttered, hiding his face in the pillow.

"Come on, Jess…" Rory said, nudging him again as she pulled the pillow away from his face. "What?" he asked, opening an eye to glance at her.

"Hey," she whispered.

"Please tell me there's more to that than, 'Hey'" Jess demanded, his voice laced with sleep.

"I woke up and I couldn't go back to sleep…and its raining." Rory whispered, sitting up slightly and nodding to the window.

"So you had to wake me up?" Jess whispered, closing his eyes, and replacing the pillow beneath his head.

"Yeah," Rory said with a smile.

"You want me to get up, don't you?" Jess asked softly.

"Mmhmm."

Jess sighed and sat up slightly, leaning against the headboard with his eyes closed. "Come here," he whispered, opening his eyes slightly to see her.

She nodded and scooted over. He placed an arm around her and she laid her head on his chest. "I love you," Rory whispered, closing her eyes. Jess smiled, she could hear him smile, it was the way he said the next words.

"I love you too, Ror."

Rory Gilmore sat up quickly, not thinking, her eyes popped open as she looked around the room. It was large, and decorated with the finest furniture, nothing like her dream; not the darkened walls, no peeling wallpaper, no rickety bed, no clothes strewn across the room. Everything was perfect, everything was clean. She sighed.

"What's wrong?" Logan asked, sitting up slightly next to her.

She looked at her hands. Her engagement ring caught her eye, it was huge. She didn't like it; she wanted something simple, but she didn't say anything to Logan. He would only say she deserved the best but the best was not what she wanted.

"Logan… are you happy?" Rory asked looking over at him.

"Trick question?" Logan asked smiling slightly.

"No. I just want to know…" Rory asked. She saw the light in his eyes; the light that she couldn't have in hers. She had lost that when she lost Jess.

"Yeah, I'm happy, Ace. I'm the happiest I've ever been." Logan said, pulling her towards him, "What about you?" he asked, sensing something was wrong.

"Logan… I realized something tonight, just now. I love you… but Logan… I'm not in love with you," Rory whispered, tears forming in her eyes. She slowly took her engagement ring off. "I think you should take this back. I'm not the girl who can give you the love you deserve. I hope we can just be friends," Rory told him softly as she put the engagement ring in his hand. She stood up and started dressing. She grabbed a bag and started packing her things.

"Ace? What the hell is going on?" Logan asked, standing up and coming to her side.

"I'm not in love with you! I can't be, when my mind is always on someone else, someone who isn't even around," Rory said, turning to face him.

Logan sighed, looking her over. He loved her like she loved him, he wasn't that in love with her anymore, their fire had burned down to nothing but smoldering coals. "Okay, okay. Listen to me, you don't have anywhere to go. You should just… stay here for now, until you can find an apartment, or a place to stay. I understand what you're feeling, but I don't want to let you live in your car and I'm okay with the whole… not loving me thing… 'Cause face it, our passion is other places, not here," he said, gesturing to the space between them. "We'll tell everyone we are calling off the engagement tomorrow, the next day, whenever we're ready. And we'll get the rest of your things packed." Logan added.

Rory sighed with a slight smile. "I'll always love you, you know? It's just, I can't be in love with you. I'm sorry," Rory whispered, her eyes tearing up.

"Don't cry, Ace. Please." Logan whispered, drawing her to him and holding her. "So tell me about this guy who has your heart." Logan said casually, a few minutes after her sobs subsided.

It was shocking to her that he wasn't more hurt. Maybe they weren't meant for each other. "His name is Jess. I met him in my Junior year of high school. I liked him for the longest time but I was dating Dean and I was supposed to be in love with him. Then, at my mom's best friend's wedding, which I went to with Dean, Jess showed up, and I kissed him." Rory paused, "I then proceeded to run away to Washington D.C. the next day, because I was elected Vice President, or whatever. So six weeks go by, and I'm thinking of breaking up with Dean, and I come home, and the town is having a summer festival…and Jess is there making out with his girlfriend Shane. I was hurt. It sucked, but I was still with Dean…"

Rory stopped and pulled away from Logan to sit on the bed. "So, later on in our Senior year, at this dance marathon, Dean and I break up, and then Jess and I get together soon after that. We had so much in common, but the thing I hated was that he wouldn't talk to me, after everything, he couldn't tell me about how he was feeling. He dropped out of high school, he didn't take me to my prom. He then proceeded to run away; I had to find out from my mom when Luke, Jess' uncle, started avoiding me. I was hurt and pissed." Rory sighed, looking up at Logan. He was smiling sadly. "He called. Said nothing, but I knew it was him, I yelled at him, told him I thought I loved him. I knew I did, but he didn't need to know that. I told him I was through, I wasn't going to pine. But I did… I didn't date anybody my whole freshman year of college. Then when he finally came back, he told me he loved me and then ran away again. What the hell was he thinking, I mean, hadn't he already hurt me enough?" Rory said angrily.

"Then, a couple of months later…he comes back, yet again, for his mom's wedding. He came to my dorm and begged me to go with him, go to New York and work and live with him. I sent him away. Even though deep down I really wanted to go, cause this was Jess, my Jess. Who I would've had sex with if we had been anywhere other than that damn party that sent our relationship to hell!" Rory sighed, "I still love him. I don't get that, he hurt me and I still love him."

Rory looked at Logan with wide eyes. "I'm sorry I shouldn't have told you all that… You didn't really need to know… the whole story…" Rory whispered, looking at Logan.

"It's all right. I don't mind much. Come on, go back to sleep. I'm going to the study," Logan stated, before moving out of the room. Rory started crying as she cuddled up to the pillow and fell asleep.
Rory woke the next morning by herself. She shrugged off the comforter and slid out of bed. "Logan?" Rory called out softly, heading down the hall towards the study. Logan was sitting at the desk, staring down at it. "Logan?" Rory whispered walking towards him slowly.

"Hey." Logan's voice was slightly raspy, and he sounded like he hadn't slept. Rory saw the engagement ring and papers sprawled out on the desk. "Logan…" Rory started.

"Please, just don't right now. I don't want to hear your many apologies. It doesn't make this any better. It's gonna take some time." Logan stated, reading her easily. "Listen, you can stay for as long as you need. We are still friends after all, but you need to find this guy before he finds someone else," Logan added. "Do you know how you are going to find him?" Logan asked as she sighed.

"I guess I could ask Luke for his address…maybe tell him that I need it to send an invitation to my engagement party. Yeah, it would be a lie, but this is for a good cause." Rory stated, looking at her hands. Logan stood up and smiled at her sadly. "I'm going to go get some rest. I have a meeting this afternoon, with my father. Tell me what you need before you leave to find this guy, I can set you up in a hotel or whatever." Logan said kissing her temple and heading out of the study. Rory sat down at the desk for a minute looking at the engagement ring. She picked it up and put it on, knowing that someone would notice her not wearing it in the Hollow. She went back to the master suite, and smiled at Logan who was lying in bed. "I have to wear my engagement ring to Stars Hollow. Someone, anyone, would notice me not wearing it. I'll be back by the time you leave for your meeting, so I'll put it back in the study." Rory said as she started to change.

"All right," Logan said as he slowly fell asleep.

Rory frowned in thought, as she pulled on a nice cream colored ¾ sleeves shirt. She walked over and kissed Logan's forehead. "You were the best boyfriend that I could ask for, Logan," she whispered to him, even though she knew he was asleep. She slid out of the room, after grabbing her keys and her bag, and headed out to her car.

Rory pulled up to the diner, and put the car in park. She slid out and headed in. It was empty. Luke was sitting behind the counter looking over tickets and receipts. He looked up, once, before looking back down, then his head shot up.

"Rory?" Luke asked, he thought it couldn't be her, she hadn't been home in months. Not since Luke had told her he and her mother were engaged.

"Hey, Luke…" Rory said with a sad smile.

"How are you?" Luke asked, grabbing a mug and the coffee pot and filling it for her.

"Good. Engaged." Rory said lifting her hand to show him the ring. "But you should know that, Grandma told mom…" Rory added, sighing as she looked at the counter. She was lying, she wasn't engaged anymore. But she needed to keep cover. "We're having an engagement party thing. And I wanted to invite…Jess." Rory paused before continuing. "Do you have his address?"

Luke looked her over. "Rory, do you think that is the best idea? I mean, why would you want to invite Jess…He's the guy that broke your heart," he stated.

"Yeah, but he's almost family. He's gonna be my cousin… I want him to be there." Rory said with a forced smile.

"Fine," Luke said, grabbing a pen and jotting down the address. "He might not come," he added, handing it to her.

"Thanks Luke. Tell mom I said hi. And I have to get home." Rory said with a smile. She finished off her coffee, stood up, kissed Luke's cheek and with a hug, left him standing there. As she pulled away from the curb her only thought was, 'I'm going to see Jess again.'

A/N-2: Please Review, it'll make me extremely happy. I have Chapter two in the works, tell me if it is even worth putting up. Thanks for reading.