One shot…Tony is thinking of Ziva, and he is thinking very deep thoughts.
Have you ever loved someone so much it hurt? I'm there right now. Every moment, you just want to be next to them, and all their problems, you just want to take them away. But there is that line that they won't let you cross, that line that not only they but also work won't let you cross. But you watch, and wait, and there is that moment when she rounds the corner, wearing those earrings and that necklace like always, and you just want to take her into your arms and just tell her how you feel. Every inch of you feels like she is so important and vital to you, and without her, life would never be the same. And it is true, now that you have found her, now that she is here, apart of your life, to be without her…You just never want to let her go. That is how I feel about Ziva David. There is so much I want to tell her, but I can't. If she knew, I think she would laugh and me, think me insane and walk off in her usual manner. And my heart would break, I would be so crushed. But if I don't ever tell her, she will never know, and if she never knows, then I never have a chance do I?
I wish she could know that it's not just about sex with her, its about a lifetime. I wish she could know how much she means to me, but Gibbs won't allow it! Rule 12. I hate it…I want her so badly, but there is that stumbling block in my way. Why can't I just tell her how I feel? Maybe because then it would all be real…Maybe because then all the truths would be told and she would have to decide if she loved me or not. Maybe because then I would have to be serious, and honestly, most people think I am not ready for a serious relationship, but I am. Now that I am older, I am ready! I just want her…My Ziva…to know…That I do love her….With all my heart…And I will never ever cheat on her if she gives me a chance…I think I am going to take that risk now…