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Notes: Okay so I watched the season permire and it was just wrong. I felt so bad for Bosco and you and I know they will make up but here's my version of they way the apoligy should go and you know in my world Fred is always dead.
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She looks at me. I know what she's thinking and for some odd reason I want to forgive her but then again I can't bring myself to say the words. She spent the last five minutes begging me to forgive the awful, hurtful words she said yesterday but I can't. She is the one thing in the world I couln't bare to lose but I have to tell her. I need her to know the pain I'm feeling. I look at her and see the fear in her eyes. The fear I will never again be the friend she needs me to be. Why should I. I'm usless right.
"Bosco..."
"Go home Faith. I can't deal with this shit now." I try to close the door but she stops me.
"I was hurting Bosco. I was upset."
"And I wasn't. I couldn't find you for twelve god damn hours Faith. " I turn around and go into the apartment and try to make some sence of the way I feel.
"My husband..."
"Yeah I know Faith. He's dead. And I'm sorry for that. But I can't change that. I have feelings and you know what? I thought I actually loved you." I cringe. Damn I didn't want to tell her that. Not now. Maybe not ever. "I know I'm being selfish. I know that you loved Fred. But Faith the things you said. I can't just forgive you. Your the one person in the world I thought I had in my corner. God how could I have been so wrong."
"You love me?" She looked at me and tears flowed down her cheeks.
"I needed you yesterday just as much as you needed me. I was there, where the hell were you?"
"Bosco we were both wrong. Yes you were there for me and I said things that I didn't mean. We need to get past this. I can't do it without you. I can't be me without you." I look at her with surprise. Did she just say she needed me. "I'll always be in your corner. I let anger get in the way of what I've always know Bos. That you're in mine too." She comes up behind me and puts her arms around me. I turn and lay her head on my shoulder. God how can I not forgive her. How can I live without her in my life.
"Faith....I swear I'm not useless. I can be there for you just like your always there for me." Tears fell down my cheeks. "It hurt so much."
"I'm so sorry Bosco. I can never tell you how sorry I am. God forgive me." I knew God would but as for me I still wasn't sure. My heart was broken. My pride briused. My best friend's hurtful words had made me feel empty and for the first time since meeting Faith I felt alone. Utterly alone and it scared me. Now was not the time to tell her it's over. Fred was gone and she needs me for awhile. When she was done grieving I will walk away. Maybe then she would realize how much her words had hurt.
Notes: Okay so I watched the season permire and it was just wrong. I felt so bad for Bosco and you and I know they will make up but here's my version of they way the apoligy should go and you know in my world Fred is always dead.
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She looks at me. I know what she's thinking and for some odd reason I want to forgive her but then again I can't bring myself to say the words. She spent the last five minutes begging me to forgive the awful, hurtful words she said yesterday but I can't. She is the one thing in the world I couln't bare to lose but I have to tell her. I need her to know the pain I'm feeling. I look at her and see the fear in her eyes. The fear I will never again be the friend she needs me to be. Why should I. I'm usless right.
"Bosco..."
"Go home Faith. I can't deal with this shit now." I try to close the door but she stops me.
"I was hurting Bosco. I was upset."
"And I wasn't. I couldn't find you for twelve god damn hours Faith. " I turn around and go into the apartment and try to make some sence of the way I feel.
"My husband..."
"Yeah I know Faith. He's dead. And I'm sorry for that. But I can't change that. I have feelings and you know what? I thought I actually loved you." I cringe. Damn I didn't want to tell her that. Not now. Maybe not ever. "I know I'm being selfish. I know that you loved Fred. But Faith the things you said. I can't just forgive you. Your the one person in the world I thought I had in my corner. God how could I have been so wrong."
"You love me?" She looked at me and tears flowed down her cheeks.
"I needed you yesterday just as much as you needed me. I was there, where the hell were you?"
"Bosco we were both wrong. Yes you were there for me and I said things that I didn't mean. We need to get past this. I can't do it without you. I can't be me without you." I look at her with surprise. Did she just say she needed me. "I'll always be in your corner. I let anger get in the way of what I've always know Bos. That you're in mine too." She comes up behind me and puts her arms around me. I turn and lay her head on my shoulder. God how can I not forgive her. How can I live without her in my life.
"Faith....I swear I'm not useless. I can be there for you just like your always there for me." Tears fell down my cheeks. "It hurt so much."
"I'm so sorry Bosco. I can never tell you how sorry I am. God forgive me." I knew God would but as for me I still wasn't sure. My heart was broken. My pride briused. My best friend's hurtful words had made me feel empty and for the first time since meeting Faith I felt alone. Utterly alone and it scared me. Now was not the time to tell her it's over. Fred was gone and she needs me for awhile. When she was done grieving I will walk away. Maybe then she would realize how much her words had hurt.