Everything… was lost.
Gone.
Vanished.
All the things I loved in life: my mother, my father, my family, my friends.

And here I was.
Sitting.
Waiting for something to happen.
Someone to find me.
And someone did.

I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won

"Abraham?" I asked tentatively.
The man nodded. "Hi Lorin."

Abraham… he left me. Years ago. To live somewhere else. With someone else.

"Where were you?"
"Away. The point is I'm back now. And I'm sorry Lorin… sorry for leaving you."

And he was gone.

It was an illusion. Abraham was never here.

In his place was a tall, dark man.

"Who are you?"

All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?"
He said, "Ask anything"

"I've been watching you."

"Who are you?"

"Ask anything."

Where were you
when everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
That never rang
And all I needed was a call
That never came
To the corner of First and Amistad

I looked up at him. "Where's Abraham?" I asked, whispering.

"Dead."

"No. He's not. When is he coming back?"

"He's never coming back, Lorin. He's gone,"

I let the pure truth of this man's words envelope me. Abraham was gone, and never coming back.

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

The man spoke. His voice was deep, and very powerful. He seemed familiar, but I couldn't place a name to him…

"Lorin, it will be alright. Abraham died for a good cause."

Sudden fury took over me, and all of the sudden I was standing up and shouting at the man.

"Abraham is NOT DEAD! I don't even know you! How do you expect me to believe some random stranger telling me that my best friend is dead?"

The man smiled. "I don't."

In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who's ever known
Who I am
Who I'm not, who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me

The next few days were hell. I didn't know how to live knowing that the only person that I held close to my heart that still might be alive was dead. I remember staring into Abraham's chocolate eyes, and hugging him tight. I remember his smell, the springtime that never changed. Despite the smoke and general grayness of the area, he was spring, every day. He was the fresh aroma of flowers us people in District Eight rarely ever smelt.

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

I dreamt about him that night. That he was alive, that he was well, that he was laughing at me for believing that strange man. I woke up that morning, sobbing.

I never got to tell him that I loved him.

Early morning
The city breaks
I've been calling'
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
Ya never send me no letters
You got some kinda nerve
Taking all I want

I couldn't take it anymore. I didn't want to live anymore. There was no point in waking up every day when everyone I knew was asleep, forever. I took the rope and tied it to the light. I imagined the look when they found my body, and I let myself hang.

You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Why'd you have to wait?
To find me, to find me.